Making Plans

In the hustle and bustle of going from my sister's prom to my graduation and coming home to get my life in order, I forgot about plans.

Now that I am finally settled down, with some cleaning left to do, I am ready to make plans for the future. However, I was reading today and this quote fluttered across the page:

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper and not to harm you. Plans for hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11

It was then that I realized that I need to not make plans. I need to prepare and trust that the Lord's plans for me are greater than anything that I can imagine. I have a general idea of where I am being led but I can tell you that I am very scared. I am excited that the Lord is pulling on certain strings but I am super scared.

I love trust. Trusting the Lord. It doesn't mean that you have to be brave every second. It simply means that you are able to be brave long enough to know that you are doing the right thing. Trust is an important value. If you can't Trust someone, what kind of value does that put on your relationship with them.

I learned a lot about trust when I was in Vail, Colorado with Campus Crusade for Christ. It was during one specific moment did I finally know why God had placed me halfway across the country from home and into the high mountains. I had issues with trust and men. I had been hurt by too many. Also, I was very hurt by a few men of God, or those who called themselves such. So I found myself unable to trust men, all men, with the exception of my dad and the Lord above. While on Project, I met Ben. Ben has been such an important person in my walk with Christ and my life. Ben was a member of my small group on project. We had shared a lot with our small groups and so Ben knew that my asthma and out-of-shapeness would be of an issue with me. Also, I have a very small fear of new things, though I was excited to try them, I was petrified at the same time.
One Saturday we participated in The Amazing Race: Vail style. This included swimming, biking, and hiking. We had to answer questions as well. It was very hard, but my team Ben and Jeremy's *like the Ice Cream Ben and Jerry's haha* pulled me through. Ben and my friend Terrin were a big part of our finishing. Ben hiked all the way up a ski slope with me in tow while our team ran ahead to answer the question.
The next day, our small group with caving *I can't spell spalunking?* This was an awesome adventure and Ben was there once again to help me! After making our way through the cave, reaching the perfect place to turn off our headlamps and singing some worship *which sounded beautiful with the acoustics*, we turned to go back. Since I was taking it slow, Ben and my leader Joanna stayed behind to help me out. There was this one part that would have been horrible is you slipped and fell in the gap between the rocks. Ben went over and promised to help me over. But I sort of had this trust issue with men and promises. Even after everything Ben had done for me in the days before, I could not trust him enough to risk my life/health. To make a really long story short, it took about 10 minutes, lots of tears, Jo yelling at me, lots of prayers, Ben's begging me to trust him, and God's Amazing Grace to get me past that one point. From that point on, it was smooth sailing and we weren't in any rush. Ben and Jo climbed some scary looking ropes that we found in the cave and then we finally made our way out. Ben, with the help of Joanna and our gracious God, helped me regain my trust in men.

Recently Ben and I started talking again (as in we lost touch and got back in touch). So if you are reading this Ben, I still talk about that day all the time. You are very important to me. I have also been led to make some travel plans this summer and I would love to go see Ben and just catch up. A vacation either alone or with one other person. I don't know where that vacation will be or when it will be, I just know that it needs to happen in order for me to figure out my life. I would love to visit my friends from Vail in a road trip across the country or go across the ocean to visit friends in Europe.

So the point of all this: Trust! I am trusting the Lord to lead me to where I am supposed to be. I am trusting that the Resumes I send out fall into the right hands and that job I have is the Job in which I will most grow both mentally and spiritually. I am simply trusting.

I Vote GLEE, Best Show!

