Here's Where I stand, Here's who I am

I hate being challenged by other people. I am usually always up to the challenge. But last night my confidence was challenged. I hate that! and now I am feeling blah about myself. Seriously people? Good thing I am going to work today! Those people are so much fun!

Update on work and Disney in General. It's fun! I love my work because I love the people I work with and I love putting smiles on people's faces. They don't always listen to me and sometimes they get angry about me stopping them or directing them a certain way, but they don't understand that it's for their safety. The parade could run them over or they could fall and get hurt. It doesn't matter if a parent is watching them or whatever, they could get hurt and it's my job to say: Don't do that you'll get hurt.

I work at Indiana Jones Epic Stunt Spectacular and it's a lot of fun. I've been working long hours but that will change this week because they cut back on my hours. That's fine, I could use a chill week. If I need to I can pick up shifts from other people or some other shifts.

I think that's it. I have to get my confidence back up. It might happen today, it might not. I'll def get it up tomorrow after work. I only work until 2 so I can go to the gym or something. Who knows. I have to go get ready for work and such.

Peace, Love, and Pixie Dust

ITS HERE!!!!

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!

A LITTLE BIT LONGER!!!

GET IT!!

Not Much Longer...

Crazy Kevin Jonas right before their First Sold Out MSG show!!1

JONAS BROTHERS

A LITTLE BIT LONGER

INSTORES>>>>> TOMORROW!!!!


GO GET IT!!! NOW!

All this time goes by, still no reason why

A Little Bit Longer and I'll be fine
Waitin on the cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

~Nick Jonas~ A Little Bit Longer

So I'm different than Nick Jonas of course, but having a chronic illness just stinks. Having to take medications every day....it's not fun. Yesterday I had a really rough day. All I wanted to do was sing and my lungs would not allow me to. I was really congested and it was really frustrating. Talking was a chore. I hated it. But I've been learning more about asthma and allergies and how I can be an ambassador of my illness too. Most days I am perfectly fine. But I have my lows. Days were I can't talk, where I'm too congested to exercise, headaches that keep me on the couch, and so on. I can take all the meds I want, use all the creams they tell me to *exzema is popular with asthma*, and do whatever it takes to get better, but just sitting here feeling bad for myself is not a good way to spend my life. Why did it take a 15 year old boy and his two older brothers to show me that?

So I'll wait Til Kingdom Come
All the highs and lows are gone
a little bit longer and I'll be fine

I wrote my own little song called Rough Todays. I don't think the song will ever get anywhere but hey, who knows. I'm not pushing for it though. I have other things on my mind. So lets talk about them and the blessings I have in my life.

Today I had a very hyper day! Who knew getting up at 6 to go to work would make someone so hyper! I was singing and dancing. I was modeling the new clothes I bought for Disney and the clothes I made for the Renn Faire! It was awesome! I am still hyper but I'm winding down. I had a GREAT DAY! Trying to be more cheerful and positive is making such a difference!

A huge blessing I have found in my life is found in music. The Jonas Brothers to be exact and their family *including team Jonas* Who knew three boys with a great family and amazing team members could be so inspiring! I wasn't a huge Jonas fan at first, but then something happened. I don't know what it was...Camp Rock or Play My Music....something sparked a Jonas mania in me and I have been hooked on what I like to call "Lovebug Jonas" ever since. Thanks to MTV I have been IV hooked to the life of the Jonas Brothers and was able to see the beautiful Kevin *my personal guitar hero* wake up this morning...he's a typical 20 year old boy, "Oh good....Please Go Away." I followed them from last night all the way up until their show tonight at Madison Square Gardens in NYC. Love you boys and rock MSG this weekend!!!
Hit up www.jonasbrothers.com www.changeforthechildren.com or nickssimplewins.com to be inspired by these beautiful young men.

Another huge blessing is my family! They are being so supportive of my going to Disney for a semester. I was really worried. I hate leaving my family. Everyone who knows me, knows how much I love my family and I have a need to be near them. However, when God opened this door for me, I said yes and I am so excited! This is an incredible opportunity. I am thankful for my family for being my family and supporting me through this. I get to spend one full week with them before taking off on Saturday morning *12am* for Florida, starting my program on Monday, taking a day to myself on Sunday.

