Sports Season

It's that time of year again. Where my two favorite sports collide.

Philadelphia Flyers are in the Stanley Cup Play Offs...2nd round. Staying in strong and I am so very proud of them!! Even though they get blacked out a lot here at school, I am able to listen on the radio or get score updates via my brother texting me. I love this time of year, especially when we do good. We are playing very well this season even though the beginning was very shaky.

Philadelphia Phillies are just beginning their season and they have had a pretty good April season. They are on a nice little winning streak and I hope that it continues. I think we have a great team with lots of potential. Even so...the Phils, like the Flyers, are my boys and will always be my boys. I hope they continue to do well.

I love Philly sports. It's true what they say....Philly Sports Fans are die hard fans whether or not their teams win or lose. I am a very strong Philly Sports fan because I grew up outside of Philly and they have always been my boys. It has taken them a while, and yes the do choke...but they will always be my boys.

Right now I am watching the Phils on TV but listening to the FLyers on the radio.... life is good.

Your Friend In Thespis...

So today is a wonderful day!
You'll have to forgive me if I go astray, I only got 3 hrs of sleep last night because we were busy hanging out with our Pledges.

15 of the most wonderful, caring, and energetic people I know.
They will be Inducted into Thespians today and I will finally be able to call them Friends in Thespis.

I am so EXCITED!

These guys have worked their butt off this semester. Some of them have taken on huge leadership positions and have proven themselves to be extremely capable of handling this club. My little is amongst them and I am so very very proud of her. She has worked extremely hard this semester and has plans to continue to invest in the club.

That is something that I think we need. People who are going to invest in the club and make it something more than it already is today. Because right now I feel as if we have gone in decline since my freshman year. I love the Thespians and those that have made my ride with them worthwhile, I thank you! But it hasn't been easy and we have a long way to go. There are issues we just can't ignore any more. I am excited because today we get to pick the new leadership for next year. Even though I will be missing the first half of the year and graduating the second half, I feel as if this new leadership has potential. Those who have been nominated are bright and have big ideas for this club. I only wish that I could be nominated again for something, but since I won't be here...that would be hard.

Today is going to be an amazing day and I looking forward to calling 15 more people my Friends in Thespis by the end of it.

You all should be proud of yourselves. I know I am extremely proud of you all!

Love
Me~

We've been waiting for an hour...you said it would be 30 minutes.

So my cousin came to visit me this weekend. Nice break from the crazy world of my life. We had a very nice weekend...kinda.

My aunt gave us $100 for food this weekend. I barely eat out...which is to say that I barely eat anything at all. I don't have time, yet somehow I am still on the hefty side. Anyways, The first place we went to was Applebee's. A nice place usually tasty. Well we got our fave app. Queso dip with chips. The Queso was like hard as a rock...we just kinda stared at it. haha.

The next day we went to the all famous Waffle Shop for some tasty breakfast before we headed up to the Stadium for the again famous Blue and White Game (which was boring as per usual). The place was packed, so it was understandable if the service was not so great. But the service seemed exceptionally off. I'm a waitress at a diner that gets really busy like this place. I know when service is bad.
Later we decided to hit up Chili's for dinner. Good Idea we think. There is only two of us so the wait shouldn't be horrible. We were so wrong. We put our name in and said First available. They told us 30 min maybe 45 at the most. So we sit no more than a foot from the hostess stand. We wait. and wait. and wait. As we are waiting we see people literally walk in and get seated. We understand about call ahead seating but this was getting bad. So after an hour of waiting we go up and ask what's up. They said they either called us and we missed it...oh, or they skipped us. WTH? We were sitting right there and we def would have heard them call us. They seat us, cause we were mad. We sit at a way dirty table that hasn't even been wiped. the waitress we got was really nice and really good. But when my food came it was on a plate that was already dirty (it looked like there was bbq sauce or something on it that didnt come off in the dishwasher. Ugh it was bad. We left our waitress a really good tip though.

I guess it was just a string of bad restaurant luck.

Great weekend with my cousin though...very chill. There's too much drama here. I think I created some. Anyways I can't wait to leave this place. A great summer with my fam and an internship...still have to find a paying job. Then Disney in the Fall and Graduation in the Spring. Life is good. The only thing I am going to miss is theatre. Because that's the only reason why I stay here.

