Monday, January 29, 2007

Snowy Days

I promised to write on some snow days and well... they are here. Granted there isn't much snow on the ground, but what can you do?

I got into Vail summer Project, which is good cause it gives me the opportunity to go to Vail, CO for 10 weeks of my summer vacation. It's going to cost a lot of money but I trust that God will provide for that. I haven't made my final decision on that yet, it's just kind of there right now. It's def going to take a lot of prayer.

Things are still weird around here. In the days leading up to my brithday and dance marathon some things are just weird. However, I am getting through them, step by step. Relying a lot on the Lord to show me where He wants me to go and what He has planned for me. It's not hard, it actually makes life easier.

So now I'm off to my three classes and the gym.

Later days!

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

"I sure hope Roger is cute with a seat like this."

The title of this stems from a conversation I had with the lady at the ticket booth when I got my ticket for RENT and Savion Glover. Both in total cost only $48. I was PUMPE! Anyway my ticket for Rent is 3rd Row. So maybe someone will be cute.

That was just part of my good day. I had an interview for Crazy for You Production Staff and felt really confident, mainly because no one in the club applies for Props Master any more except me and like maybe 3 other people. I think it will be fun. Auditions are the week of THON which could be a little crazy. However it is OK. I will do my best. I really hope I get into this show. I automatically get a call back so that's good.

I've started listening to my ipod more on the way to class and stuff. I love the Fray. They are my latest loves. I feel like so many songs, not just from the Fray, relate to my life in some way shape or form. Here are a few:
She Dances ~ Josh Groban
February Song ~ Josh Groban
Look After You ~ The Fray
How To Save a Life ~ The Fray
My Wish ~ Rascal Flatts
Words I Couldn't Say~ Rascal Flatts


I'm getting a new roommate. I don't know how I feel about that. I've gotten used to being alone. However, being alone gets boring. Especially when you just have urges to pick up the phone and call people you're not talking to just to hear their voice and know that you're not alone. HOWEVER, this girl is very nice and I am a bit excited to have someone else in the room with me.

I'm not going to lie. Things are hard lately. Very hard and I don't like it. I've been trying to stay strong, but sometimes I just want to give up. I have wonderful support. Amazing people that are extremely close to my heart and I love dearly that never give up on me. They will never know how much they mean to me. Ok maybe they will. My life is just awkward. Christ has brought me this far and I have no doubt that He will carry me farther. I am weak and full of imperfections, but that doesn't matter to Him. In honesty, I want the clocks to turn back, I want to change things, I want to not do things, I want to fix things that aren't mine to fix. But clocks don't go back. It's frustrating.

She was the one who caught your attention but only for a second
The one who was always there when the days were long and hard
The one who told you there are more fish in the sea, when the love you swore you found told you she loved someone else
She was the smile you could relax around
The girl who searched deeper than the surface
The girl who caught you off guard
She was the tear you told to stay
The life you changed
The heart you stole
but you'll never know that, cause she'll never tell you twice.


until snowy days.... I'm out...ciao

Monday, January 22, 2007

All At Once

This past weekend was great! I had a blast with the guys. It even snowed!! It's Still snowing!!!
Thanks to S.L for making the picture video which made most of us tear up.
Thanks to T Dogg for driving up to the lookout with me when I needed an escape from the real world.

Things are getting a bit crazy. I have registration and meetings for the marathon I'm dancing in. It's gonna be great! I also have an interview for a postion with Props or Costumes for Crazy For You. And I have auditions for Crazy for You. All of these things are coming up. Also coming up is my Birthday, Valentine's Day, and the dance marathon. It's funny because you would think that I would love my life right now, and while I do. Some things just don't feel right.
I didn't get into the Summer Program in FL that I wanted. I might get into the Vail one. I trust God will place me where He feels I can do the most work. Besides that, everything that I'm going through right now, it just doesn't feel right. It feels so awkward going through all of this without one of my closest friends by myside. It is so strange how I lost that friendship and how I know I will never get it back. I care too much for him, if he ever asked me to be his friend I would probably turn him down because I would get caught up in what my heart is telling me. I really don't like the way things are, but sometimes they just have to be. I miss him and I think about him from time to time. Sometimes when it snows I think how he's not a big fan of it, even though its one of the most precious gifts God has given us. Sometimes when I hear a song or just am walking around campus I think of the good times. I don't know what happened. I just know that I miss it all and I wish things could be different. It's hard to think that he neither knowns nor cares what I'm going through. However, it's truth and that I think is what hurts.