Two of my great friends! Well three... Sarah and Ben. I love you guys. Without you I don't know what I would do!!! Even though Sarah and I had our first big fight.... we are still bffs. She's great and Ben just is amazing as well! Thanks guys!!! I'm really going to miss you! Another friend who was a great blessing this summer popped out from the past this May. Mr.Magic has graduated HS and is pursuing his career as a Magician. I am so very proud of him! We have spent a lot of time together this summer doing things like: Me and his lil sis of 7 singing HSM kareoke, dinners after my internship, The PA Renn Faire *celtic fling*, and working on a juggling routine to some Disney song. We toss email back and forth talking about everything. What a great friend! He sees through everything!

Tomorrow Mr. Magic and I are heading to the pa renn Faire. I am going to be a pirate! I made half of my costume myself! It is very exciting. maybe I'll post pictures but there will probably be a vlog about it so check out You Tube! We will be entertaining others with our talents and just being crazy at a sweet place!

Well thats all for now. Omgosh I am getting so excited!!!

Update on Life

I know I haven't updated in a while...I've been busy.

My life has been crazy so here is an update:

I am now a part of the Street Team for these three Handsome Young Men.....and probably one of the oldest members...



I made that ^^^


I am working on a cigar box routine that promises to be as cool as a scat cat.

I am just about packed and ready to ship out for Disney in 8 days!!!!!

Tomorrow I will officially be done with my internship...YAY!!!

I still haven't seen Bailey perform in Legally Blonde but I am hoping to get there next wednesday!

I have found/ made a costume for the Renn Faire which opens this weekend and I am happy to be going with a good friend of mine.
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I think that's all. If more exciting news comes up...I'll be sure to post it.. In the meantime

Voting for Burnin' Up for a VMA starts tomorrow...DO IT!
A Little Bit Longer comes out August 12th GET IT!
The Burnin' Up Tour is coming to a city near you... SEE IT!

mucho love!

GO GET IT!

PRE ORDER IT!!! It Promises to be good!

Theatre Survey

REAL NAME: Lauren Mary Keenan

STAGE NAME: Lauren Keenan

LAST SHOW YOU ADDED TO YOUR RESUME: Jekyll and Hyde the musical

LAST SHOW YOU AUDITIONED FOR: Jekyll and Hyde the Musical

WERE YOU CAST?: No originally no, but after a few boo boos I was.

LAST SONG YOU USED AT AN AUDITION: "You Must Love Me" from Evita

THE NAME OF YOUR NEWEST SHOW FRIEND(S): So Many! Liz, Disney Dave, Jimmy, Mary, Ross, and more!

FAVORITE THEATRE (VENUE): PSU: Schwab, NYC: The Palace Theatre, Philly: Academy of Music

ACTOR,DANCER,SINGER, LIST ACCORDING TO YOU: Singing, acting, then dancing

FAVORITE PLAY(S): Spring Awakening, A Streetcar Named Desire

FAVORITE MUSICAL(S): Beauty and the Beast, The Lion King, Jekyll and Hyde, Legally Blonde the Musical

FAVORITE ROLE YOU'VE PLAYED & FROM WHAT SHOW: D.W. in Arthur a Children's show, Lead Juggler #1 in Barnum, rich lady in Jekyll and Hyde

DREAM ROLE(S): Ensemble in Legally Blonde the musical, Lucy in Jekyll and Hyde, Anything in Godspell, Rusty in Footloose

NAME A THEATRE SUPERSTITION: "Break a leg"

LAST PART YOU PLAYED IN A SHOW: Rich lady in Jekyll and Hyde

ARE YOU EQUITY OR NON-EQUITY: Non-Equity

YOUR GOAL IN SHOW BUSINESS: To make people smile and forget their troubles for a while. To take audiences to another world. To be the best I can be while learning and growing continually.

FAVORITE DIRECTOR: Marge Campbell. On Broadway: Jerry Mitchell

FAVORITE CHOREOGRAPHER: Holly Gombita and Theo Lenicki

WHAT WAS YOUR VERY FIRST SHOW: The Wizard of Oz * a remake*

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DANCE SOLO: No.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SINGING SOLO: Yep.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THE LAST PERSON TO TAKE A BOW: No

NAME A SHOW YOU'VE DONE MORE THAN ONCE: Godspell

HAVE YOU BEEN TO NEW YORK: YES!