When I threatened to quit the club this year my friend asked what I would do. I said, "I don't know. If I quit Thespians I would want to leave Penn State. I can't leave Penn State because i have a year left...so I guess I'm not quitting."


Life. Is. Rough. But we can't afford to play it safe by wearing a helmet.

"Spring Awakening: Causing Sexual Tension In Audiences Everywhere"

I am just going to fawn over Spring Awakening a little more. I have had some thoughts on it these past couple days....things I didn't mention perviously I guess.

I think my title should be a headline for the show. I mean seriously though, and maybe this only happened to me, but it makes you want to go out, find a sweet, good looking guy and just kiss him. Besides making you feel awkward and somehow, free at the same time, this show has a lot to offer.

I was thinking about certain characters:

Wendla: In the original play, it opens with Wendla's 14th birthday. The musical doesn't yet this play is focused on how the kids are too young to know what is going on with them. I think it is an important thing to leave out. There is no mention of age at all in the musical....we know they are in school, that's it. Strangely enough, when Lea Michele was cast as Wendla, she was 14 years old. She was cast when it was in workshop. Woah. She does a great job at playing Wendla, she has a soft, childish, almost innocent voice. In the play we get a sense the Wendla is a female version of Melchior, but not so education driven. She is curious and wanting. She needs to learn, she wants to understand. In the musical....we get that, but to a much lesser degree. However, we do see that she is a lot like Melchior in wanting to learn things and this is something that might attract Melchior to her.

Moritz: Probably one of the best characters in the show. I really felt like Blake knew what he was getting into. Maybe he really was that kid who wasn't the brightest in the class, who tried but just couldn't focus, who got picked on, or maybe he wasn't. I don't know how John Gallagher Jr. played Moritz, but I know Blake did a great job. To put that much into a character and to really know or at least make the audience really feel what is happening. It was great. Mad props Blake!!

Melchior: I loved how we saw this character develop. In the play it's laid out for us. We understand that he understands but at the same time he is so confused. We know his parent's stance on things is more relaxed then the others. We know he is smart, charming, and the girls love him. The musical helps us see this even more. The songs Melchior sings, are ones that show struggle and angst and even though he is not like Moritz in wanting to die for it, he wants it to change. He doesn't know how, but he wants it to change. His journal, the prop (there are no props in the play written at least), adds so much to that character. Wendla getting a hold of it and having a purpose to find him in the barn and give it to him, makes the audience go...what is going to happen? We see Melchior throw two fits of rage and we understand why. In terms of the character of Melchior, the musical and the play are very similar...except at the end. I will not ruin the end for anyone so I won't make mention of it here. John Groff....I give you props. A character like this requires a lot and you were extremely believable.

Those being the three main characters that I wish to explore, I have nothing else really to say. Perhaps I will see it again before Michele and Groff leave and have more to comment. Perhaps I will see it again after the leave and have even more to say. I laughed and I cried. I was touched to the core. It was amazingly beautiful. This is a broadway show that screams to the world. I want to scream to the world to see it. We need to understand, we need to know, we need to learn, and most importantly the world needs to let us grow.

My thoughts.

My name is Kiiira.... Oh I believe

So yesterday my stress and hard work paid off. Well sort of. People still managed to piss me off over this New York trip by not telling me they weren't going and then when I called to ask if they were so I could have a final head count they said no...so now the club has to pay more money that we don't have. But oh well.

I was able to see two shows and eat at the Jekyll and Hyde Club...after eating there for the third time, I realize it's time to find some place new...so that's my next trip's quest, find a new place to eat.

I was able to see two shows: Xanadu and Spring Awakening

Xanadu

WOW. Ok so when I first heard about this show I was think, "What stupid idiot would write something like that and put it on broadway?" Then I saw it....first of all Kerry Butler was perfect for the role and so was Chyenne Jackson. No only was the show funny, but the music was great. Two of us saw the show in the afternoon and then a group of people saw it at night. Alex and I understood the story quite well...the people who saw it at night were like, "I don't know what the story was about but there were 40 disco balls at the end." A lot goes on during the show and I think you have to pay very close attention to understand it all. However, I thought it was a really good show and I'm not saying that because I like ELO.

