Summer, Summer, Summer

Well schools are almost all out and it's summer.

Job Update: I still don't have one. This means, I'm probably not getting one. Seriously. It's stupid. I'm getting beat out by high school kids because I am not staying in the area. 

I'm sorry I stink at posting. Nothing interesting is happening. I don't have a job. I'm not going on vacations. No day trips.

Really all I have been doing is; reading, juggling, singing, and interning. I have such an exciting life. At least once August hits I'll be in Disney mode. I'm already excited to get there and start. This whole internship on Thursdays and Fridays stinks. It's alright though. 

I promise to write more interesting things when they happen.

Heat and No Breath

I am sure most of you, wherever you may be, are experiencing this heat wave. This crazy crazy heat wave. Well I am in this heat. My family is and our lovely air conditioner broke. My poor puppy is panting like there is no tomorrow. I feel bad for him. There is no cool place in our house for him to go. My mom is going to put the air in her room on tonight, but 4 of us will not fit in the room. 

It is almost 100 degrees in the philly suburb and if our air doesn't get fixed I'm not sure what will happen.  Tomorrow is going to be hell and I hope that my puppy is ok while we are all out. I'll be at work along with my mom and bro. My sis at school. 

I WANT COOL NIGHTS WITH NO HUMIDITY!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

sorry gang just had to vent. Off goes the computer.

Stealing Cinderella

I'm in that mood again. You know, the one you get in after reading about Mr. Darcy, Galas, Knights in Shining Armor and the like. Sometimes my minds drifts to these places. What it would be like to marry a guy who takes you to galas and shows you off. A guy who is arrogant at first but upon realizing his love for you decides he is going to change. A sweet guy riding in to save the day and risk his life for your love. One of the things that catches me about the whole Mr. Darcy thing is that Elizabeth didn't even like him. I mean, who would at first, but even after he makes his change, she turns him down. I mean seriously? Does that kind of stuff drive a man?

I was thinking about what it would be like to go to a formal event. You know one where you had to wear a gown and the gent wears a tux and there is champagne and such. Then my head went into Disney song mode and I thought: "He'll whisper 'I love you' and steal a kiss or two. Though he's far away, I'll find my love some day. Some day when my dreams come true."

Then my head went: "Omgosh, my dreams are coming true. I am working for Disney. Does this mean that possibly I will find him! The One! ahhhh" But it's all in my head right?

I'm still on the search, though I am being more subtle about it. I only wish that guys would take more advice from classic novel characters then they would the men around them. If a guy modeled himself around Mr. Darcy, the world would be different. *sigh*

I'm not getting any younger. I know that I am still young, but when your friends start getting engaged and the number of boyfriends you have had you can count on one hand, you start to think that maybe he's not out there. Doubt is part of human nature. However, Trusting God that He will send the right guy at the right time, is what I need to do. 

I remember thinking that I had found that guy once. I was wrong. I wasn't super wrong, but I was wrong. Now, even though we are okay, things are weird. I never told him I thought he was the one. I mean that would be even weirder. But on occasions, my mind likes to wander off to what it would be like if we ever were married.

I'm a girl it's my nature.

Anyways the reason I titled this as such is because of a song my brother put in the back of his girlfriend's scrapbook he made for her graduation.

it's called Stealing Cinderella by Chuck Wicks. Here are the lyrics. Check em out and let me know what you think.

I came to see her daddy for a sit down man to man

It wasn't any secret I'd be asking for her hand

I guess that's why he left me waiting in the living room by myself

with at least a dozen pictures of her sitting on a shelf

Chorus:

She was playing cinderella

she was riding her first bike

bouncing on the bed and looking for a pillow fight

running through the sprinkler with a big popsicle grin

dancing with her dad, looking up at him

in her eyes I'm Prince Charming

but to him I'm just some fella

riding in and stealing Cinderella

I leaned in towards those pictures to get a better look at one

when I heard a voice behind me say "Now ain't she something, son?"