So I just watched GLEE with about half of America. I am simply at a loss for words. GLEE was AMAZING! Of course FOX will make us wait until September to see this show. They are some smart cookies those people at FOX. Since the ratings drop with 24 this past season, FOX needed something to stir up its audiences. Why not combine Musical Theatre and TV? But wait! We will premiere the show at the end of the Spring TV season and use it as a kick off to SWEEPS in the fall! They really are some very smart cookies! They also want YOU to tell YOUR friends to check out the first episode of GLEE all summer long on FOX.com.
So why did I like GLEE? Here are a few reasons:
GLEE puts everything I could never have into a show. My school never had a show choir, however, that was the one thing I’ve always wanted to be a part of. Because I never had experience in a show choir I was too chicken to join one in College, even though I know most of the people in it *Shout out to those SINGING LIONS!*, I still couldn’t do it. I think it’s the one thing I regret. I would love to go back to my high school now and start one. I would need some help though, but I know I’d be able to find it. I was never really a jock and I never really fit in anywhere. I can relate a lot of the characters of Rachel and Mr. Schuester. I feel like an outsider a lot. However, I find absolute joy and I am most happy when I am preforming. GLEE has many definitions, but it mostly means joy or happiness. So this show is perfect for that.
It relates at a wide audience. This is not a show that is going to bring in Women between the ages of 18-49, which is the demographic most sitcoms seem to be going towards these days. This is a show that is going to draw teenagers, college kids, and adults together. This is a show that is going to bring together not only the theatre lovers but people who love to watch a good sitcom.
SHOW TUNES! OK so maybe there aren’t going to be too many show tunes. But the fact that there are musical theatre artists in the show and scheduled to guest star on the show, I am extremely PUMPED! Finally, everyone will be able to get a taste of what I love about performing arts! Show tunes are goofy, but that doesn’t mean the people who sing them are. Well, I consider myself goofy, but if you look at the people in the performing arts lifestyle, most of them are doing it because they are passionate about it. Some are doing it because it’s all they have ever known, and that’s ok too. But the majority of performers perform because its what makes them happy, it is their passion. When was the last time you did something that you were extremely passionate about? I’m serious. If you are passionate about math and you love accounting…do it! Don’t just settle for the first thing that comes your way and makes you miserable. It’s a lot like a relationship. Hey! I think GLEE is going somewhere with this…
But I won’t spoil the show for everyone. I will simply suggest that you head on over to FOX.com/GLEE and watch the first episode and decide for yourself.
Meanwhile, the rest of us will be pulling our hair out in anticipation for the fall season of GLEE!

"Believe that Dreams come true everyday...because they do."

~One Tree Hill Season 6 Finale Ending.
Of course I bawled my eyes out....because that is the statement that I live by. Dreams Come True Everyday...because they do. Not just in Disney but everywhere....everyday. I'm still working for my dreams to come true...one of them is to get married some day. Which leads to the rest of this post...

I also just finished watching My Fake Fiance..... I should not do this to myself. Tears once more. yay! I get to watch all my friends get married or engaged and I'm still single. It's ok that I'm single because I'd rather be single than be dating the wrong person. But sometimes I just get tired of waiting. I mean who exactly do I go with to these weddings? It would feel weird to go alone. Maybe I should hire a wedding date...like in the movie The Wedding Date. Maybe we will fall in love? haha. Only in the movies.

All of this talk about finding love and everything just puts me in the pits sometimes. I mean when I finally find myself content with the single life, love appears all around me.
My brother and his girlfriend are happily in love. My best friend and my other friend are happily in love.
I thought my parents hated each other. But on sunday on a travel from one grad party to another they were laughing like they were best friends, something I haven't seen them do in a really long time. I just sort of knew that they were still in love. Like that song Lucky.

I guess it would be ok if I wasn't hurt so much this year. If I wasn't sick of being lied to by men who should know better. I'm 22, just graduated from college, and I am the Grace to every Will out there. I just want one guy to be nice, know what he wants in a relationship, and treat me with respect. Sometimes I get tired of being Grace. Don't get me wrong. I love all the Wills in my life. They are amazing men and I wouldn't ask any of them to change for the world, but it's hard sometimes.

