The way your smile just beams...

I am amazed! However it is not the first time.
The show was amazing, cast, crew, music, all!

I have a pretty sweet job too... I get to dress a very nice guy. He says Thank You after everything. Infact this is the first cast that I have worked with that is very undiva and I hope it stays that way. Everything is very appreciative of the work we've done for them, at least thats what it seems. It really is a great thing when people recognize the work you do for them. Espcially if all you want to do is be on stage with them, but you can't.

Show biz is weird like that. If you aren't pretty you usually don't get cast. It really doesn't matter if you can sing or dance. It really doesn't matter if theater is your life, even if you don't major in it. Like me. But at least im a part of it. That's nice too.

To the lovely cast and crew of Crazy For You,
You guys are amazing! I'm really happy I got to work with all of you!!! Much Love for your backstage costumer!

well i Need to apply to the ranch and that summer camp. I might get to teach kids some theater over the summer. IN Vail, CO.

I found out that my computer is going to cost $774.95 plus tax. I called my mom, she called apple, and the cut the price in half. I love that lady!!!!

well im off to bed before I pass out!!!

Until Starry Nights at the Look Out!!!!

Who Could Ask for Anything More?

AHHHHHH I LOVE IT!!!!!!

The show is going great!!! My worries are ok. Tonight all the costumes should be done and it is my first night backstage. It's going to be a lot of fun!!! Tomorrow night I get to sit out and watch the show. It was a request of mine because I have never seen the show in full, just bits and pieces and without costume at rehersal, and I wanted to see it at least once. Last night I was working on costumes in the audience while the show was rehersing cause the orchestra doesnt have enough lights yet so i could see what i was doing. The cast sounds AMAZING! The orchestra is getting there and will hopefully be ready by tonight. Everything else is wonderful!!!! The girls wore their follies costumes last night and I LOVE IT!!!!!

On a lighter note....I am without computer because mine is broken.... it kinda stinks but its all good because life is good and we have a show....it opens THURSDAY!!!!!!!!

well im off to take my 2 tests today

Until 3 story set peices.....

It's like the Hippos in Fantasia

That was how the set for Crazy For You was described by my good friend Fuz today who is playing Zangler.
It's HUGE!!!!!! But it moves gracefully across stage for a HUGE set.
I spent a long time in Schwab today helping build the set, make show girl outfits, and just goofin around. Then we got some good eats at Olive Garden. YUM!

Tomorrow is the day of trial....most of everything needs to be finished and some of the stuff is just not possible right now because we need members of the cast for fittings and such. Hopefully more cast members will show up tomorrow b4 call and if not we will have all cast members for call tomorrow night. I'm really excited for this show. The cast sounds AMAZING and the set looks Fab. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH all u ppl better come see it!!!!

Thats all for now...the show and 4 tests have taken over my life!

Until set pieces that don't fall over....

I'll walk with Grace my Feet and Faith my Eyes

So I really hate breaks. Simply because every time I have to leave home I get upset. That's the one bad thing about college...You have to leave home a lot. For some people that's a good thing, but I love my family and I hate being away from them. We all have so much fun together. It's going to be really hard being in Co this summer.

Thursday night was awesome! TDogg came down and we went to Dave and Busters then went to go see the Flyers Kick Butt!!! Yes the won!! Then we drove back, making sure to stop at Wendy's for a frosty....yummmmmm. Then we had a small dance party at my house with my bro and that was really funny.

Friday we got some crazy Sleet storm but I spent the day with my mom and I did a lot of my homework. My cousin surprised me by coming over and spending the night.

Sat was St. Patrick's Day...What Can I say? I'm full blooded Irish...seriously 100%. We really just kinda chilled until about 6 when we went to go see my Uncle play at this bar. My cousin got carded lol....its ok we were all under 21 and didn't drink. The phrase "I'm with the band" was used a lot. Then we went to see my Grandmom who had some ham and cabbage. I couldn't at any but I hear it was goooood! Then I packed up and headed back to state college.