HAVE YOU BEEN TO LA: No

SCARIEST PART OF AN AUDITION: Waiting to for the list to go up

BEST PART OF AN AUDITION: Getting a chance to prove yourself

NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN: Rocky Horror

NAME A SHOW YOU COULD DO FOR YEARS: Godspell

NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD LOVE TO DO BUT HAVE NEVER BEEN IN: Footloose/Godspell

A PREVIOUS DREAMROLE THAT YOU'VE SINCE GOTTEN TO PLAY: D.W. in Arthur a Children's show ~ PLaying a kid is so much fun!

NAME A PERSON YOU'D LIKE TO WORK WITH AGAIN: Marge Campbell and  Theo Lenicki

WHAT ARE YOU AUDITIONING FOR NEXT: A role in Disney and Joseph in the Spring

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN PERFORMING: Since 5th Grade so 10 years

DO YOU CARRY YOUR HEADSHOTS AROUND WITH YOU: No

DO YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PAST CAST MEMBERS: You betcha!

ON A SCALE OF 1-10 HOW IMPORTANT IS GETTING PAID:  1.

WHAT IS YOUR MOST MEMORABLE PERFORMANCE: Being lead Juggler in Barnum. I was able to grow a lot and get over a lot of fears (Ie. Falling off the stage while juggling)

WHAT'S SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR UNEXPECTED THAT HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE
ON STAGE: I unexpectedly almost fell backwards off the stairs during a performance of Jekyll and Hyde. My healwas a few inches off the back of the step and I slightly lost balance. It was a bit noticeable. 

WHO IS THE MOST DIFFICULT PERSON (ON STAGE OR OFF)?
People who act like they know exactly what they are doing when they honestly don't know what they are doing.

EVER BEEN NAKED ON STAGE?: no

WHO OR WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST INSPIRATION OR INFLUENCE? Currently it is Jon Groff because I wrote to him expressing my appreciation for his art and how inspiring his performance was and he hand wrote me a letter back. After that I'd say Actors who are normal and not stuck up. People who do what they do because they love to do it. Walt Disney, most of the Penn State Thespians, Joshua Beblo, and more!

IF YOU COULD BE A RICH FAMOUS PORN STAR OR A STRUGGLING THEATRE ACTOR
WHICH WOULD YOU CHOOSE? Struggling theatre actor. It's what I love to do.

ONSTAGE, HAVE YOU EVER…
a) Been killed? No
b) Been drunk / stoned? No.
c) Played someone half your age? YES!
d) Played someone twice your age? no

e) Played someone of the opposite sex? yes.
f) Cried? yes
g) Fired a gun? No
h) Driven a car? No.
i) Been drenched? no.
j) Been in a dream sequence? no.

k) Kissed someone? yes.

"Cause Tonight I'm gonna fall for you again"

So the wedding was ok....

  It was hard being the only one without a date, especially at Busch Gardens because everyone had a partner to ride the rides with and I was always in a row by myself. The only exception was on the Griffon because you could fit 9 people in a row. Ugh.

Since the wedding things have been good. I met up with my good friend Magic man a few times and we had a blast. Hanging out with him is always a good time. We talk and relax and get to know each other even more than we already do. This summer has been great getting to know him. He has matured so much and has been a lot more open then in the past. I feel like for the first time we understand each other as friends. We joke around and stuff. It's good. I know he doesn't like me, but he's a wonderful guy and it's so hard for me to keep my "lets just be friends" face  on. He's a sweetie. Actually, he is helping me put together a cigar box routine. This is great because I need to work on performing as much as possible. I'm a new performer and I'm just getting my feet wet. It's going to take some time before I feel comfortable walking up to people and juggling in their faces. I'll get there though. I think Magic man has faith in me and I have some faith in myself, apparently that helps a lot too.

I'm at the beach right now watching the sunset. It's beautiful and I might go for a walk up the street just to watch it and relax a bit. Life is beautiful down here. The waves make wonderful music the skies shine off the water. Everything is relaxed, except with my family things can get out of control sometimes. But it's nice. It's nice not to have to worry about the internship or anything else. I love relaxing. It's peaceful and comforting.

Until later

~Me

But It's cool Cause We're just Friends

Part of the chorus from Just Friends by the Jonas Brothers. I love that song.