So this is what I do to myself. I spend my days working out and watching everyone around me fall in love and I wait. I am waiting very patiently and if that makes me a loser that is fine. I don't find parties satisfying, I'd rather stay in with a good book and hot cocoa. I love picnics and the finer, smaller things in life. So I'll sit here and wait until some guy comes along who finds the smaller things in life amazing. Who enjoys watching old Disney movies and laughing at nothing. Who will go on walks with me around the neighborhood and talk. Because even though I've had two relationships with jerks, I've found that the times we were most happy was when we were enjoying the small things in life.

Why settle for less? After all, men will never be men if we settle for jerks.

Sorry men. I love you and all...but your majority make you look horrible. Yes, women have their bad sides too, but from a woman's perspective, men are the worst.

The Beauty of Music

So I went to a concert tonight. The Singing Lions, a show choir on campus. I usually go to their concerts because their music inspires me. Their voices are beautiful as well. I love to sing, but I'm not sure I have the guts to ever be a singing lion. They are some of the most amazing people I know.
They did a cabaret tonight and did a great job. The songs were beautiful, breathtaking, and some even brought tears to my eyes.

I haven't been feeling good. This whole not eating right, low blood sugar thing is freaking me out a bit. I'm sure it's going to my head. So tonight I decided to talk to a friend and listen to some random music. I started with Michael Buble, he is simply amazing. His voice is very soothing and he brings about a mellow tone in his slower songs. It was nice.

At the moment I am listening to Rachel's. I am a huge fan of classical music, though I'm not entirely sure that is what Rachel's can be classified as. They are very relaxing music with no words. However, I believe that it's more new wave than it is Classical. None the less it is beautiful and relaxing. It's inspiring as well. It certainly brings a new air into this apartment. A clam, peaceful air. I like it.

Music is surely very beautiful.

No Place Like Home

The saying is totally true.
This musing is about my weekend. I think it will be a good one.

After my 8am Tai Chi class, I will run over to meet with my advisor to make sure the class I moved around works out. Then I will stop at Starbucks and grab my usual Grande Caramel Macchiato with Skim Milk and head up to warm my car up. Then it's off to home sweet home. I am very excited.

Reasons to be excited about home:
My family ~ They are amazing and i love them so much! Also, I need to talk business with my parents.
My Puppy ~ He is just the best and cutest dog ever (everyone feels that way about their pooch)
My Friends ~ To my honest, my two best friends from home have to be the best people in the entire world! One is a magician and the other is just, great!

So I'm not sure what the plans for tomorrow are exactly. I hope to go see Mr. Magic's show. I was going to do it in secret but I forgot he has facebook and he found out I was coming home. So he asked me to go. I said maybe. THere's a lot at stake going to that show. Seeing things I don't want to see and the fact that the kid still pulls on my heart. He knows it too. That is a bit frustrating at times.

SATURDAY is going to be great! It's going to be cold but one of my good friends from Disney will be in Philly so I am going to show him around! It promises to be a fun day filled with adventure. Maybe some running up the Art Museum steps?

Sunday the birds play and monday I will leave to come back to school. Hopefully it will be above zero by then.

Home is my run to place. I won't be able to get there very much this semester, I want to get there while I can. I love being at home with people I love. I love the notion of home and everything it stands for and is. I guess that's what you get when you spend a whole semester entirely away from it.

Do You Believe in Magic?

Musings about Magic.

To think that I have spent many days thinking about Magic after working at Studios. During the Christmas Rush in Disney I had to keep reminding myself every morning before work that I was here to make magic and memorable guest experiences. How was that possible to do when you have 50+ screaming guests in your face upset because the theatre hit capacity and you can no longer let anyone else in? You are just doing your job.

It was rare that I had to remind myself to make magic. Magic sort of just comes naturally to me. I love to smile and to laugh. Those are two wonderful forms of magic. Laughing is contagious, I don't care what you say. You could laugh at nothing and get just about a whole entire room laughing with you. It's great! And Smiling....well just try it sometime. You'll understand. We rarely realize that magic is all around us.