Spring Awakening

I understand that hype. It's a GREAT show. Lea Michelle and John Groff did a great job and props to Blake who filled his role to wonderful expectations, having to follow Johnny Gallagher Jr was a tough gig. I had read the play by Wedkin this past semester and had to do an analysis on it for class. I know the story pretty well and therefore I had some what higher expectations. While the musical is very different from the play, I think they did a good job at following the story and pulling the key points. I just wished they developed it a little more. Especially Moritz. I mean we get a good picture of why Moritz does what he does and it helps, but I think that there is more we need to understand. The relationship between Wendla and Melchior was well played. Very well played. I think those who have seen the musical without reading the play were impacted. I mean I was impacted but because i knew the story i was hit really hard. I cried, I didn't find things very funny (they tried to make it a bit funny).

Set and Lighting and Staging. WELL DONE! The set was simple and there were barely any props. I believe this relates back to Wedkin's lack of stage direction in his original work. What is the purpose of this? Why no stage direction or props? Well I'm not sure if this is what Wedkin was going for but this is a show that you need to rely on the actor's to provide the message, it requires them to put more thought and emotion into what they are doing. They need to make us feel. The message of the actor has the potential to be really strong. The lighting was amazing. Great job. There were times I felt like I was at concert, but that's ok. The lighting seemed to say, here are the actors singing, listen to them, they have a story to tell that may affect your life, LISTEN TO THEM. The backdrop that "disappeared" to look like bricks were removed like a world was falling apart. Great effect. The staging was EXTREMELY well done. To have everyone on stage, to use the apron of the stage, to have audience members sitting on stage, and more. It was all great! I think one thing that grabbed my attention is the "audience members who sang" . *Edit thanks to Erica..see comments* Cast members are seemingly modern kids, not dressed like the others, with mics who sing in all ensemble numbers. I saw this as an attempt to say...This is their story, but look...It is still happening today. It could happen to you, look at the world around you, question it.

All in all I really enjoyed Spring Awakening. I have had the Cd since the summer and the musical is fantastic....but the show is eye opening. I hope others were able to get out of it all that I did.

Other than that, I had a few drinks, hopped on the bus, and slept most of the way home. I had a great time with friends. I didn't get to stage door but that's ok because they were doing Broadway Cares stuff and that's why I didn't stage door, I'm really glad they do Broadway Cares, because it is so important.

The day was great, warm with no rain. Simply fantastic and I was able to enjoy myself....even if i was stressed out about it.

Until beautiful spring days
~Me

She Should Get It Through Her Head...

I saw the touring cast of Evita tonight here at good old school...

I must say the show was good. Modernized, but good. They need to get rid of the projector screen....it served no purposed and pissed me off. Besides that the casting was good. Che was amazing What is Evita without Che? Nothing. The Waltz between Eva and Che (my fave number) Lived up to and surpassed my expectations. It was good. Something else I didn't like...they cut songs and then changed who sang some of the songs...I was like YOU CAN'T DO THAT...but apparently they can.

Lighting and set design was good....the mural that served as a curtain was very effective. I was hooked from the moment I walked into the theatre. The Lighting...Amazing. Mad Props to the lighting designer...I bet they took a ton of pictures during photo call...do they even have photo call in professional theatre? They must.


That's really all I have to say on the topic of Evita. So why did I title my entry such?

Well....I've been down for about a week. A bout with depression as I like to call it. Post-show depression. Since there are no rehearsals to go to, no crazy cast mates to deal with, I am lonely. In fact tonight was the first night I went out all week. Another thing is...I am having an extremely difficult week.

At this point in my college career I should be doing a lot of things. I should be interning, looking for jobs, making sure my grades are in check. I should not being going to Disney World for a semester. But I am. I am because I need a break. As much as it will kill me to be away from my family for Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years, I will have to. I hate it. I'm going to miss a thespian Barn Show and a Mainstage. What they are, I have no idea yet. I'm going there alone, no friends or family. So why should I feel this way now?

Well there's a lot going on behind the scenes. Pressure from dad to get an internship (got one) and a job (still working on such) for the summer to make some money. Pressure from mom which is really from dad. Grandfather being sick again. Trying to keep up with school work. Planning the new york trip and so on. I have also lost another good guy friend and I think that it might just be me pushing guys away with the things I do. I need to feel secure and comforted. I'm sorry.