I'm dedicating this part of the song to My Cousin Ryan and his fiance Katie, they are getting married this weekend. Here is the part I am sending out to them:

Thinkin about how

we're gonna say our vows

it's cool we're just friends

As she walks down the isle

I see all my friends smile

Cause Now we're more than friends

A little bit about this wedding... since it's in North Carolina, my family is using it as an excuse to road trip so that we can catch up with some old family friends on the way. So my mom, brother, sister, and I are jumping in the car and heading there at 4 am tomorrow. Wait, I forgot to mention my brother's girlfriend and my sister's boyfriend and my....oh wait that's right I don't have a date. This is more so because I don't have a boyfriend, even though he would really come in handy right now. I'm not bitter, I'm just frustrated. I know I am going to be left out of a bunch of stuff and dancing isn't going to be fun alone. I know I know, meet someone there and dance with them...but it's not the same. That slow song comes on and who do I get to dance with...no one. This is my first wedding as a grown up and well....it sucks to go alone. 

So here's the game plan. We are leaving at the butt crack of dawn tomorrow and driving to VA beach. After that we are heading to a friend of ours who lives in VA and staying over. Thursday we are going to Busch Gardens and to add salt to the wound, both of the daughters of this friend are bringing their boyfriends. Gee Golly Gosh I am going to have a blast. We are staying for the fireworks at Busch Gardens then heading to NC for the wedding. Friday we are going to chill maybe with my uncle but more so just as a family and the sig others, and Saturday is the wedding.

I wish I had a date and to be honest I could have just asked a guy friend. But it's not the same. It stinks to be going this alone, but I guess that's life. I think it would be different if there were friends of mine who were going to be there and are single too....but there aren't. I am going this alone and it stinks. It stinks a lot.

So say some prayers for me. I hope to have fun, but at the same time I want that:

Everyone knows it's meant to be

falling in love just you and me

and

Hello Beautiful

How's it going?

Some thoughts on Jo Bros songs?

Ok so the countdown is dwindling. Only 51 days until I arrive in Disney to start my College Program. I am driving down and leaving on the 15th so I can give myself plenty of time. I am a littler nervous.

Anyway....

I have been listening to the Brothers called Jonas....aka The Jonas Brothers aka Jo Bros a lot lately cause I have to clean my room and while I like singing musicals, the Jo Bros have been songs to dance to. Here are a list of my favs in no particular order.

Just Friends

Games

When You Look Me In The Eyes

Burnin' Up * THE NEW ONE!!!*

PLAY MY MUSIC

Hello Beautiful

That's Just the Way We Roll

Please Be Mine

6 Minutes

Hold On

I probably have more but I just don't know it yet. Some of my fav lines from these songs are as follows because they mean something to me.

"When you love someone and they break your heart; don't give up on love, Have faith, restart and Hold On." ~ Hold On

"Cause I could comb across the world, see everything and never be satisfied. If I couldn't see those eyes." ~ Hello Beautiful

"I just want to play my music all night long" ~Play my music

"Everyone knows it's meant to be. Falling in love just you and me. Til the end of time, til I'm on her mind. It'll happen. I've been making lots of plans like a picket fence and a rose garden. I just keep on dreaming. But it's cool cause we're just friends." ~Just Friends

"I'll be there forever. You'll see that it's better. All our hopes and our dreams will come true. I will not disappoint you. I'll be right there for you 'til the end. The end of time. Please be mine." ~ Please Be mine

Of course all my favorites are the love songs but I can't help it. Remember I am the hopeless romantic. *sigh* Great band, great guys. Maybe one day I can meet them and tell them that they seem really down to earth and really funny.  Who Knows.

my Jo Bro confession...

Yeah...I finally confessed after about a month of being hooked on the Jo Bros.

HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!

I am writing a BOOK!!!!

I know you all are super excited!!! I am going to begin writing as soon as I finish this post and do my nightly exercise. 

What the book is going to be about is a secret but it's something that I care deeply about, besides theatre.

I am super excited about this book and while it may take a while to get through the process, I am sure gonna stick through it.

Encouragement is welcome!

Summer, Summer, Summer

Well schools are almost all out and it's summer.

Job Update: I still don't have one. This means, I'm probably not getting one. Seriously. It's stupid. I'm getting beat out by high school kids because I am not staying in the area. 

