Some days....

I just want to yell
or scream
or cry
or hit something.

Today was one of those days. So there is this guy who always comes into my work and he has developed this crush on me and he's a few years older than me. I'm getting a bit freaked out by the whole deal cause he's assuming things and taking things way too fast for my liking. It makes me want to quit work but I make such good money there I can't afford to right now. Hopefully when I go back to school he will forget about me.

I leave for a conference tomorrow and it goes until the new year. I'm really quite excited for it. I get to see a whole bunch of my friends and make a ton more. I'm going to miss spending time with my family, especially taking the trip to see the Mummers Parade and my uncle and cousin marching in it. I hope that next year we go again so that I will be able to go. So that's a good thing.

Another good thing is that I am getting my new computer soon. Within minutes that's how soon and I cannot wait!!! So I'm gonna go finish packing soI can mess around with my computer!

Remember guys: A dream is a wish Your heart makes!

The Tug on my Heart

Tonight was great. I got to spend time with my amazing family who is just out of this world. They are beautiful!!! I love each and every one of them because each and everyone is unique. They are really special to me.

As we were driving home from my grandparent's tonight, I saw a really bad car accident. I lifted those people and their families up to God. It's just horrible how people don't pay attention during Christmas season. It was obviously the result of someone running a red light. People are just always in a hurry. Truth be told I would rather be late and get there safely, then be in a hurry and not get there at all. Especially during Christmas. This is a time for family, friends and most importantly love. Love of family and friends and God's love for us that He gave His ONLY son so that we might be free of sin. Talk about a love story.

Dear World,
Please slow down this Holiday Season. Please stay careful and safe. Be with the ones you love and remember the One who Loves Us more than anything else in this world. Realize that your actions will effect others. You could ruin and entire family's Christmas just as someone could ruin yours. Please take time to consider everyone else in the world. That's just one of the many ways we can achive peace. Love one another and be examples of Christ's love for others. I love you all dearly!
~Me~

Everyone be safe and spread lots of love this holiday!!!

Relaxing Days

I must say that relaxing days are gifts from God.

Today was so nice. I picked up some last minute Christmas gifts and baked cookies. While baking cookies I sang Christmas songs at the top of my lungs. If you want to get rid of holiday stress, I highly suggest it. I also watched Pride and Prejudice in HD. A great movie, but it's even better in HD.

Later I went out with my mom and just hung out. We picked up some gifts and grabbed some dinner. I love hanging out with my mom. She's so wonderful!

In short, it was really nice to relax and take things slowly. It was also great to bond with my family. I'll have friend time later. Right now I need family time. It's been a really long time since we had family time. I love my family and I have no idea where I'd be without them. Tomorrow I get to go to work bright and early and then have Christmas at my grandmom's house!!! I love it and I'm so excited.

Later days!

Amazing Gifts

Friends are beautiful blessings from God. They always seem to light up our world when we need it most.

So today I saw a bunch of friends!!! Two of my girls were working at the Diner today so i stopped in to see then and we had some great conversation. I think we are even going to get a manicure and pedicure tomorrow so that will be fun.

I also got to hang out and go shopping with one of the bestest. We had a blast and we were able to hang out at my house for a bit. I am such a good gift picker for people I don't know! haha. No we had so much fun! I love Christmas shopping! I even got a Christmas outfit!!! It's cute! I love it! So we had a great time! I really needed to just have a fun relaxing time. I feel like the stress of finals is still lingering. I'm really not into Christmas this year. However this weekend looks promising.

I love hanging out with Family and friends and of course...Christmas mass!!! it will be wonderfuL!!!!! I can't wait!

Until then...

I'm back!!!

Hello kids,
I'm back. I'm sorry this has been seconded to school work. My life at school has gotten quite hectic. Being in theatre, I try to keep up with work, school work, Tv Production classes, and shows. I love shows. Seeing shows, being in shows, acting, just pretending. It's beautiful.
I'd like to throw a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! to all you who realize that Jesus was born in a manger with nothing and He left this world with all of our sins. I'd like to wish a Happy Holidays!!! to all of you who read this and are not Christan. I love this time of year. Winter is a wonderful season. It can be extremely beautiful. However, I must admit, I am finding this Christmas not as exciting as most. I feel a bit left out.
As you all know, this a big season for love. Well I'm growing up and wish to have love. However I know that Christ's Love is eternal and extremely beautiful and amazing fufilling. But God made women out of man and therefore we desire to be with man. We desire to be loved. I've gone through many Christmases without love. I know this desire may seem to make me selfish. I know that I must Trust God to fufill this desire which He creates. Sometimes it just gets difficult. I have experienced what it truely means to have love in Christ. And well perhaps that is why I desire love even more this Christmas season. It's just something I need to constantly pray for strength for. I know that this love will come at God's perfect timing. That it will be beautiful beyond measure and that God will have blessed it. But what if I've missed it? Will it come back?