Let's take today for example:
It's cold at Penn State. Freezing. The weather man says, "Don't go outside. You will get frostbite." Penn State still goes to school. So we students bundle up and head out to brave the weather. It's BITTER Cold. Just a lovely time to walk around campus from class to class. We endure it because we have to, well most of us endure it. Some people are just lazy. But tonight something beautiful happened. It started to snow. Not the heavy, gusty snow, but the soft, gentle snow that leaves a nice dusting on the ground. To me, that is magic. A cold, miserable day turns out to be a beautiful one in the blink of an eye. Snow is magic to me because it has powers to do a lot. It has the powers to make things sparkle and seem new. It gives us creative abilities (snowmen, snow angels, igloos) and much more. Magic can be found all around us.

When I had a free day or even if I had a hard day at work, I would stop by the Magic Kingdom or Epcot to watch the fireworks at night. Actually, that's a lie. I rarely watched the actual fireworks. Rather, I watched the people around me. The adults and children. People from Florida and people from Across the world. I watched them as they watched in amazement at the display before their eyes. The oohs and ahhs. The wows and That's cool! I loved every second of it. Watching families hug close together, couples hold hands, babies stare at the wonder before their eyes. It was simply amazing. Of course I cried at times. After all, these people weren't just coming to Disney because it is a well known theme park. They were because Disney offers a rare form of magic. Disney takes the guest from reality and places them in a land of fantasy where anything can happen. It's true, anything can happen at Disney. I saw a lot happen. Engagements, weddings, birthdays, regular people getting VIP treatment, surprises and more. I had the honor of making magic myself. Everyday. Not only when I went to work, but even visiting the park as a guest and helping people find their way. They had no idea I worked for Disney (though the two finger point probably gave it away). It's amazing.

My best friend is a magician. He sees things a little bit different than normal people. I think right now, in this moment, I finally understand what he loves most about his job. After all, we could all use a little magic in our lives every now and then. Though making our own...that right there is priceless.

Lets Finish this Thing

Here I am. My last semester of College. I'm sorry I didn't write more about the Disney College Program. I was really very busy down there. It was crazy. Here I am, last semester of college, not sure of what is going to happen after this.
Here goes nothing.
I'll post more when something exciting happens.

Here's Where I stand, Here's who I am

I hate being challenged by other people. I am usually always up to the challenge. But last night my confidence was challenged. I hate that! and now I am feeling blah about myself. Seriously people? Good thing I am going to work today! Those people are so much fun!

Update on work and Disney in General. It's fun! I love my work because I love the people I work with and I love putting smiles on people's faces. They don't always listen to me and sometimes they get angry about me stopping them or directing them a certain way, but they don't understand that it's for their safety. The parade could run them over or they could fall and get hurt. It doesn't matter if a parent is watching them or whatever, they could get hurt and it's my job to say: Don't do that you'll get hurt.

I work at Indiana Jones Epic Stunt Spectacular and it's a lot of fun. I've been working long hours but that will change this week because they cut back on my hours. That's fine, I could use a chill week. If I need to I can pick up shifts from other people or some other shifts.

I think that's it. I have to get my confidence back up. It might happen today, it might not. I'll def get it up tomorrow after work. I only work until 2 so I can go to the gym or something. Who knows. I have to go get ready for work and such.

Peace, Love, and Pixie Dust

ITS HERE!!!!

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!

A LITTLE BIT LONGER!!!

GET IT!!

Not Much Longer...

Crazy Kevin Jonas right before their First Sold Out MSG show!!1

JONAS BROTHERS

A LITTLE BIT LONGER

INSTORES>>>>> TOMORROW!!!!


GO GET IT!!! NOW!