I was listening to Faith My Eyes as I pulled out of the driveway and I was crying. I really hate leaving home. Oh well, I think I'm going to go home for Easter. My fam would love that.

Well I have some work to take care of. Crazy For You is about to take over my life....starting Tuesday....

Until Spring Flowers...

I've found home, you're my home, stay with me

AHHHHHHHHHHH so today I went to NYC with my cousin and one of our friends. It was fun. First I was in tears cause Beauty and the Beast was sold out and I thought I would never see it on broadway....yeah right. Then we walked around and shopped a bit but I didn't buy anything... I like to save my money. Then we ate at the Stardust.... fAB!!! I was like well lets go see if they do cancellation tix and they DO! so we went to see Beauty and the Beast our seats were 8th row....and to put the cherry on top...JOHN TARTAGLIA was playing Lumiere!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH It was WONDERFUL!!!! N I love John! Its a given cause he's Great!

NYC holds some amazing memories for me. Some that make my life a little bit harder, but it's alright. However, my favorite time in NYC was def the Piazza trip. It was just so much fun and really truly lovely.

It was a great day today with amazing weather. Tomorrow is Flyers Game!!!! Yay!!!!

until sunnier days!

As Long As We're Outta Here

Well home feels like the beach compared to school. It's beautiful here and it's supposed to go to 65 tomorrow. I've been working every day since I came home. Tomorrow is my last day it will be 3 in a row. I'm opening too so I have to get up sooooooooooo early.

Music agreed to meet with me after break and to talk and bring closure. I think it will be good and I pray that God will give me the right words to say and that He opens Music's heart to hear what I have to say. I pray that God brings peace through all of this.

My brother is listening to Enrique Inglesias..... Woah haven't heard that in a long time.

Anyways...I really wish I didn't have to work because I have a stalker. He really is freaking me out. He's like 6 years older than me and he comes into work not just once but 2 times a day when I'm there and sits for like 3hrs with just a coffee. It's scary and I really don't like it. I've told him I'm not interested 4 times. This makes me not want to go to work. Ugh God is the only one who gets me through my days at work.

I'm excited because on Wednesday I'm going to see Beauty and the Beast in NYC with my cousin and one of our friends. It is going to be a lot of fun.
I got PETER PAN!!!!!!! WOO!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE that movie!!!!
Thursday I get to see T-Dogg and we are gonna go to the Flyer's game. It is a very exciting Spring Break!! I also have to send out my support materials.

Well I'm gonna go get ready to go to bed. I have to be up super early tomorrow.

Until Flowers Come....

It was the Darnedest thing....I woke up in a snow globe!

Seriously. It happened today. 4 inches of snow on the ground this morning when I got up and it was still snowing when I went to class. I thought we had seen the last of Mr. Snow but I guess not. One more big thrill. Too bad college doesn't really give you off or a delay. That stinks, cause when it snows like this and becomes -15 degrees out and I walk to class and get frostbite even though I have about 10 layers on.....boy do I miss grade school days.

What I wanted to write down was a little bit that I am adding to my talk about my Baptism if Double A lets me give one at Cru.
As I was walking to class today, I stopped and just looked around. I didn't have my headphones on, so I just listened. It was extremely peaceful. You could almost hear the snow ping as it hit the already snow filled lawn. It was beauty at it's finest. Even more so, it made everything look white and pure. It made everything glow. And how bout that? God does what snow does. He wipes us clean of all our sins and makes us white and pure again. He makes us glow. By accepting Christ, his death and resurrection, we are born again into a new life that is pure and we have the opportunity to glow with the light of Christ. How amazing is that? All this from taking a minute to stop and watch the snow fall and listen to it in the stillness of the morning. Amazingly wonderful.
Just as a side note, it actually snowed during my baptism.