I know this: Whatever God is planning to do with me, it will be great. I have endured much pain and sometimes I feel like Job. I have full Faith that my Savior will use me where He sees fit and love me no matter what happens. God is driving the car down the road that is my life....I'm just a passenger along for the ride lending a hand where I'm needed. But sometime's the road is bumpy and long and hard to endure. But He gets me through, He never lets me down.

until later and sweeter days...
ciao

Thursday, January 18, 2007

My newest Pet Peeve

Hello again all!!!
So I'm the kind of person who doesn't really get annoyed easily. However, there are a few select things that annoy me. One of them is the fact that people just do not know how to walk these days. I mean come on people you learned this when you were three! How hard is it to learn to walk? It's something that you learn when you are like 2 years old. All this talking on the cell phone not paying attention...it's really iritating people! I'm not saying that I don't do it but sometimes I have to talk and move at the same time, however I do pay attention at what I'm doing.

The newest pet peeve......People who walk behind you but are literally right up your butt. It's a pain in the butt. I'm dude not only can I see your shadow right up my butt, I can feel you practically breathing down my neck. Cut me some slack, pass me or something. So yeah, that's my newest pet peeve.

Nothing really interesting is going on except T-Dogg and SL come to visit this weekend!!! I'm so excited. SL is staying with me since i Have an extra bed and I'm feeling a nice breakfast on Sunday!!! This weekend is going to be a blast. Hockey Games, THON skate, and so much excitement!!!

I'm out for now!
Peace, Love, and Pixie Dust!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

The snow on my window creates frosted glass....

So the end of break was nice and relaxing. I worked on my puzzle some more and got even closer to finishing...however it's not quite finished. I got to see Mr. Magic....he looked good and he's growing up. There was awkwardness I think because we haven't seen each other since last July. It's been difficult to catch up with friends. I didn't get to see Kit Kat, which was really hard for me cause I haven't seen her at all since last spring.

However I am back at school and everything is good. It snowed today on the first day of classes. It's still snowing, however it's not sticking very well. I have the room to myself now because my roommate moved to the Apt.I have no idea what to do with myself and my peace lol. Right now I think I am going to head out to Walmart and get some good eats.

Ill write more when I feel compelled!
Ciao

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Mr.Bialystock You've got me wrong, Please stop this song....

So not too much has happened since last thursday hence the not writing. I took my cousin Kevy to see Charlotte's Web on Saturday. We got lunch and went to my brother's hockey game afterwards. I love Kevy he's awesome....He's three and talked my ear all the whole car ride.

I had my last day of work on Monday, which is awesome cause now I don't have to see my Stalker!

I've been hangin out with Sarah and Ben who are my Fave couple!!! It's perfect because I never feel like a third wheel and I'm not attracted to Ben so there is no jealousy there. They are amazing kids who know how to cheer me up when I need it, know how it laugh at my stupidity, and keep me in line. I'm going to miss them this summer.

Yesterday I went to NYC with one the bestest from Team Awesome!! We had a great time. Chillin around the city is def worth the trip. We tried to get tix for Wicked but we didn't win the raffle. So we went to tkts and got some cheap tickets. We saw The Producers with Tony Danza as Bialystock. We were 8th row for half the price and it was awesome. After the show we waited outside of the theatre for Tony to come out and he did. We saw him and tried to get a pic and his autograph but this old lady went nuts and chased him down the street so he didn't have time to sign everyone's book so mine didn't get signed. But I saw him and he is tiny in person...which leads me to this "Hold me closer Tony Danza." T.D. was great in the show though he's not the best singer. AFter the show we ate the Stardust Diner where the waiters and waitresses sing. It was pretty sweet. Then we wandered around for a bit. I had an awesome time!!! It was cold though.

Anyways I'm gonna head out to Jugglin tonight and then prob hangout with Sarah and Ben. Who knows!!

Ciao for Now

Mr.Bialystock You've got me wrong, Please stop this song....

So not too much has happened since last thursday hence the not writing. I took my cousin Kevy to see Charlotte's Web on Saturday. We got lunch and went to my brother's hockey game afterwards. I love Kevy he's awesome....He's three and talked my ear all the whole car ride.

I had my last day of work on Monday, which is awesome cause now I don't have to see my Stalker!

I've been hangin out with Sarah and Ben who are my Fave couple!!! It's perfect because I never feel like a third wheel and I'm not attracted to Ben so there is no jealousy there. They are amazing kids who know how to cheer me up when I need it, know how it laugh at my stupidity, and keep me in line. I'm going to miss them this summer.