I said "Yes, she's quite the woman" and he just stared at me

Then I realized that in his eyes she would always be

Playing Cinderella

riding her first bike

bouncing on the bed and looking for a pillow fight

running through the sprinkler with a big popsicle grin

dancing with her dad, looking up at him

in her eyes I'm Prince Charming

but to him I'm just some fella

riding in and stealing Cinderella

He slapped me on the shoulder

then he called her in the room

when she threw her arms around him

that's when I could see it too

She was playing Cinderella

riding her first bike

bouncing on the bed and looking for a pillow fight

running through the sprinkler with a big popsicle grin

dancing with her dad, looking up at him

if he gives me a hard time

I can't blame the fella

I'm the one who's stealing Cinderella

anyways that's all for now.

iJob

So Apple has their little i"insert fun phrase here" thingies. 

I applied at the Apple store and got an interview. It's not a smart thing to get me started on this interview but to tell the story short: I had an interview, the lady never showed, there were mix communication between the workers and the lady who was supposed to interview me, some guy interviewed me, I am so in the dark right now.

I don't think that my interview was a good one. I'm nervous. I really need a job and Apple pays well. I am also going to call the hotel that has been trying to get me in for an interview for like three weeks. It's not my fault your staff isn't there in the beginning of the week when I have three days available. Gosh people.

I NEED TO WORK!!! I can't afford not to. College nickels and dimes you and I am very poor right now. As opposed to all the other kids who never had to work a day in their lovely lives to survive, I have had to work almost every day. This includes while being a full time high school and college student. 

Summer job hunting is hard. No one wants seasonal. I'm praying for a good job. Even if I have to miss all the important things in my life this summer. That would be 1 wedding (not mine) and one week of family vacation.

SOMEONE, ANYONE, I NEED A JOB!!!!!

Sunday Drivers: Why do you drive so slow?

Yesterday my mom woke me up at the ungodly hour of 8:15 am to meet her and my dad for breakfast. Yum. I looked like I was hungover, though I can promise you I wasn't, and for the first time in a long time I wore my glasses in the morning. I could see better but I still looked horrible. I really didn't get much sleep saturday night. Graduation parties leave me too sugared up.
After breakfast my mom and I headed out to some sales in Lancaster, but in order to get there we had to be stuck behind Sunday Drivers.

Now, Sunday Drivers have a right to drive slow. That's fine, take your time. It's Sunday why should you rush? The Lord gave us this "day of rest" and so we should Rest and relax and use it to not do work. However, Sunday drivers should be considerate of other drivers. If you are going 10 under the speed limit, please get off the road. Seriously. If you can't accelerate your car to the speed limit of a bypass, get off the road. That's all I have to say to you.

As I have already mentioned I was at some graduation parties. Friday: 2 grad parties of which I drank some beer that didn't make me too happy in the morning when I got up for work at 5 am. Lovely. Saturday: One grad party of which I skipped the beer, but didn't eat dinner at because...well I was allergic to everything that was there. Sunday: My bro's gf's graduation party. Prolly the best one of the weekend. I had one beer (I really don't like beer that much) and a ton of food and sweets. Then I fell asleep by the pool. It was great. Her family is really nice and all so it was cool and we knew some ppl there.

Next week I have a grad party for a really good friend of mine who I am going through a rough patch with. It's all part of his growing up and getting out there experience. I guess he isn't going to college, which is fine he needs to do what he loves. He loves magic, but it stinks because he is going to leave everything behind to chase this dream. When I first met him, I could tell that he loved his family much. When I look at him now, I almost feel as if he feels they are holding him back. They are so supportive of him and they all love and care for him very much, he is just pulling away. I care about him a lot and want what's best for him and I want him to follow his heart and his dreams, but I am so worried about him. We don't talk much any more because my words are useless to him (I have said that I feel this way to him and he says that he doesn't mean to make me feel that way), but he does. However, I will always be there for him. Now he's one of those people who tell you that you don't need to get them anything. But I got him something small and he'll enjoy it.