Today was a stressful day, at one point in time my brain turned to jelly. It just stopped working because it was seriously fed up with the stress I was putting on it. I mean that's what it felt like anyway. However, spending a small moment in silence with the Lord made me calm and brought me back to my senses. How wonderful! I had to make lots of big decisions today. I wish they could wait until later. I decided to not crew the School of Theatre show because it will just cause unneeded craziness in my life. I had a quiz that I wasn't fully prepared for. Things for Crazy For You need to get done that aren't getting done. It's just frustrating. But God is the Master of plans and works everything out. PTL!

I must be off to bed now.
Until Spring!

I just want you to know

So today I got baptized. YAY!!! It was great! So many people where there and in spirit too! Thank You to all who made it special.

I also saw Hairspray tonight!!!!! AHHHHHHH it was so good! Link was mmmm. Haha in all it was fantastic!

What this post is really about is how I am feeling right now. Because sometimes I feel like that is what blogs are used for. To let feelings out.. So here goes:
I heard some really discouraging news this weekend concerning someone I care about. I thought this someone was walking with the Lord but I guess not. I thought that the girls in his life were encouraging him to be a man of God, but I guess not. I thought he had good strong Christian men in his life encouraging him to become a man of God, but I guess not. I started to think about things. When we met and while we were friends we really encouraged each other to grow in our faith. When we dated we still encouraged each other and while at times things got out of hand and we strayed, I always came back to my faith. When the opportunity to stray some more came up, he took it and I quit. We went our separate ways and I continued to pray for him every night and his growth in the Lord. If that makes me a bad person I am sorry. However, what seems to be the case to me is that every girl in his life has let him down. What he will never realize is that the one girl who had the courage to tell him that he was no where near the man of God he was striving to be, is the one who has never given up on him and who refuses to give up on him. What he will never realize is that while all the other girls he goes with don't care about who he is or what he does just as long as he is cute and charming, there is one girl who does care about who he is, what he becomes and while there may not be anything in the future for him and this girl, she still cares about him as a brother in Christ and as a best friend. What he will never realize is that he deserves none of this but her heart can not let him become a lost lamb. His smile and his happiness means the world to her and knowing that he could possibly make one mistake that will make him unhappy for the rest of his life, disheartens her.

And while I am discouraged through all of this, I still will not underestimate God. He has given me no reason to doubt Him. I place all my trust in Him and what He has to do. If God's will is for this friend to live the life he is heading for, then that will be accepted. But knowing that God has bigger plans for her friend than he has ever imagined puts a smile on her face, even if he doesn't realize that God is the one in control.

and so sometimes I cry. and sometimes I smile. But the Lord fills me with peace knowing that in some way, He will make things right in the end. In that time, things will be as they have to be.

Until warmer days....

To say im disappointed is an understatement

I just found out really discouraging news. Well not just found out, but last night I found it out. And it makes me really upset. It's like when you think you are getting a surprise birthday party and then it never happens. Well I thought music was walking with the Lord but he wasn't. Now he is thinking about becoming mormon and when I found out my heart literally broke. Well maybe it didn't break but all I know was that it hurt. I really thought the girls in his life that he was running around with would be encouraging him in his walk, but I was wrong. That's what I get for assuming people are good Christians. I thought that the Christian men in his life were encouraging him but they weren't. It hurts.
What hurts the most....all I can do is pray. We don't even talk so the only thing I can do is pray and while I fully believe that God hears each and every word I pray, I sometimes feel like that isn't enough. I wish I could talk to him and encourage him to grow in his faith, after all even during our relationship that's all I wanted for him. Guess that makes me a bad person. Sometimes I just don't know and right now, all I can do is pray and wait for a Christian man who knows him to step up and say something.

until encouraging days.....

What is this thing you call "State's Patty's Day"?

So today is a big excuse for people to get wasted and wear green and pretend to be Irish. All of this because St. Patrick's Day is over Spring Break. Ugh what is this world coming to?

Personally I would love to celebrate St. Patrick's Day at home. I get to see my Uncle play at an Irish Pub and spend it with my Irish Family. I don't drink, infact I usually end u watching the kids. My favorite activity is making Irish Potatoes.