I feel like a nobody. I feel like I don't matter. I want to feel differently, but I don't and it hurts. I want someone to care and it doesn't seem like anyone does. I'm lost...and no matter how many times Michael Buble tells me "Babe you're not lost" I don't believe him.

So where do I go from here?
I just pray things will be ok.

Until then... me

"I've missed you before I met you."

CONGRATS TO MY BEAUTIFUL CAST AND CREW!!!! WONDERFUL JOB THIS WEEKEND!!!!

I love this group so much that I was the only one who cried at ceremonies when it was my turn to talk. I mean everyone loves everyone...I just get emotional.

Not going to lie director man surprised me when he got up and started ranting about us...oh and he did. He told us at the end that he was proud of us...but he ranted. It was odd.

I'm super proud of my cast because they were amazing. Mr. Peduzzi I admire you so much..simply a freshman with so much talent. You jumped into Jekyll's part with only 4 weeks to learn it and we love you for how amazing you were. Not to mention that you are beautiful and every time you did confrontation I melted a little.

The rest of my cast....LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!! Jimmy..I do not appreciate the Act II break nerf gun death of myself...but thanks for the memories. Rich Bitches...I love you and Court that dress is so perfect for your wedding day haha jus playin. Whores....well we never really liked you anyway. Just kidding you all were amazing and I love you. Meredythe I don't think anyone could have pulled of that red outfit but you! Sexy! To the rest of the men in the cast...what can I say? I enjoyed your dressing room more than the girl's dressing room....duh. You guys are beautiful! Shields... sing "those bastards hold the reigns" to me any day and I will have your children.

haha Well there I go proclaiming my love to you all as per usual...I did get the "Hot Tranny Mess" paper plate award... duh!

So SO SOOOOO Proud....

and here's another thing to boost Mr. Ross' ego a little more. A whole article on how much Sta Fed LOVES him.


To my Crew...You were amazing!!!!!! Couldn't have done it without you.


To everyone: Here's to Late Night Tech Week after parties at McDonalds, Huge games of Apples to Apples where AIDS loses to the KKK, Shamrock Shakes, "Do You", Goose warm ups, and asking every day..."What is really behind the facade?"

Love you guys!!!!
SO EXCITED TO HEAD TO NYC WITH YOU THIS WEEKEND!!!

~Me~

Tonight I'll plunder heaven blind steal from all the gods

It's a dangerous game we play here.

Jekyll opened last night and it was amazing. THere was a pretty good sized audience and we did a good job at freaking people out. TO be honest Ross had never sounded better.

I'm really proud of this cast and crew. We had some really hard times and we pulled this off wonderfully. I mean the original Jekyll quit halfway through the rehearsal process...seriously?

We all hit up McDonalds last night after the show because we were so hyper. Thank God for Shamrock Shakes! I love hanging out with these kids and after this weekend...I dunno what's gonna happen.

THe pics above are:
Ross as Jekyll/Hyde in confrontation
Ross and Alex during Utterson find Hyde in the Lab
and Meredythe and Ross during Lucy's Death.

We have 3 more shows and it's going to be great!

Until I discover what really is behind the facade...

Some Jekyll Pics for ya'all

Our set in construction, but amazing!


A Little Bit of Bring on the Men




Ross(Jekyll) with the Board of Govorners... lovin it.





Some cast members stretching

These were taken Pre-Tech... I'm sure there will be more this week... The show is coming together really well. They have me with a mic...I'm scared shitless. I've never had to wear one before and now the world will know if i mess up. Here's to not messing up!

Jekyll Tech Week Begins....

So we have started.
This is what my weekend looked like....

Friday: Career Fair and Interview with a production company 10-230 pm
Dinner and relaxation 3-5
Load-In 5:15- 11:30pm

Saturday: Load In 9am-5pm
Laundry and movies 5:30-2am

Sunday (today): Wake up and relax with starbucks: 12- 5pm
TECH WEEK BEGINS 5:30-11:30/12

And for the rest of the week we will be teching as well as classes and homework.

We go up on Thursday.