I was working on some juggling tricks today. Let's just say, I'm glad my nails are short, and my fingers are in a lot of pain. My forearms are going to be black and blue tomorrow as well. I want/need to get some tricks down before I work on a full routine and that worries me because the stuff I am doing is not all that easy. I know in time, I will get it. However, it's going to take a lot of work and probably give me a lot of pain in the process. I guess that's my life.

In terms of the other performing I am doing, I have been practicing my vocals every day. I see a difference in the way I sing some songs. I think Mere would be proud of my practicing and improving. Also, I have been playing my guitar more often. Dance comes when I have time to devote to it (which right now is little) and acting is something I like to work on everyday. Sometimes I pretend I am different people just for the heck of it.

I am still thinking of some special features to add to this Blog. I might do a Performer Spotlight each week or something. That might be pretty cool.
Anyways That's all for today.

Hope you guys like the new colors and all
~Me

Marley and Me

So last night I went out for a few drinks with my friend. We realized that they were shooting the film Marley and Me in West Chester and so after we had our drinks we went walking in town. We were almost part of the movie! But of course they didn't want us to walk across the street and be a par of the scene. It was a lot of fun though. We were able to see them drive a car out and then park it again. We also were able to walk behind the shoot and look at the trucks and stuff. We didn't go inside or anything, but we were able to see a lot and I figured out that I think that is what I want to do. If I can't entertain I want to be a part of helping to make the entertainment happen.

Other things that have happened:

Internship is going well. We do a lot and on slow days we get to hang out and learn from the producers. It is a lot of fun now that I switched to the days that have less people. I get to do more with the producers and a lot more work and I feel more useful.

I still can't find a job that pays. How the heck am I supposed to make money. I am helping a lady out that has a company and is a friend of the family but I don't know that she will have work for me all summer.

I will have a new vlog coming up. I will also have some other fun new things coming to this blog.

Tell your friends!
~ME

I do do sadness

I know this happened a week ago....but I am still getting over it and I can't believe I didn't get to see them again before they headed off stage.

Jon Groff and Lea Michele exited Spring Awakening May 18th 2008. I just watched a You Tube video of their final curtain call and the speeches they gave. Lea Michele could barely speak she was bawling. Jon was trying to comfort her and silently wave until she was ready to talk. They walked out in true style holding hands and of course Jon kissed her hand as they made their final exit. I hope at some point in the future they come back to reprise their roles. I have a feeling Spring Awakening may have a long following like RENT. Personally, I would have slept in a tent for three days outside of the Eugene O'Neill theatre to get tickets to their final performance. I love those guys and I've only seen them perform once. They are truly amazing in their roles. The way they created them and fulfilled them was out of pure love for what they are doing.

To think that they are going to be replaced is hard. I guess when John Gallagher Jr. left it wasn't too big a deal since it was pretty early on in the show still. But these two...such crucial parts of the show itself and how it came to life. I also didn't get to see JGJ perform so I might have a small bias towards the other two and Mr. Banshoff who was wonderful as MOritz.

I don't think their replacement is a big deal but who they are being replaced with is. I mean the new Melchior is some Canadian rock singer or something like that. I mean seriously? The new Wendla should be good because well, she's been studying Wendla for a long time.

Ugh. To Lea and Jon, I've only seen you perform once, but your heart and soul convinced me well enough that choosing to be a Spring Awakening fan before seeing the show was the right move. To be in love with the script, music, and talent that was chosen to create and form Spring Awakening as we know it is an honor. I personally love you guys and wish that you didn't have to go. I want you to come back so I can see you do it again. I promise to give the new kids a chance, but seriously....please come back. You guys are amazing.