All this time goes by, still no reason why

A Little Bit Longer and I'll be fine
Waitin on the cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine

~Nick Jonas~ A Little Bit Longer

So I'm different than Nick Jonas of course, but having a chronic illness just stinks. Having to take medications every day....it's not fun. Yesterday I had a really rough day. All I wanted to do was sing and my lungs would not allow me to. I was really congested and it was really frustrating. Talking was a chore. I hated it. But I've been learning more about asthma and allergies and how I can be an ambassador of my illness too. Most days I am perfectly fine. But I have my lows. Days were I can't talk, where I'm too congested to exercise, headaches that keep me on the couch, and so on. I can take all the meds I want, use all the creams they tell me to *exzema is popular with asthma*, and do whatever it takes to get better, but just sitting here feeling bad for myself is not a good way to spend my life. Why did it take a 15 year old boy and his two older brothers to show me that?

So I'll wait Til Kingdom Come
All the highs and lows are gone
a little bit longer and I'll be fine

I wrote my own little song called Rough Todays. I don't think the song will ever get anywhere but hey, who knows. I'm not pushing for it though. I have other things on my mind. So lets talk about them and the blessings I have in my life.

Today I had a very hyper day! Who knew getting up at 6 to go to work would make someone so hyper! I was singing and dancing. I was modeling the new clothes I bought for Disney and the clothes I made for the Renn Faire! It was awesome! I am still hyper but I'm winding down. I had a GREAT DAY! Trying to be more cheerful and positive is making such a difference!

A huge blessing I have found in my life is found in music. The Jonas Brothers to be exact and their family *including team Jonas* Who knew three boys with a great family and amazing team members could be so inspiring! I wasn't a huge Jonas fan at first, but then something happened. I don't know what it was...Camp Rock or Play My Music....something sparked a Jonas mania in me and I have been hooked on what I like to call "Lovebug Jonas" ever since. Thanks to MTV I have been IV hooked to the life of the Jonas Brothers and was able to see the beautiful Kevin *my personal guitar hero* wake up this morning...he's a typical 20 year old boy, "Oh good....Please Go Away." I followed them from last night all the way up until their show tonight at Madison Square Gardens in NYC. Love you boys and rock MSG this weekend!!!
Hit up www.jonasbrothers.com www.changeforthechildren.com or nickssimplewins.com to be inspired by these beautiful young men.

Another huge blessing is my family! They are being so supportive of my going to Disney for a semester. I was really worried. I hate leaving my family. Everyone who knows me, knows how much I love my family and I have a need to be near them. However, when God opened this door for me, I said yes and I am so excited! This is an incredible opportunity. I am thankful for my family for being my family and supporting me through this. I get to spend one full week with them before taking off on Saturday morning *12am* for Florida, starting my program on Monday, taking a day to myself on Sunday.

Two of my great friends! Well three... Sarah and Ben. I love you guys. Without you I don't know what I would do!!! Even though Sarah and I had our first big fight.... we are still bffs. She's great and Ben just is amazing as well! Thanks guys!!! I'm really going to miss you! Another friend who was a great blessing this summer popped out from the past this May. Mr.Magic has graduated HS and is pursuing his career as a Magician. I am so very proud of him! We have spent a lot of time together this summer doing things like: Me and his lil sis of 7 singing HSM kareoke, dinners after my internship, The PA Renn Faire *celtic fling*, and working on a juggling routine to some Disney song. We toss email back and forth talking about everything. What a great friend! He sees through everything!

Tomorrow Mr. Magic and I are heading to the pa renn Faire. I am going to be a pirate! I made half of my costume myself! It is very exciting. maybe I'll post pictures but there will probably be a vlog about it so check out You Tube! We will be entertaining others with our talents and just being crazy at a sweet place!

Well thats all for now. Omgosh I am getting so excited!!!

Update on Life

I know I haven't updated in a while...I've been busy.

My life has been crazy so here is an update:

I am now a part of the Street Team for these three Handsome Young Men.....and probably one of the oldest members...



I made that ^^^


I am working on a cigar box routine that promises to be as cool as a scat cat.

I am just about packed and ready to ship out for Disney in 8 days!!!!!

Tomorrow I will officially be done with my internship...YAY!!!

I still haven't seen Bailey perform in Legally Blonde but I am hoping to get there next wednesday!