The heart of a romantic can never be satisfied. However I refuse to think that Princes and Knights in Shining Armor do not exist. I truely believe that they do. They are few and rare. However, they are beautiful and well worth the wait.

His love with reach mountain tops.

Summertime

So this summer is turning out to be a drap right now. I think once classes are over and I have some time to myself or time to get another job or something, I'll be ok. Classes are sucking up my life there is so much work. Spanish is over next thursday which is good because yeah, it's getting old. Then I work until I die pretty much lol.

Nothing interesting is going on or else I would tell you and no one reads this thing anyway. I'll try to post more incase someone does decide to read it. anyway I'll catch you kids later.

Beautiful Ocean Ave

So I just got back from the house on Ocean Ave. Beautiful place. I wish I could spend all summer there, come and go when I please and just relax. But in the real world, I have car payments, cell phone bills, college tuition, and Life. Yes when you need money, you must work for it. I will be working two job, summer classes, and earning money every little way that I can. Yes I have saved a lot of money over this past year from working at the rink at school, but now I can see myself spending it. I mean I have worked hard to earn my money and to save it.

My boyfriend came down to visit me and he brought his best friend. My cousin was with me and we wanted to just relax. It was great. Mr. Music and his friend stayed two nights to our three and it was amazing. We had a blast, played Life, Pictionary, and Uno, watched comedians, and just chilled. I love spending time with people who are important to me. These kids were so amazing. They are right up there with Team Awesome, who I miss dearly and yearn to see them. I really hope that I can get up to school for our summer get together.

Anyways Life is a song, it is beautiful and sweet, slow and melodic, it's music to everyone's ears.

keep it real.

But I thought I was home...

So leaving school for the summer after one full year was extremely harder than I ever thought it would be. Having to put trust in myself enough to trust my boyfriend who lives only an hour away but still. Trusting God to just help us get through the summer. Leaving all my friends, not being able to see my Theatre family the week before I left. It makes life hard. I can call that place my home away from home.

Life lesson: Live up your college years. They go faster than you think. And In the words of my Faithful friend JJN: Have Parties.

So I'm home and I have a lot of unpacking to do so I'm going to get on that. I hope everyone out there reading this has a great weekend.

Life Lesson: Trust is important and key to any relationship whether it be a friendship, a significant other, family, or with God or a religious figure. Trust is KEY!

Another Page Turned

So I'm on a new journey. This is my last week of classes as a freshman in college. Interesting huh? How fast it flies. It seems like it just started. Friendships are just starting to become stronger or weaker. You finally know who you can trust and who you can't. But next year things will be like a whole different world. You have to almost start all over again, adding to the relationships you've already built. Life is crazy like that.

Life is good. Things are great. I have a family up here. They are awesome. They give free back massages, lots of group hugs, they like to sing, dance, and just be crazy, and they are my friends. They hold a special place in heart from now until eternity. For they are always going to be there even when they aren't. For we are bound together by a secret bond called Success. Success in terms of hard work = amazing things. And we are family....through it all.

And I have a wonderful boyfriend. He kissed me for the first time last night and it was woah.... I swear I died and went to heaven. Something special is between us. I know God the Great Romantic is working hard on this love story. It's wonderful.....

Empty Thoughts in a Crowed head

So it's the new year! HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone.

What's on your resolution list? You know the one you put on your "to do" list. Come on, the one you know you're going to lose by the end of the week. Oh now you know what i'm talking about.

I don't have a resolution. I just want to be happier. I want to be as happy I was the day before New Years Eve. I was driving to the doctors, I felt like crap, yet the whole time I was driving I was singing and smiling. My day was just a happy one. I got a flu shot and tested for strep *everyone knows that a cotton swab down your throat sucks*. But I was listening to Michael Buble and I knew that I was going to see my best friend. Infact I only figured we would spend like 2 hrs together, we really spent 8 hrs together. He's great and so is his family. He's my best friend from home. The one who is always there for me no matter what. I love him for it. I want to be that happy all the time. Of course there will be times when I am angry or upset, but I want most of my days to be happy and full of laughter.

I'm a dreamer what can I say?