I'm sorry I stink at posting. Nothing interesting is happening. I don't have a job. I'm not going on vacations. No day trips.

Really all I have been doing is; reading, juggling, singing, and interning. I have such an exciting life. At least once August hits I'll be in Disney mode. I'm already excited to get there and start. This whole internship on Thursdays and Fridays stinks. It's alright though. 

I promise to write more interesting things when they happen.

Heat and No Breath

I am sure most of you, wherever you may be, are experiencing this heat wave. This crazy crazy heat wave. Well I am in this heat. My family is and our lovely air conditioner broke. My poor puppy is panting like there is no tomorrow. I feel bad for him. There is no cool place in our house for him to go. My mom is going to put the air in her room on tonight, but 4 of us will not fit in the room. 

It is almost 100 degrees in the philly suburb and if our air doesn't get fixed I'm not sure what will happen.  Tomorrow is going to be hell and I hope that my puppy is ok while we are all out. I'll be at work along with my mom and bro. My sis at school. 

I WANT COOL NIGHTS WITH NO HUMIDITY!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!

sorry gang just had to vent. Off goes the computer.

Stealing Cinderella

I'm in that mood again. You know, the one you get in after reading about Mr. Darcy, Galas, Knights in Shining Armor and the like. Sometimes my minds drifts to these places. What it would be like to marry a guy who takes you to galas and shows you off. A guy who is arrogant at first but upon realizing his love for you decides he is going to change. A sweet guy riding in to save the day and risk his life for your love. One of the things that catches me about the whole Mr. Darcy thing is that Elizabeth didn't even like him. I mean, who would at first, but even after he makes his change, she turns him down. I mean seriously? Does that kind of stuff drive a man?

I was thinking about what it would be like to go to a formal event. You know one where you had to wear a gown and the gent wears a tux and there is champagne and such. Then my head went into Disney song mode and I thought: "He'll whisper 'I love you' and steal a kiss or two. Though he's far away, I'll find my love some day. Some day when my dreams come true."

Then my head went: "Omgosh, my dreams are coming true. I am working for Disney. Does this mean that possibly I will find him! The One! ahhhh" But it's all in my head right?

I'm still on the search, though I am being more subtle about it. I only wish that guys would take more advice from classic novel characters then they would the men around them. If a guy modeled himself around Mr. Darcy, the world would be different. *sigh*

I'm not getting any younger. I know that I am still young, but when your friends start getting engaged and the number of boyfriends you have had you can count on one hand, you start to think that maybe he's not out there. Doubt is part of human nature. However, Trusting God that He will send the right guy at the right time, is what I need to do. 

I remember thinking that I had found that guy once. I was wrong. I wasn't super wrong, but I was wrong. Now, even though we are okay, things are weird. I never told him I thought he was the one. I mean that would be even weirder. But on occasions, my mind likes to wander off to what it would be like if we ever were married.

I'm a girl it's my nature.

Anyways the reason I titled this as such is because of a song my brother put in the back of his girlfriend's scrapbook he made for her graduation.

it's called Stealing Cinderella by Chuck Wicks. Here are the lyrics. Check em out and let me know what you think.

I came to see her daddy for a sit down man to man

It wasn't any secret I'd be asking for her hand

I guess that's why he left me waiting in the living room by myself

with at least a dozen pictures of her sitting on a shelf

Chorus:

She was playing cinderella

she was riding her first bike

bouncing on the bed and looking for a pillow fight

running through the sprinkler with a big popsicle grin

dancing with her dad, looking up at him

in her eyes I'm Prince Charming

but to him I'm just some fella

riding in and stealing Cinderella

I leaned in towards those pictures to get a better look at one

when I heard a voice behind me say "Now ain't she something, son?"

I said "Yes, she's quite the woman" and he just stared at me

Then I realized that in his eyes she would always be

Playing Cinderella

riding her first bike

bouncing on the bed and looking for a pillow fight

running through the sprinkler with a big popsicle grin

dancing with her dad, looking up at him

in her eyes I'm Prince Charming

but to him I'm just some fella

riding in and stealing Cinderella

He slapped me on the shoulder

then he called her in the room

when she threw her arms around him

that's when I could see it too

She was playing Cinderella

riding her first bike

bouncing on the bed and looking for a pillow fight

running through the sprinkler with a big popsicle grin

dancing with her dad, looking up at him

if he gives me a hard time

I can't blame the fella

I'm the one who's stealing Cinderella

anyways that's all for now.

iJob

So Apple has their little i"insert fun phrase here" thingies. 