I have found/ made a costume for the Renn Faire which opens this weekend and I am happy to be going with a good friend of mine.
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I think that's all. If more exciting news comes up...I'll be sure to post it.. In the meantime

Voting for Burnin' Up for a VMA starts tomorrow...DO IT!
A Little Bit Longer comes out August 12th GET IT!
The Burnin' Up Tour is coming to a city near you... SEE IT!

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Theatre Survey

REAL NAME: Lauren Mary Keenan

STAGE NAME: Lauren Keenan

LAST SHOW YOU ADDED TO YOUR RESUME: Jekyll and Hyde the musical

LAST SHOW YOU AUDITIONED FOR: Jekyll and Hyde the Musical

WERE YOU CAST?: No originally no, but after a few boo boos I was.

LAST SONG YOU USED AT AN AUDITION: "You Must Love Me" from Evita

THE NAME OF YOUR NEWEST SHOW FRIEND(S): So Many! Liz, Disney Dave, Jimmy, Mary, Ross, and more!

FAVORITE THEATRE (VENUE): PSU: Schwab, NYC: The Palace Theatre, Philly: Academy of Music

ACTOR,DANCER,SINGER, LIST ACCORDING TO YOU: Singing, acting, then dancing

FAVORITE PLAY(S): Spring Awakening, A Streetcar Named Desire

FAVORITE MUSICAL(S): Beauty and the Beast, The Lion King, Jekyll and Hyde, Legally Blonde the Musical

FAVORITE ROLE YOU'VE PLAYED & FROM WHAT SHOW: D.W. in Arthur a Children's show, Lead Juggler #1 in Barnum, rich lady in Jekyll and Hyde

DREAM ROLE(S): Ensemble in Legally Blonde the musical, Lucy in Jekyll and Hyde, Anything in Godspell, Rusty in Footloose

NAME A THEATRE SUPERSTITION: "Break a leg"

LAST PART YOU PLAYED IN A SHOW: Rich lady in Jekyll and Hyde

ARE YOU EQUITY OR NON-EQUITY: Non-Equity

YOUR GOAL IN SHOW BUSINESS: To make people smile and forget their troubles for a while. To take audiences to another world. To be the best I can be while learning and growing continually.

FAVORITE DIRECTOR: Marge Campbell. On Broadway: Jerry Mitchell

FAVORITE CHOREOGRAPHER: Holly Gombita and Theo Lenicki

WHAT WAS YOUR VERY FIRST SHOW: The Wizard of Oz * a remake*

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A DANCE SOLO: No.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A SINGING SOLO: Yep.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN THE LAST PERSON TO TAKE A BOW: No

NAME A SHOW YOU'VE DONE MORE THAN ONCE: Godspell

HAVE YOU BEEN TO NEW YORK: YES!

HAVE YOU BEEN TO LA: No

SCARIEST PART OF AN AUDITION: Waiting to for the list to go up

BEST PART OF AN AUDITION: Getting a chance to prove yourself

NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD NEVER DO AGAIN: Rocky Horror

NAME A SHOW YOU COULD DO FOR YEARS: Godspell

NAME A SHOW YOU WOULD LOVE TO DO BUT HAVE NEVER BEEN IN: Footloose/Godspell

A PREVIOUS DREAMROLE THAT YOU'VE SINCE GOTTEN TO PLAY: D.W. in Arthur a Children's show ~ PLaying a kid is so much fun!

NAME A PERSON YOU'D LIKE TO WORK WITH AGAIN: Marge Campbell and  Theo Lenicki

WHAT ARE YOU AUDITIONING FOR NEXT: A role in Disney and Joseph in the Spring

HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN PERFORMING: Since 5th Grade so 10 years

DO YOU CARRY YOUR HEADSHOTS AROUND WITH YOU: No

DO YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH PAST CAST MEMBERS: You betcha!

ON A SCALE OF 1-10 HOW IMPORTANT IS GETTING PAID:  1.