A Fan
~Me

A Mr. Darcy kind of afternoon

So yesterday I was driving home from Target to get the first Narnia movie.
I had to take a detour because a tree branch or something that the road was closed. However, I late found out it was because they are filming the movie Marley and Me at a house out there and the road was blocked. I was pretty much guessing on where to go. I ended up by the new high school which is surrounded by empty old farm fields. There are tress scattered throughout them and the grass is now patchy with high and low spots. There was a mist coming off the field from the rain that had falling that day and the sun was setting quite beautifully. It was then that i smiled. I thought of the scene in Pride and Prejudice where Mr. Darcy walks across the field, hair messy and meets Lizzy who is walking and thinking at sunrise. What a beautiful scene and just the thought of it made me smile.
I know things like that don't happen any more, but I wish they did. THere would be reason for me to hope that there a good guys out there. Even though Mr. Darcy wasn't all good. Still he was romantic and well who doesn't want a romantic who dedicates himself to you in the end?

My internship is going well. Its a great company and I enjoy working there. It doesn't pay so I am in the process of finding another job. It sucks. I am working part time for this lady who has her own company off and on but it's not good enough. The diner hasn't scheduled me and I am currently in contact with a restaurant at a nearby hotel so I hope I get something there. I really don't mind devoting my summer to work. With work and juggling mixed with a bit of reading, I think this summer has potential.

Only 80 something more days til Disney!!! I am so excited!

Well that's all for now
Mucho Love
~Me~

Atlantis: The Lost Empire

So we vacationed in Atlantis this past week. Its on Paradise Island in the bahamas. It was a lot of fun.

Some highlights:
Swimming with the Dolphins
Meeting Chad Michael Murray
Eating in the same restaurant as Julia Roberts while she was there eating
The water slides
Beautiful weather
and more.....

It was a great vacation! There was so much to see and do. I felt like a rock star staying in the best hotel....even though it was very very pricey. We all had a great time and it was great to be just with my family and no one else...

it was a ton of fun!!

SURPRISE!!!!

Another vlog from me....enjoy it!

What I Did For Love...

So I might have used this title for another post but I thought this appropriate.

Today was a good day for me. Despite the stress of packing an apartment, putting together a picnic, and leaving, I found an overwhelming sense of peace in these last few hours of the night. I think this is why...

For so long I have struggling to find a place in Thespians. Everyone has their friends and I just kinda fit in where I fit in. But today I found out something special about me. While other people may throw around the word Love when it comes to friends, I mean it. I would not be where I am today without the thespians. I wouldn't even be here at school.

You see I simply love the thespians. I mean that. No matter how many hours I put into things that might not go as perfectly as planned, the shows I don't get casted in or assigned production staff for, etc. I simply just love them. Thespians is about love. Love of theatre, art, performing, and so on. SO why can't we love each other?

I was sitting down after finishing grilling for everyone today and I just talked with two of my fave Thespians. J Beb. and Andy. I love these guys. J Beb is amazing and very wise, and Andy is my godbig who takes care of me because my big moved to Cali. I was sitting there relaxing and not playing the massive game of Frisbee and I just thought....wow I love these guys. They are so wise and so caring and they care about the club so much and that is what I want to be like. It doesn't matter if I hold positions. It just matters that I love what I do and who I do it with.

So now, even if people frustrate me and act like I don't exist or what I have to say is simply not important, I will simply love them. Because Without them, I wouldn't be where I am today.

Thespians, if you are reading this...I love you guys. Thanks for everything, good and bad. You all mean the world to me and I am going to miss you terribly in FL.

~Me

A Good Bye

So you guys know that I am going to the Disney College Program in the Fall. Today was my last day of classes and tomorrow I will be seeing a few people, going to a picnic, and finishing packing before leaving for home on Saturday morning.
It's quite sad to think I will miss some people's graduations and such. I will also miss out on the fall musicals and Cru gang.
So I started my Vlog for Disney and decided to keep it up through the summer and then continue it through Disney. Ill post it on here with regular posts too.

Lately I have been obsessed with Disney's On the Record. It was a musical revue but they harmonized like all different Disney songs. It's amazing...I suggest it!

Anyways..here we go...




ok mucho love guys
me

Sports Season

It's that time of year again. Where my two favorite sports collide.

