One day at a time

I'm scared.
Tomorrow is scary.
Tomorrow I go for a check up and I get to ask questions.
I'm scared.

Things are not right in my body. I'm all out of whack. Bruises won't heal and I'm weak, a lot. I'm worried.

Finding strength is hard. Finding peace is easy. Trusting that things will be ok is easy.

I have my theatre friends, the ones who know care a lot. They've gotten me through the semester without worry. Loving hugs and smiles. They can see through me. They know I'm terrified to find out. Even if I am fine, its still scary.

The one thing I am fighting to find a cure for, is what I might have. And then what?

Lord,
I am scared. Please be by my side. I know you will be. Comfort me oh Lord.


I am scared.