Yesterday I went to NYC with one the bestest from Team Awesome!! We had a great time. Chillin around the city is def worth the trip. We tried to get tix for Wicked but we didn't win the raffle. So we went to tkts and got some cheap tickets. We saw The Producers with Tony Danza as Bialystock. We were 8th row for half the price and it was awesome. After the show we waited outside of the theatre for Tony to come out and he did. We saw him and tried to get a pic and his autograph but this old lady went nuts and chased him down the street so he didn't have time to sign everyone's book so mine didn't get signed. But I saw him and he is tiny in person...which leads me to this "Hold me closer Tony Danza." T.D. was great in the show though he's not the best singer. AFter the show we ate the Stardust Diner where the waiters and waitresses sing. It was pretty sweet. Then we wandered around for a bit. I had an awesome time!!! It was cold though.

Anyways I'm gonna head out to Jugglin tonight and then prob hangout with Sarah and Ben. Who knows!!

Ciao for Now

Thursday, January 04, 2007

come along and listen to...the lullaby of broadway!!

There's a reason I love braodway. There really is no biger thrill.

Today I went into Philly with three of my bestest!! It was so great to see them...Especially Joey because she kinda disappeared after she left school last spring. She looks the same and is doing great! We had so much fun~! I got an autographed show poster and everything. I was kinda crazy, but that's the way I always am. Of course a billion things were going through my mind because I over analyze sets, costumes, casting choices cause I am weird like that. We ate dinner at the olive garden afterwards and it was great! 42nd Street is a great musical everyone should see it!!! It's a classic.

Right now I am listening to Josh Kelley and you know what, he's really good. This CD was a good choice. He reminds me of John Mayer who I LOVE!!

I'm dreading work tomorrow because of my stalker. I can call him that now because it has seriously gotten scary. I'm too nice to just say no flat out. Especially beacuse there are many factors that could be taken the wrong way. Sometimes I really wonder about the things God has put into my life. Challenges like these that really throw me for a loop. Anyways maybe ignoring him will help. He's way older than me too.

Later Days kids!!

Dream your fears away
I'll be here all day
dry your eyes
cause I'm here to spend
this moment in your arms again
~Josh Kelley Faces~

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Sound of Melodies

Blah guys... Let me tell you, I feel so horrible. I got sick in DC and while I am way better than I was while I was there...I still feel blah. I can barely talk and what is way way worse, I can not sing. I love to sing and not singing stinks!!!

Today all I did way lie around. I watched some good movies; First Daughter, Family Stone, The Producers. I also watched Legends of the Hidden Temple. I know you guys are jealous. Anyways Im really excited because tomorrow my Grandmom is taking me out to lunch and then on Thursday I am going to Philly with Ash and Tim and we are going to see 42nd Street!!!! I am so pumped!!! I cannot wait to see those guys and the show!!!

Anyways as to the title of this...This weekend the Bridge Band played this amazing song that has been stuck in my head since then. I love this song so much. So I'm putting the lyrics up....Its been great kids..until im spurred to write again..

Sound of Melodies
Leeland

We who were called to be Your people
Struggling sinners and thieves
We're lifted up from the ashes
And out came the song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed

Can You hear the sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
rising up to You
rising up to You, God
The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
rising up to You, God

We have caught a revelation
The nothing can separate us from
THe love we recieved through salvation
It fills You daughters and Your sons
You daughters and Your sons

The sound of Your love
the Sound of Your love
Is what You're hearing
the sound of Your sons
the sound of Your sons
You've won You're Children
the sound of Your love
the sound of Your love
is what You're hearing
Your daughters in love
Your daughters in love
You've won Your children

The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
rising up to You, God

Monday, January 01, 2007

DC 06!!!

So I am Back from Christmas Conference DC 06. It was really sad to see everyone go after our amazing weekend.

Shelby Abott, First of all that guy kicks butt!!!! SHELBY YOU ROCK! He's funny and a great Emcee. I loved being able to spend time with him, laugh at his crazy antics, and just listen to him cause hes GREAT!

PHIL CARNUCCIO!!! This guy is on FIRE for the LORD! He was amazing and had some great talks! His illustrations painted with words were amazing!! Loved it!!!

THE BRIDGE BAND!!! Amazing guys from Downingtown PA. I can't wait to go to their worship services while Im here at home!!!

Haning out with the coolest kids on the block!!! THe day of outreach I spent with Josh, Angella, and Ryan. Sharing the Gospel, praying to the Lord. Taking the METRO into DC and wandering aimlessly with some objectives. I love you guys!!! I formed so many baby relationships that are going to grow! The DECADES DANCE PARTY!!! and the thing I loved the most....WORSHIPING IN THE NEW YEAR WITH THE BRIDGE BAND!!!! huging all my closest friends and just Praising God for all He's done.

DC 06 WAS AMAZING!!!! Thank you to everyone who made it possible!!! Thank you to the Hotel for putting up with us I know there were a ton of us!! PRAISE GOD for all these things HE has convicted over 400 of us to go out and do across the nations!!! I had the best time and besides my family, I could not think of a better way to spend New Years Eve!!!