I hate that people use this holiday to drink. I guess that's what its always been for, but its just really annoying. "I'm going to wake up at 4 am and drink the whole entire day." And when you go into a coma, don't call me. Or call me and watch me shake my head at you. What is this world coming to?

These past two days have been interesting. We watched a movie on advertising and the affects it has on women and people and how people are viewed. It seriously made me angry. What makes me even more upset is that people today who are Ad/PR majors are probably not going to make it any different. They are more than likely going to keep adding to it because as Switchfoot says: Sex is currency she sells cars, she sells magazines. grrr.
The talk at Cru last night was AMAZING!! Joel is really interesting actually everyone at Cru is really interesting. Today I listened to Dr. N's talk on 1 Corinthians 13 and I was just in awe. It was really insightful. That's one of the things I love about Cru. The people are GREAT!

Today I woke up at the crack of Dawn to eat with some cool Cru kids. I totally came back and went back to bed though. THen I went about my day as usual and ended napping and not doing work which means I need to get on that tomorrow after my meeting for Baptism. I'm going to Women's Time tonight but I'm not going to the St. Patty's Day party because I don't do big things in small areas. If I go, it will be just to say hi and maybe get some snacks. I think tonight is just going to be a relaxed night. I love those.

Well Im off to read for a bit until Women's Time

P.S. It was 50 degrees today!!!! AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL!!!

Until sweeter days!

I Surf Skittles

Why yes, yes I do. I do surf skittles.
Now that I think about it it...that's not a bad idea.
Today was quite a day!

I got up, went to class, spent time relaxing in the HUB, went to theatre. I met a buddy at Starbucks and we chatted for a long time. I love starbucks and I love that they know me and my order. It's really sweet. Also.... I spent time with my little today. We played Basketball and just had a blast. Iowa played with us and it was sweet to hang out with her. To think she lives upstairs and we hardly ever see each other.

Anyways little blessing such as days spent with great people, like today are just amazing. I have done little work these days. I really should do more work but I think its time for Spring Break. I just can not stand doing work. Tomorrow I will have lots of time to do lots of work.

To say I have not been doing work is an understatement. I have been doing my stuff for my Support for Vail. It's time consuming but I don't mind. I'm really super excited even though its a summer away from home.

As my baptism draws closer, I am becoming extremely excited. I can't wait!!!!!

Life is Good, God is GOOD!!!!
PTL!!!!!!!!!!

Until less snowy days.

Let's Walk

So in light of my amazing two weekends past. I have realized that I have had my times of trouble. Earlier posts that are not so happy. I would delete them, but it takes a long time and well being the busy busy college student that I am, I just don't have that time.

Today was a good day. I had two exams. It was a bit nerve racking. I got through them and did ok, but not as well as I would have liked. This means that I really have to step up and get things done.

So I have gone through everything I need to for Sunday. I meet with the Pastor on Saturday and then Sunday is the big day!!!! I'm excited. My parents seem cool with it and my grandmom was ok with it. I know things have been difficult since I decided that I will be going to Vail this summer but I do have to grow up sometime and I do love her very much. It's going to be just as hard on me to miss the big family vacation. However I need to pick my scripture verse for Sunday. So many have impacted my life I just don't want to pick one. I have to make sure its a good one. haha.

I hope things pick up again soon. I am going to try and do some more volunteer work besides being a Big Sister. I also have TAPS next week for Crazy For You and then finally, Spring Break. Ah good old Spring Break!!! I am also working like crazy on my: He Who Stole My Heart powerpoint/presentation. I hope I get to talk with some high school girls over break that would be really sweet.

well I better go and catch up on some work....or maybe get ahead of my work.
Until Warmer Days!

My chains are gone, I've been set free

My God, My Savior has ransomed me
and like a flood
His mercy rains
Unending Love
Amazing Grace
~Chris Tomlin~

I'm in awe of what God has the power to do in my life. I'm going to be baptized again next Sunday!!!!!! I can hardly contain my excitement!!!!!!!!! I will be able to reaffirm my faith with my friends gathered around me!!! My parents won't be able to make the trip but that's quite alright I guess. I mean I don't know another time I would be able to do it. Of course the bestest won't be able to make it but that's ok. He'll be there in spirit I'm sure. AHHHHHHH I"M PUMPED! GOD IS GOOD PEOPLE GOD IS GOOD!