Usually it's not a big deal. It's Penn State Thespians 110th anniversary so we have about 95 alumni coming back this weekend. They will be seeing the show closing night (saturday) as a group. But I'm sure they will be seeing the show a few times. This is a HUGE deal.

So this is what we did all weekend. Painted, built, put together, hung, crawled, and more.
This weekend I screwed my hand. Well ok that sounds wrong, but what I mean to say is that I was in the process of taking out screws from these tables and in that process the drill slipped and then it went into my hand. It was a pretty little mark. I also had to crawl under wet, painted, burlap to put down tarp. It was grand.

I did a lot with the set. Friday night was fun...saturday was more fun. I really love that stuff.

I also was able to be the guinea pig for climbing the set and making sure it was sturdy...i love that lol.


HERE'S TO THE NIGHT! and looking behind the facade. Talk to you soon!

~Me~

Why I love Rehearsal

Tonight Rehearsal kicked my butt. I gave way too much energy and I had none. But I loved it anyway. Here's a recap of my favorite moments from Rehearsal today and yesterday:

Sunday:

Jekyll/Hyde (Ross) *on his knees*: ...and now I'm turning into Jekyll. (as if giving the cast a play by play)

A scene between Jekyll/Hyde and Utterson:

Utterson proceeds to give his line
Jekyll/Hyde: Not now John I'm trying to turn back into Jekyll, let me pull my hair back.

Leaving as the musical director was coming back in.... and not getting called back to rehearsal!

Monday:

Accent Coach....enough said. She was the BEST EVER!!! We had so much fun!

Running Murder, Murder until 11:25....pm.

Ross (Jekyll/Hyde) looking at Liz and freaking her out so much that she cowered behind him.

Bring on the men with the lights down...best ever! Oh and without Chairs.

There are so many reasons why I love going to rehearsal. Despite the fact that they are long, sometimes boring, hard, sweaty, and a killer to the voice after a while, they are great. We have so much fun and Ross is totally a creepy Jekyll. He's nothing short of amazing though.

The next two weeks are what I like to call Hell Weeks. Most people have one and that is Tech Week. I have two because I have TAPS week. Theatre Arts and Production Studio week is when we build our sets. Since most of the cast is not in THespians they really don't know much about this nor do they care what kind of work goes into it (grrr makes me angry). However, me and a bunch of other people will spend hours each day until Friday building, painting, and moving set pieces. on Friday we will build/paint/move until 4pm at which point we will then load everything from TAPS into trucks and move it into Schwab. We will make the set stationary, finish paitning and touch ups...hang lights, finish props and what not. WE will spend our ENTIRE WEEKEND IN SCHWAB!!! Sleeping there, eating there, whatever...we do it. On Sunday we focus for the second time and then we are set to go for the first Dress also known as Tech 1. We have 3 Tech's and an INvited Dress, also known as a Gypsy Run Through. then it's show time. Right after our final performance, we say Hi to our guests, change and then Strike the set. Then we have ceremonies and finally.... we have a party.

It's going to be a blast, but it also means, no sleep, no life, and hard work. But I don't think I would miss it for the world, nor would I spend this time with any other people.

I'll write when I can and post some pictures I took today at rehearsal later.

Its well past midnight and i have an 8am class across campus tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Until then
~Me~

Why do you look for the living among the dead?

So going to church today felt so good. I mean I have been so busy it's been a while since i've been to church.

So Jesus is risen today!! YAY!!!

It's kind of exciting. I mean the whole thought that someone died to save you and enable you to have eternal life. It's sweet.
Anyways I'm wishing you all a great Easter. I hope you enjoy it and can spend it with your family and friends.

I'm missing my family like woah. None of my roommates are here, we probably would just fight anyway. But I'm alone on Easter and I just kind wish that there was something I could do today besides a meeting and rehearsal.

Anyway PTL!!!

The Prop Shop In Schwab

Also known as my home.
Freshman year I was assistant props master. THE FALL of my freshman year. I spent HOURS in the basement of Schwab in the Prop Shop. It has been through a LOT! Mess, columns, fire hazard warnings, etc. When I was Props Master for FOOTLOOSE, it was Hell trying to find stuff in there. Not to mention really freaky when you are in there alone. The basement of Schwab is haunted and well I try not to go down alone.