Philadelphia Flyers are in the Stanley Cup Play Offs...2nd round. Staying in strong and I am so very proud of them!! Even though they get blacked out a lot here at school, I am able to listen on the radio or get score updates via my brother texting me. I love this time of year, especially when we do good. We are playing very well this season even though the beginning was very shaky.

Philadelphia Phillies are just beginning their season and they have had a pretty good April season. They are on a nice little winning streak and I hope that it continues. I think we have a great team with lots of potential. Even so...the Phils, like the Flyers, are my boys and will always be my boys. I hope they continue to do well.

I love Philly sports. It's true what they say....Philly Sports Fans are die hard fans whether or not their teams win or lose. I am a very strong Philly Sports fan because I grew up outside of Philly and they have always been my boys. It has taken them a while, and yes the do choke...but they will always be my boys.

Right now I am watching the Phils on TV but listening to the FLyers on the radio.... life is good.

Your Friend In Thespis...

So today is a wonderful day!
You'll have to forgive me if I go astray, I only got 3 hrs of sleep last night because we were busy hanging out with our Pledges.

15 of the most wonderful, caring, and energetic people I know.
They will be Inducted into Thespians today and I will finally be able to call them Friends in Thespis.

I am so EXCITED!

These guys have worked their butt off this semester. Some of them have taken on huge leadership positions and have proven themselves to be extremely capable of handling this club. My little is amongst them and I am so very very proud of her. She has worked extremely hard this semester and has plans to continue to invest in the club.

That is something that I think we need. People who are going to invest in the club and make it something more than it already is today. Because right now I feel as if we have gone in decline since my freshman year. I love the Thespians and those that have made my ride with them worthwhile, I thank you! But it hasn't been easy and we have a long way to go. There are issues we just can't ignore any more. I am excited because today we get to pick the new leadership for next year. Even though I will be missing the first half of the year and graduating the second half, I feel as if this new leadership has potential. Those who have been nominated are bright and have big ideas for this club. I only wish that I could be nominated again for something, but since I won't be here...that would be hard.

Today is going to be an amazing day and I looking forward to calling 15 more people my Friends in Thespis by the end of it.

You all should be proud of yourselves. I know I am extremely proud of you all!

Love
Me~

We've been waiting for an hour...you said it would be 30 minutes.

So my cousin came to visit me this weekend. Nice break from the crazy world of my life. We had a very nice weekend...kinda.

My aunt gave us $100 for food this weekend. I barely eat out...which is to say that I barely eat anything at all. I don't have time, yet somehow I am still on the hefty side. Anyways, The first place we went to was Applebee's. A nice place usually tasty. Well we got our fave app. Queso dip with chips. The Queso was like hard as a rock...we just kinda stared at it. haha.

The next day we went to the all famous Waffle Shop for some tasty breakfast before we headed up to the Stadium for the again famous Blue and White Game (which was boring as per usual). The place was packed, so it was understandable if the service was not so great. But the service seemed exceptionally off. I'm a waitress at a diner that gets really busy like this place. I know when service is bad.
Later we decided to hit up Chili's for dinner. Good Idea we think. There is only two of us so the wait shouldn't be horrible. We were so wrong. We put our name in and said First available. They told us 30 min maybe 45 at the most. So we sit no more than a foot from the hostess stand. We wait. and wait. and wait. As we are waiting we see people literally walk in and get seated. We understand about call ahead seating but this was getting bad. So after an hour of waiting we go up and ask what's up. They said they either called us and we missed it...oh, or they skipped us. WTH? We were sitting right there and we def would have heard them call us. They seat us, cause we were mad. We sit at a way dirty table that hasn't even been wiped. the waitress we got was really nice and really good. But when my food came it was on a plate that was already dirty (it looked like there was bbq sauce or something on it that didnt come off in the dishwasher. Ugh it was bad. We left our waitress a really good tip though.

I guess it was just a string of bad restaurant luck.