If You haven't heard the new Switchfoot Album you should. It's great and I love it!!!! YAY SWITCHFOOT!
If You haven't seen the new Bond movie You should. It's good too!!!

I finished my support letter for Vail and hopefully will send it out soon. I have selected the 5 people I am going to pray for during lent. I have also started on the power point for the HE WHO CAPTURED MY HEART presentation. I am hoping to give it during Spring Break but who knows. I might not be able to give it until after I get back from Vail. Either way God will make it happen and I hope to get many high school girls thinking about more than just sex and being perfect. Who knows!

I should go and study but I can't focus. AHHH GOD IS SOOOOOOOO GOOD!

If I gave you my hand

Would you take it and make me the happiest man in the world
if I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you girl.
~Josh Turner~

Loving that man right there. His Bass is BEAUTIFUL!

T-Dogg is sick and not updating so that stinks cause I have nothing to read! haha. Anyways what is going on with me....I have to write a resume and a fundraising letter this weekend. That's crazy I know. On top of that I have a lot of other work to get done AND I REALLY WANT TO SEE CASINO ROYALE!!!! It's playing here this weekend for free and I have to see it.

Tomorrow I have to wake up at the break of dawn to go to Harrisburg with one of my classes for extra credit. The FCC is holding a hearing on media ownership. I think it will be fun! Besides it gets me out of this little old town for a while. After that its CHRIS TOMLIN!!!!!!!!!!!! A night of Praise and Worship with the most amazing girls on this earth!!! That's exciting.

With THON over there's not much for me to do right now. Things will pick up when Crazy For You starts picking up. I'm going to try for lighting or sound for this show. Then in April I am crewing Mother Courage for the School of Theatre!!! YAY my first SOT show!!!Oh yeah and A sweets is in it and I love her cause she's awesome!

Well its late and I have to wake up early so I'm gonna get going.
here is the quote of the day


"A woman doesnt want to be the adventure, she wants to be caught up in something greater than herself." ~From the book "Wild at Heart"

It's true...MEN READ THAT BOOK! and Eric Ludy's God's Gift to Women! They are GREAT books!

until later nights!

And it hit me like a ton of bricks

Today it finally hit me:

I hate someone so much that I love them. Do you ever feel like that?. You absolutely just hate everything and then you're like I don't hate them at all, I love them.

Yeah see I can't hate him because I love him. IT STINKS. This is getting really hard for me. What am I supposed to do? Walk up to him and go, "I'm sorry for loving you?" I mean seriously. Nothing will be as real as this feeling I have.

Drrrr.

Many Hearts, FTK, One Home, Here To Stay!

Well THON is over and done with and it's really sad because I wish I had something else to look forward to.

This weekend was a blast and we did it all FOR THE KIDS!!! We raised over $5.2 Million for the Four Diamonds Fund and the Kids!

Some highlights:
Line Dance!!!! it goes like this:

*starts off with 007 music so sneak around with your hands in gun position pulled to your chest*
then there is a Stretch
1, 2, 3 “BALLIN!”
Thon is the place for me
Welcome to the BJC
Dancing strong for 46
Hey DJ spin that Disc!
F to the T K
For the Kids is what we say
F to the TK
"For The Kids" is what WE say
D to the A
to the NCERS
GO DANCERS!
Globo Gym, in Rec Hall
Watch TV, just don't fall
Creamery, down the block
Nathan's lights what a shock!
WebMail 2 drops the ball
"Creepy" Feed, tells it all
Penn State, super fans
Zombie Nation breaks the stands

Chorus: Roar Lions Roar!
T-H-O-N
THON 2007
FOR THE KIDS!
Loyal to...
White and Blue
Anything is possible...
Dreams Come True!!!