WHAT IS YOUR MOST MEMORABLE PERFORMANCE: Being lead Juggler in Barnum. I was able to grow a lot and get over a lot of fears (Ie. Falling off the stage while juggling)

WHAT'S SOMETHING EMBARRASSING OR UNEXPECTED THAT HAPPENED TO YOU WHILE
ON STAGE: I unexpectedly almost fell backwards off the stairs during a performance of Jekyll and Hyde. My healwas a few inches off the back of the step and I slightly lost balance. It was a bit noticeable. 

WHO IS THE MOST DIFFICULT PERSON (ON STAGE OR OFF)?
People who act like they know exactly what they are doing when they honestly don't know what they are doing.

EVER BEEN NAKED ON STAGE?: no

WHO OR WHAT IS YOUR GREATEST INSPIRATION OR INFLUENCE? Currently it is Jon Groff because I wrote to him expressing my appreciation for his art and how inspiring his performance was and he hand wrote me a letter back. After that I'd say Actors who are normal and not stuck up. People who do what they do because they love to do it. Walt Disney, most of the Penn State Thespians, Joshua Beblo, and more!

IF YOU COULD BE A RICH FAMOUS PORN STAR OR A STRUGGLING THEATRE ACTOR
WHICH WOULD YOU CHOOSE? Struggling theatre actor. It's what I love to do.

ONSTAGE, HAVE YOU EVER…
a) Been killed? No
b) Been drunk / stoned? No.
c) Played someone half your age? YES!
d) Played someone twice your age? no

e) Played someone of the opposite sex? yes.
f) Cried? yes
g) Fired a gun? No
h) Driven a car? No.
i) Been drenched? no.
j) Been in a dream sequence? no.

k) Kissed someone? yes.

"Cause Tonight I'm gonna fall for you again"

So the wedding was ok....

  It was hard being the only one without a date, especially at Busch Gardens because everyone had a partner to ride the rides with and I was always in a row by myself. The only exception was on the Griffon because you could fit 9 people in a row. Ugh.

Since the wedding things have been good. I met up with my good friend Magic man a few times and we had a blast. Hanging out with him is always a good time. We talk and relax and get to know each other even more than we already do. This summer has been great getting to know him. He has matured so much and has been a lot more open then in the past. I feel like for the first time we understand each other as friends. We joke around and stuff. It's good. I know he doesn't like me, but he's a wonderful guy and it's so hard for me to keep my "lets just be friends" face  on. He's a sweetie. Actually, he is helping me put together a cigar box routine. This is great because I need to work on performing as much as possible. I'm a new performer and I'm just getting my feet wet. It's going to take some time before I feel comfortable walking up to people and juggling in their faces. I'll get there though. I think Magic man has faith in me and I have some faith in myself, apparently that helps a lot too.

I'm at the beach right now watching the sunset. It's beautiful and I might go for a walk up the street just to watch it and relax a bit. Life is beautiful down here. The waves make wonderful music the skies shine off the water. Everything is relaxed, except with my family things can get out of control sometimes. But it's nice. It's nice not to have to worry about the internship or anything else. I love relaxing. It's peaceful and comforting.

Until later

~Me

But It's cool Cause We're just Friends

Part of the chorus from Just Friends by the Jonas Brothers. I love that song.

I'm dedicating this part of the song to My Cousin Ryan and his fiance Katie, they are getting married this weekend. Here is the part I am sending out to them:

Thinkin about how

we're gonna say our vows

it's cool we're just friends

As she walks down the isle

I see all my friends smile

Cause Now we're more than friends

A little bit about this wedding... since it's in North Carolina, my family is using it as an excuse to road trip so that we can catch up with some old family friends on the way. So my mom, brother, sister, and I are jumping in the car and heading there at 4 am tomorrow. Wait, I forgot to mention my brother's girlfriend and my sister's boyfriend and my....oh wait that's right I don't have a date. This is more so because I don't have a boyfriend, even though he would really come in handy right now. I'm not bitter, I'm just frustrated. I know I am going to be left out of a bunch of stuff and dancing isn't going to be fun alone. I know I know, meet someone there and dance with them...but it's not the same. That slow song comes on and who do I get to dance with...no one. This is my first wedding as a grown up and well....it sucks to go alone. 