Great weekend with my cousin though...very chill. There's too much drama here. I think I created some. Anyways I can't wait to leave this place. A great summer with my fam and an internship...still have to find a paying job. Then Disney in the Fall and Graduation in the Spring. Life is good. The only thing I am going to miss is theatre. Because that's the only reason why I stay here.

When I threatened to quit the club this year my friend asked what I would do. I said, "I don't know. If I quit Thespians I would want to leave Penn State. I can't leave Penn State because i have a year left...so I guess I'm not quitting."


Life. Is. Rough. But we can't afford to play it safe by wearing a helmet.

"Spring Awakening: Causing Sexual Tension In Audiences Everywhere"

I am just going to fawn over Spring Awakening a little more. I have had some thoughts on it these past couple days....things I didn't mention perviously I guess.

I think my title should be a headline for the show. I mean seriously though, and maybe this only happened to me, but it makes you want to go out, find a sweet, good looking guy and just kiss him. Besides making you feel awkward and somehow, free at the same time, this show has a lot to offer.

I was thinking about certain characters:

Wendla: In the original play, it opens with Wendla's 14th birthday. The musical doesn't yet this play is focused on how the kids are too young to know what is going on with them. I think it is an important thing to leave out. There is no mention of age at all in the musical....we know they are in school, that's it. Strangely enough, when Lea Michele was cast as Wendla, she was 14 years old. She was cast when it was in workshop. Woah. She does a great job at playing Wendla, she has a soft, childish, almost innocent voice. In the play we get a sense the Wendla is a female version of Melchior, but not so education driven. She is curious and wanting. She needs to learn, she wants to understand. In the musical....we get that, but to a much lesser degree. However, we do see that she is a lot like Melchior in wanting to learn things and this is something that might attract Melchior to her.

Moritz: Probably one of the best characters in the show. I really felt like Blake knew what he was getting into. Maybe he really was that kid who wasn't the brightest in the class, who tried but just couldn't focus, who got picked on, or maybe he wasn't. I don't know how John Gallagher Jr. played Moritz, but I know Blake did a great job. To put that much into a character and to really know or at least make the audience really feel what is happening. It was great. Mad props Blake!!

Melchior: I loved how we saw this character develop. In the play it's laid out for us. We understand that he understands but at the same time he is so confused. We know his parent's stance on things is more relaxed then the others. We know he is smart, charming, and the girls love him. The musical helps us see this even more. The songs Melchior sings, are ones that show struggle and angst and even though he is not like Moritz in wanting to die for it, he wants it to change. He doesn't know how, but he wants it to change. His journal, the prop (there are no props in the play written at least), adds so much to that character. Wendla getting a hold of it and having a purpose to find him in the barn and give it to him, makes the audience go...what is going to happen? We see Melchior throw two fits of rage and we understand why. In terms of the character of Melchior, the musical and the play are very similar...except at the end. I will not ruin the end for anyone so I won't make mention of it here. John Groff....I give you props. A character like this requires a lot and you were extremely believable.

Those being the three main characters that I wish to explore, I have nothing else really to say. Perhaps I will see it again before Michele and Groff leave and have more to comment. Perhaps I will see it again after the leave and have even more to say. I laughed and I cried. I was touched to the core. It was amazingly beautiful. This is a broadway show that screams to the world. I want to scream to the world to see it. We need to understand, we need to know, we need to learn, and most importantly the world needs to let us grow.

My thoughts.

My name is Kiiira.... Oh I believe

So yesterday my stress and hard work paid off. Well sort of. People still managed to piss me off over this New York trip by not telling me they weren't going and then when I called to ask if they were so I could have a final head count they said no...so now the club has to pay more money that we don't have. But oh well.

I was able to see two shows and eat at the Jekyll and Hyde Club...after eating there for the third time, I realize it's time to find some place new...so that's my next trip's quest, find a new place to eat.