Freshman Class all-time high
Football tickets hard to buy
Puz breaks record with no fear
Connor stays for one more year
Outback Bowl's the place to be!
State's the only ten I see
Women's soccer wins again
You can't touch our lion's den
World Cup takes the stage
Head butt hits front page
Beckham comes to Galaxy
J-Mac can shoot the three
L.T. scores with power!
Say farewell to Coach Cowher
Saints march into town
Gators wear a double crown
Dimonds in the stands
Di-diamonds on the floor
Diamonds are for Hershey
And we've got 4!
J.T. Brings it back
So do Bond and Captain Jack
Samuel L. flies with snakes
Ricky Bobby "Shakes and Bakes"
Cars cruise the street
Dancers move those Happy Feet
(Chours)
Katie Couric, nightly news
Who will fill Bob Barker's shoes?
Bindi Irwin follows Dad
Crikey - he'd be so glad
Democrats paint house blue
First female speaker too
Science lead us down wrong route
Planet Pluto gets the boot

Everybody grab your can!
(7 claps)
And shake your money maker!!!
(Stretch break) Up in the gym just working on my fitness
(Chorus)
Dancin' all on the floor
Until we find a cure
Jersey Boys, Broadway fame
Gotta - Getcha head in the game
Trump and Rosie fight some more
Britney shows K-Fed the door
Stretch pants, Skinny jeans
Don't get mad, don't be mean

(Dance break)

We stand behind their courage
And wisdom at great length
We learn from their honesty
And celebrate their strength
Many Hearts
FTK
One Home
Here to stay
THON 07 rockin' out!
On our feet stand and shout!
Our diamonds are forever
With pride we stand together
Fight on state!

playing with the kids
SLIDES OF STRENGTH!
being crazy with my friends
the many people who came on the floor to visit us
THE BLUE BAND SHOWED UP!!!
GREEN WINNING COLOR WARS
The Last Four Hours

I can go on forever. I had a blast. Staying on your feet and awake for 46 hrs isnt as hard as it sounds. Today everyone kept asking me how I was doing and I kept sayin "I'm ready to do another 46 BRING IT ON!" haha.

Thanks for everyone who came up to support me and the other dancers!!!!!!

It was weird this weekend I'm not going to lie. There were times when I just wished for support that wasn't there. I wanted to cross the line a few times and hope that it was there. I hate the fact that everything is just a show for his friends or at least that's how I feel because everytime he remotely acknowledges me it's with a group of people there. It makes me mad that he is "confused" and if he was where he said he was a while ago he would know where God is taking him or least have a sense. I thought he would grow more once he got up to school after being home for so long away from people who encouraged him, but I was wrong. I realize that God may not have anything planned for us and this is fine. I just need God to tell me that Himself or show me that Himself because until He says so, I will always believe that where my heart is leading me, is the place I'm supposed to be. It stinks waiting around for someone who doesn't give a left arm about you but what can you do? Hope that maybe the next time you take a big step they are there to support you with everything they have , to love you for it, or whatever. Sometimes life is just that way.

So I guess the next thing I have to look forward to is Vail, Co this summer. Well, so far he has no idea I'm going there and probably won't find out or care. Why would he care since he's going home to his precious angel? Ah well sometimes things are just like that.

until later days
FTK

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day kids!

So we had off from class today because it snowed about 1 foot here. It's pretty sweet to be able to walk outside throw yourself into the lawn and land on fluffy white snow. A little cold but that's ok. I have been watching movies all day. Newsies, She's The Man, Serendipity, and The Lake House. It's Valentine's Day and I had no surprise valentine. I didn't expect one, but it would have been nice.

This day last year: My birthday gift finally arrived in Mr. Music's Mailbox and he then gave it to me before we went to see The Boyfriend(a musical). It was perhaps one of the best gifts I have ever gotten and came with a note that said, "Happy Birthday, when life gets you down, remember you can fly." I can't believe I fell for that.