I applied at the Apple store and got an interview. It's not a smart thing to get me started on this interview but to tell the story short: I had an interview, the lady never showed, there were mix communication between the workers and the lady who was supposed to interview me, some guy interviewed me, I am so in the dark right now.

I don't think that my interview was a good one. I'm nervous. I really need a job and Apple pays well. I am also going to call the hotel that has been trying to get me in for an interview for like three weeks. It's not my fault your staff isn't there in the beginning of the week when I have three days available. Gosh people.

I NEED TO WORK!!! I can't afford not to. College nickels and dimes you and I am very poor right now. As opposed to all the other kids who never had to work a day in their lovely lives to survive, I have had to work almost every day. This includes while being a full time high school and college student. 

Summer job hunting is hard. No one wants seasonal. I'm praying for a good job. Even if I have to miss all the important things in my life this summer. That would be 1 wedding (not mine) and one week of family vacation.

SOMEONE, ANYONE, I NEED A JOB!!!!!

Sunday Drivers: Why do you drive so slow?

Yesterday my mom woke me up at the ungodly hour of 8:15 am to meet her and my dad for breakfast. Yum. I looked like I was hungover, though I can promise you I wasn't, and for the first time in a long time I wore my glasses in the morning. I could see better but I still looked horrible. I really didn't get much sleep saturday night. Graduation parties leave me too sugared up.
After breakfast my mom and I headed out to some sales in Lancaster, but in order to get there we had to be stuck behind Sunday Drivers.

Now, Sunday Drivers have a right to drive slow. That's fine, take your time. It's Sunday why should you rush? The Lord gave us this "day of rest" and so we should Rest and relax and use it to not do work. However, Sunday drivers should be considerate of other drivers. If you are going 10 under the speed limit, please get off the road. Seriously. If you can't accelerate your car to the speed limit of a bypass, get off the road. That's all I have to say to you.

As I have already mentioned I was at some graduation parties. Friday: 2 grad parties of which I drank some beer that didn't make me too happy in the morning when I got up for work at 5 am. Lovely. Saturday: One grad party of which I skipped the beer, but didn't eat dinner at because...well I was allergic to everything that was there. Sunday: My bro's gf's graduation party. Prolly the best one of the weekend. I had one beer (I really don't like beer that much) and a ton of food and sweets. Then I fell asleep by the pool. It was great. Her family is really nice and all so it was cool and we knew some ppl there.

Next week I have a grad party for a really good friend of mine who I am going through a rough patch with. It's all part of his growing up and getting out there experience. I guess he isn't going to college, which is fine he needs to do what he loves. He loves magic, but it stinks because he is going to leave everything behind to chase this dream. When I first met him, I could tell that he loved his family much. When I look at him now, I almost feel as if he feels they are holding him back. They are so supportive of him and they all love and care for him very much, he is just pulling away. I care about him a lot and want what's best for him and I want him to follow his heart and his dreams, but I am so worried about him. We don't talk much any more because my words are useless to him (I have said that I feel this way to him and he says that he doesn't mean to make me feel that way), but he does. However, I will always be there for him. Now he's one of those people who tell you that you don't need to get them anything. But I got him something small and he'll enjoy it.

I was working on some juggling tricks today. Let's just say, I'm glad my nails are short, and my fingers are in a lot of pain. My forearms are going to be black and blue tomorrow as well. I want/need to get some tricks down before I work on a full routine and that worries me because the stuff I am doing is not all that easy. I know in time, I will get it. However, it's going to take a lot of work and probably give me a lot of pain in the process. I guess that's my life.

In terms of the other performing I am doing, I have been practicing my vocals every day. I see a difference in the way I sing some songs. I think Mere would be proud of my practicing and improving. Also, I have been playing my guitar more often. Dance comes when I have time to devote to it (which right now is little) and acting is something I like to work on everyday. Sometimes I pretend I am different people just for the heck of it.

I am still thinking of some special features to add to this Blog. I might do a Performer Spotlight each week or something. That might be pretty cool.
Anyways That's all for today.