I was able to see two shows: Xanadu and Spring Awakening

Xanadu

WOW. Ok so when I first heard about this show I was think, "What stupid idiot would write something like that and put it on broadway?" Then I saw it....first of all Kerry Butler was perfect for the role and so was Chyenne Jackson. No only was the show funny, but the music was great. Two of us saw the show in the afternoon and then a group of people saw it at night. Alex and I understood the story quite well...the people who saw it at night were like, "I don't know what the story was about but there were 40 disco balls at the end." A lot goes on during the show and I think you have to pay very close attention to understand it all. However, I thought it was a really good show and I'm not saying that because I like ELO.

Spring Awakening

I understand that hype. It's a GREAT show. Lea Michelle and John Groff did a great job and props to Blake who filled his role to wonderful expectations, having to follow Johnny Gallagher Jr was a tough gig. I had read the play by Wedkin this past semester and had to do an analysis on it for class. I know the story pretty well and therefore I had some what higher expectations. While the musical is very different from the play, I think they did a good job at following the story and pulling the key points. I just wished they developed it a little more. Especially Moritz. I mean we get a good picture of why Moritz does what he does and it helps, but I think that there is more we need to understand. The relationship between Wendla and Melchior was well played. Very well played. I think those who have seen the musical without reading the play were impacted. I mean I was impacted but because i knew the story i was hit really hard. I cried, I didn't find things very funny (they tried to make it a bit funny).

Set and Lighting and Staging. WELL DONE! The set was simple and there were barely any props. I believe this relates back to Wedkin's lack of stage direction in his original work. What is the purpose of this? Why no stage direction or props? Well I'm not sure if this is what Wedkin was going for but this is a show that you need to rely on the actor's to provide the message, it requires them to put more thought and emotion into what they are doing. They need to make us feel. The message of the actor has the potential to be really strong. The lighting was amazing. Great job. There were times I felt like I was at concert, but that's ok. The lighting seemed to say, here are the actors singing, listen to them, they have a story to tell that may affect your life, LISTEN TO THEM. The backdrop that "disappeared" to look like bricks were removed like a world was falling apart. Great effect. The staging was EXTREMELY well done. To have everyone on stage, to use the apron of the stage, to have audience members sitting on stage, and more. It was all great! I think one thing that grabbed my attention is the "audience members who sang" . *Edit thanks to Erica..see comments* Cast members are seemingly modern kids, not dressed like the others, with mics who sing in all ensemble numbers. I saw this as an attempt to say...This is their story, but look...It is still happening today. It could happen to you, look at the world around you, question it.

All in all I really enjoyed Spring Awakening. I have had the Cd since the summer and the musical is fantastic....but the show is eye opening. I hope others were able to get out of it all that I did.

Other than that, I had a few drinks, hopped on the bus, and slept most of the way home. I had a great time with friends. I didn't get to stage door but that's ok because they were doing Broadway Cares stuff and that's why I didn't stage door, I'm really glad they do Broadway Cares, because it is so important.

The day was great, warm with no rain. Simply fantastic and I was able to enjoy myself....even if i was stressed out about it.

Until beautiful spring days
~Me

She Should Get It Through Her Head...

I saw the touring cast of Evita tonight here at good old school...

I must say the show was good. Modernized, but good. They need to get rid of the projector screen....it served no purposed and pissed me off. Besides that the casting was good. Che was amazing What is Evita without Che? Nothing. The Waltz between Eva and Che (my fave number) Lived up to and surpassed my expectations. It was good. Something else I didn't like...they cut songs and then changed who sang some of the songs...I was like YOU CAN'T DO THAT...but apparently they can.

Lighting and set design was good....the mural that served as a curtain was very effective. I was hooked from the moment I walked into the theatre. The Lighting...Amazing. Mad Props to the lighting designer...I bet they took a ton of pictures during photo call...do they even have photo call in professional theatre? They must.


That's really all I have to say on the topic of Evita. So why did I title my entry such?

Well....I've been down for about a week. A bout with depression as I like to call it. Post-show depression. Since there are no rehearsals to go to, no crazy cast mates to deal with, I am lonely. In fact tonight was the first night I went out all week. Another thing is...I am having an extremely difficult week.