So here's the game plan. We are leaving at the butt crack of dawn tomorrow and driving to VA beach. After that we are heading to a friend of ours who lives in VA and staying over. Thursday we are going to Busch Gardens and to add salt to the wound, both of the daughters of this friend are bringing their boyfriends. Gee Golly Gosh I am going to have a blast. We are staying for the fireworks at Busch Gardens then heading to NC for the wedding. Friday we are going to chill maybe with my uncle but more so just as a family and the sig others, and Saturday is the wedding.

I wish I had a date and to be honest I could have just asked a guy friend. But it's not the same. It stinks to be going this alone, but I guess that's life. I think it would be different if there were friends of mine who were going to be there and are single too....but there aren't. I am going this alone and it stinks. It stinks a lot.

So say some prayers for me. I hope to have fun, but at the same time I want that:

Everyone knows it's meant to be

falling in love just you and me

and

Hello Beautiful

How's it going?

Some thoughts on Jo Bros songs?

Ok so the countdown is dwindling. Only 51 days until I arrive in Disney to start my College Program. I am driving down and leaving on the 15th so I can give myself plenty of time. I am a littler nervous.

Anyway....

I have been listening to the Brothers called Jonas....aka The Jonas Brothers aka Jo Bros a lot lately cause I have to clean my room and while I like singing musicals, the Jo Bros have been songs to dance to. Here are a list of my favs in no particular order.

Just Friends

Games

When You Look Me In The Eyes

Burnin' Up * THE NEW ONE!!!*

PLAY MY MUSIC

Hello Beautiful

That's Just the Way We Roll

Please Be Mine

6 Minutes

Hold On

I probably have more but I just don't know it yet. Some of my fav lines from these songs are as follows because they mean something to me.

"When you love someone and they break your heart; don't give up on love, Have faith, restart and Hold On." ~ Hold On

"Cause I could comb across the world, see everything and never be satisfied. If I couldn't see those eyes." ~ Hello Beautiful

"I just want to play my music all night long" ~Play my music

"Everyone knows it's meant to be. Falling in love just you and me. Til the end of time, til I'm on her mind. It'll happen. I've been making lots of plans like a picket fence and a rose garden. I just keep on dreaming. But it's cool cause we're just friends." ~Just Friends

"I'll be there forever. You'll see that it's better. All our hopes and our dreams will come true. I will not disappoint you. I'll be right there for you 'til the end. The end of time. Please be mine." ~ Please Be mine

Of course all my favorites are the love songs but I can't help it. Remember I am the hopeless romantic. *sigh* Great band, great guys. Maybe one day I can meet them and tell them that they seem really down to earth and really funny.  Who Knows.

my Jo Bro confession...

Yeah...I finally confessed after about a month of being hooked on the Jo Bros.

HUGE ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!!!

I am writing a BOOK!!!!

I know you all are super excited!!! I am going to begin writing as soon as I finish this post and do my nightly exercise. 

What the book is going to be about is a secret but it's something that I care deeply about, besides theatre.

I am super excited about this book and while it may take a while to get through the process, I am sure gonna stick through it.

Encouragement is welcome!

Summer, Summer, Summer

Well schools are almost all out and it's summer.

Job Update: I still don't have one. This means, I'm probably not getting one. Seriously. It's stupid. I'm getting beat out by high school kids because I am not staying in the area. 

I'm sorry I stink at posting. Nothing interesting is happening. I don't have a job. I'm not going on vacations. No day trips.

Really all I have been doing is; reading, juggling, singing, and interning. I have such an exciting life. At least once August hits I'll be in Disney mode. I'm already excited to get there and start. This whole internship on Thursdays and Fridays stinks. It's alright though. 

I promise to write more interesting things when they happen.