Hope you guys like the new colors and all
~Me

Marley and Me

So last night I went out for a few drinks with my friend. We realized that they were shooting the film Marley and Me in West Chester and so after we had our drinks we went walking in town. We were almost part of the movie! But of course they didn't want us to walk across the street and be a par of the scene. It was a lot of fun though. We were able to see them drive a car out and then park it again. We also were able to walk behind the shoot and look at the trucks and stuff. We didn't go inside or anything, but we were able to see a lot and I figured out that I think that is what I want to do. If I can't entertain I want to be a part of helping to make the entertainment happen.

Other things that have happened:

Internship is going well. We do a lot and on slow days we get to hang out and learn from the producers. It is a lot of fun now that I switched to the days that have less people. I get to do more with the producers and a lot more work and I feel more useful.

I still can't find a job that pays. How the heck am I supposed to make money. I am helping a lady out that has a company and is a friend of the family but I don't know that she will have work for me all summer.

I will have a new vlog coming up. I will also have some other fun new things coming to this blog.

Tell your friends!
~ME

I do do sadness

I know this happened a week ago....but I am still getting over it and I can't believe I didn't get to see them again before they headed off stage.

Jon Groff and Lea Michele exited Spring Awakening May 18th 2008. I just watched a You Tube video of their final curtain call and the speeches they gave. Lea Michele could barely speak she was bawling. Jon was trying to comfort her and silently wave until she was ready to talk. They walked out in true style holding hands and of course Jon kissed her hand as they made their final exit. I hope at some point in the future they come back to reprise their roles. I have a feeling Spring Awakening may have a long following like RENT. Personally, I would have slept in a tent for three days outside of the Eugene O'Neill theatre to get tickets to their final performance. I love those guys and I've only seen them perform once. They are truly amazing in their roles. The way they created them and fulfilled them was out of pure love for what they are doing.

To think that they are going to be replaced is hard. I guess when John Gallagher Jr. left it wasn't too big a deal since it was pretty early on in the show still. But these two...such crucial parts of the show itself and how it came to life. I also didn't get to see JGJ perform so I might have a small bias towards the other two and Mr. Banshoff who was wonderful as MOritz.

I don't think their replacement is a big deal but who they are being replaced with is. I mean the new Melchior is some Canadian rock singer or something like that. I mean seriously? The new Wendla should be good because well, she's been studying Wendla for a long time.

Ugh. To Lea and Jon, I've only seen you perform once, but your heart and soul convinced me well enough that choosing to be a Spring Awakening fan before seeing the show was the right move. To be in love with the script, music, and talent that was chosen to create and form Spring Awakening as we know it is an honor. I personally love you guys and wish that you didn't have to go. I want you to come back so I can see you do it again. I promise to give the new kids a chance, but seriously....please come back. You guys are amazing.

A Fan
~Me

A Mr. Darcy kind of afternoon

So yesterday I was driving home from Target to get the first Narnia movie.
I had to take a detour because a tree branch or something that the road was closed. However, I late found out it was because they are filming the movie Marley and Me at a house out there and the road was blocked. I was pretty much guessing on where to go. I ended up by the new high school which is surrounded by empty old farm fields. There are tress scattered throughout them and the grass is now patchy with high and low spots. There was a mist coming off the field from the rain that had falling that day and the sun was setting quite beautifully. It was then that i smiled. I thought of the scene in Pride and Prejudice where Mr. Darcy walks across the field, hair messy and meets Lizzy who is walking and thinking at sunrise. What a beautiful scene and just the thought of it made me smile.
I know things like that don't happen any more, but I wish they did. THere would be reason for me to hope that there a good guys out there. Even though Mr. Darcy wasn't all good. Still he was romantic and well who doesn't want a romantic who dedicates himself to you in the end?

My internship is going well. Its a great company and I enjoy working there. It doesn't pay so I am in the process of finding another job. It sucks. I am working part time for this lady who has her own company off and on but it's not good enough. The diner hasn't scheduled me and I am currently in contact with a restaurant at a nearby hotel so I hope I get something there. I really don't mind devoting my summer to work. With work and juggling mixed with a bit of reading, I think this summer has potential.

Only 80 something more days til Disney!!! I am so excited!

Well that's all for now
Mucho Love
~Me~