I was brushing my teeth tonight and I had one of those flashback moments to last may. We had gone down the beach 4 of us just to relax and start the summer off well. Mr. Music and I were brushing out teeth in the bathroom and he finished before I did. He waited for me as I was brushing my teeth making a comment on how hard I brushed them. When I finished he wrapped his arms around me. I remember looking in the mirror and smiling at him, and then he said just one word: Perfect.

Sometimes stuff like that just gets me thinking. I swear I saw forever right then. I guess guys just see things one hour at a time instead of taking the time to realize that what they are really doing is just hurting someone by leading them on to believe they could ever beat out someone who is prettier, smarter, a better friend, known longer, etc.

and the funny thing is: I don't hate him one bit for it. I just pray for him every night.

Though you've been acting cold to him You know your hreat is sold to him

The title is from the Pajama Game.

So we talked in Bible Study today about love and what perfect love looks like. We also talked about how God is Love. It really got me to think about a lot of things. Unconditional love. Wow. What a set of words.

Anyway, I figured some things out. My heart is sold to him. That has been plane from the start. In Bible Study we were asked to think about our relationships and if we loved the other person before we entered into relationships with them? I think in the case of Mr. Music (lets just call him that) I did love him. I loved him as a brother in Christ. I say that because at that time in my life, the summer before college, I was just beginning my incredible journey with Christ. I was constantly in prayer and just praying for everyone even people I had yet to meet. As our friendship grew, so did my love for him as a brother in Christ. I was in constant prayer for him and I cared about him. Even during our relationship, constantly prayed for him and I was constantly praying about our relationship. I wanted to be Glorifying God in every way. I realize that there were some areas that we needed to work on in the Glorifying God bit, however my relationship with Christ never faltered. And the aftermath? I feel the same. I am constantly praying for him and his relationship with God to bloom. I continue to pray for God to shape his heart into one of a warrior and give him a good Christian Role model. I am a prayer warrior for my brother in Christ. It hurts not to know what is happening and it hurts even more to know that during the course of our friendship, he did not accept my prayers or my view of things because of my denomination. Little he knows of my faith that he will let God lead him to where God wants him to be. It is sad to see that he will not trust God enough to say "Ok, Lord I think you are calling me on a missions trip or a summer project and I will go." It is sad to see that he is too afraid of leaving his comfort zone and be a warrior for God. But I will pray on because there is something about this brother of Christ that is driving me to pray for him every night and every day. What it is, I have not found out myself. I have every reason to kick him from my memory, but I will fight on in prayer for him.

I love being a prayer warrior. If you have any requests, send them to me. Know that even though I might not know you, I am praying for you. I am praying that will you come to know the Lord in beautiful ways. For God is Love and He loves you more than you will ever realize.

1 John 4:7-21

Incase I don't get around to writing....Happy Valentine's Day

We're still fightin it

Today I am 20.

I refuse to grow up.
I will stay young forever at least in my heart.

I had a great weekend at home. So great I didn't want to leave. I am really only looking forward to the dance marathon I am doing in a few days. That's it. After that I was to leave school. I don't want to be here any more. It's getting to be too much for me. Too much stress, too disappointing, and too fake.

There is nothing more comforting than being with the ones you love. It is perhaps the most reassuring thing in the world and when you leave that comfort zone everything else feels empty. Which is why it is important to surround yourself with people who love and care about you the way you love and care about them. For life is about Relationships.

Valentine's Day is a few days away. I quit.

Happy Feet

So tonight I saw Savion Glover!!!!!
THAT GUY IS NUTS!!!! He'S AMAZING!!!!!!! I LOVE IT! It was such a good present to myself.
So next week, when I'm dancing in THON and tired, I'm gonna think of the Kids and I'm gonna think of Savion Glover preforming for an hour and a half, tapping like a nut.

So here it is....The weekend at home. Canning for the Kids! and celebrating my birthday. It will be fun. One thing will be missing but that's ok. Whatever. I'll get by like always.

PTL
FTK
Ciao for Now!