At this point in my college career I should be doing a lot of things. I should be interning, looking for jobs, making sure my grades are in check. I should not being going to Disney World for a semester. But I am. I am because I need a break. As much as it will kill me to be away from my family for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years, I will have to. I hate it. I'm going to miss a thespian Barn Show and a Mainstage. What they are, I have no idea yet. I'm going there alone, no friends or family. So why should I feel this way now?

Well there's a lot going on behind the scenes. Pressure from dad to get an internship (got one) and a job (still working on such) for the summer to make some money. Pressure from mom which is really from dad. Grandfather being sick again. Trying to keep up with school work. Planning the new york trip and so on. I have also lost another good guy friend and I think that it might just be me pushing guys away with the things I do. I need to feel secure and comforted. I'm sorry.

I feel like a nobody. I feel like I don't matter. I want to feel differently, but I don't and it hurts. I want someone to care and it doesn't seem like anyone does. I'm lost...and no matter how many times Michael Buble tells me "Babe you're not lost" I don't believe him.

So where do I go from here?
I just pray things will be ok.

Until then... me

"I've missed you before I met you."

CONGRATS TO MY BEAUTIFUL CAST AND CREW!!!! WONDERFUL JOB THIS WEEKEND!!!!

I love this group so much that I was the only one who cried at ceremonies when it was my turn to talk. I mean everyone loves everyone...I just get emotional.

Not going to lie director man surprised me when he got up and started ranting about us...oh and he did. He told us at the end that he was proud of us...but he ranted. It was odd.

I'm super proud of my cast because they were amazing. Mr. Peduzzi I admire you so much..simply a freshman with so much talent. You jumped into Jekyll's part with only 4 weeks to learn it and we love you for how amazing you were. Not to mention that you are beautiful and every time you did confrontation I melted a little.

The rest of my cast....LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!! Jimmy..I do not appreciate the Act II break nerf gun death of myself...but thanks for the memories. Rich Bitches...I love you and Court that dress is so perfect for your wedding day haha jus playin. Whores....well we never really liked you anyway. Just kidding you all were amazing and I love you. Meredythe I don't think anyone could have pulled of that red outfit but you! Sexy! To the rest of the men in the cast...what can I say? I enjoyed your dressing room more than the girl's dressing room....duh. You guys are beautiful! Shields... sing "those bastards hold the reigns" to me any day and I will have your children.

haha Well there I go proclaiming my love to you all as per usual...I did get the "Hot Tranny Mess" paper plate award... duh!

So SO SOOOOO Proud....

and here's another thing to boost Mr. Ross' ego a little more. A whole article on how much Sta Fed LOVES him.


To my Crew...You were amazing!!!!!! Couldn't have done it without you.


To everyone: Here's to Late Night Tech Week after parties at McDonalds, Huge games of Apples to Apples where AIDS loses to the KKK, Shamrock Shakes, "Do You", Goose warm ups, and asking every day..."What is really behind the facade?"

Love you guys!!!!
SO EXCITED TO HEAD TO NYC WITH YOU THIS WEEKEND!!!

~Me~

Tonight I'll plunder heaven blind steal from all the gods

It's a dangerous game we play here.

Jekyll opened last night and it was amazing. THere was a pretty good sized audience and we did a good job at freaking people out. TO be honest Ross had never sounded better.

I'm really proud of this cast and crew. We had some really hard times and we pulled this off wonderfully. I mean the original Jekyll quit halfway through the rehearsal process...seriously?

We all hit up McDonalds last night after the show because we were so hyper. Thank God for Shamrock Shakes! I love hanging out with these kids and after this weekend...I dunno what's gonna happen.

THe pics above are:
Ross as Jekyll/Hyde in confrontation
Ross and Alex during Utterson find Hyde in the Lab
and Meredythe and Ross during Lucy's Death.

We have 3 more shows and it's going to be great!

Until I discover what really is behind the facade...