Anyways. Today was SCHWAB CLEAN OUT!!! WOOT! The third one this year. FINALLY we got to the prop shop and after taking EVERYTHING...literally EVERYTHING out, it looks BEAUTIFUL!!! So clean, so organized. I had the nice job of taking stock of everything...we have a bunch of stuff. It's pretty sweet. It's also really nice to say stuff like "yeah I made that flashing staff for Into the Woods out of wood, a camera flash and cloth." Oh yeah. It's home to a bunch of beautiful, memorable objects that we just don't have the heart to throw away. For example, an HMS Pinafore life circle thinger. It's fun!

However I left clean out early because I had to finish editing my Veterns History Project for my Comm Field Production class. Ugh, I HATE editing, but it's going to be a job that gets me something to live off of until I can prove myself in the theatre world.

I'm supposed to do the Disney College Program in the fall, I'm waiting to be accepted. If I do, I'll have a good shot at being able to work for ABC or ESPN. It'll be great! haha

Sometimes College wears me out. I couldn't go home for Easter. I have rehearsal for J and H at 7 tomorrow. Not to mention that we have a club meeting at 6. I would have had to be back here by 5 to settle in and eat and everything. It just wasn't happening. But I do have the apartment to myself, I just miss the fam and the Big Family dinner they will have tomorrow with the grents, cousins, and all. Most of all I'll miss the kids. My little cousins are growing up and they don't even know who I am. It's so hard. I mean Kevy knows who I am. We have this kind of bond because I was the first cousin he saw in the hospital after waking up. For some reason he loves hanging out with me. We have movie hang outs, he doesn't like to call them dates haha, and he loves me to babysit when I'm around. But he's growing up and he barely knows me. Ugh I wish I was home more. What can you do? This is my life. Away from home but home is so much a part of me.


Off to practice vocals and dance...yes it's 20 of 10 at night. So Much Fun!

Inspiring Those with Dreams

So I posted this on a Forum that I'm in for Legally Blonde. Some girls were asking about Broadway Dreams and I feel like people always give the wrong impression about this. So Here's what I responded with.

Ok so I just read the main post so I'll respond to that and hopefully help some of ya'all out.

I have two dreams. The first is working at or for Disney. The other is working on Broadway. For a long time I have dreamed of performing on Broadway and I have been working towards it but I know my chances are slim. However, If I do get a chance to audition, I will. I was told by my acting teacher that I should go to Grad school for acting.

I'm a Junior in college. I have a year left. I am a Telecomunications major which works on production stuff for movies, radio, and TV. However, theatre is my passion and I have picked up a theatre minor and have been working with the Thespian group here since my Freshman year, earning Props Master my 2nd semester. After a ton of practice I landed my first ensemble role this semester (6th one) ( I go to school with a TON of talented people). I'm going to Disney in the Fall for the Disney College Program and hope to learn some "Entertainment" aka Theatre stuff down there.

My dream to be on broadway has changed. While I do want to go to Graduate school, I think it will be for Arts Management. I want to be a Production Assistant or work behind the scenes. However, I will go to auditions and put myself out there. You never know when an off-Broadway production or a smaller theatre company might need talent. You can work your way up. At least I can say I've performed in NY that way right? I would love to be in a touring company. Infact my friends are laughing at me because i have been telling them how much I want to be in the Touring Company of Legally Blonde. If I hear of an audition or find a way to get there, I'm going to get there.

Rule Number One: Don't let anyone tell you can't do it. You'll never know unless you try. Remember, Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars.

I think a lot of performers don't realize what they are doing when they perform. A lot of stagehands and so forth don't understand either. Those that do, are the ones who deserve to make it. Live Theatre is entertainment. You are providing a service (like any other job). You are giving audiences a chance to leave the real world, to think in a different way, to realize something they might be neglecting about themselves, and so much more. When I first fell in love with theatre it was because all I wanted to do was put a smile on someone's face. I started juggling and I was able to do that more. I started dancing and singing and juggling at the dance time. Having the ability to make people happy, to make people feel something new or something they forgot, is AMAZING. I hope you all can experience it.

I'm a Junior in College with parents who don't want me to pursue any kind of career in theatre, but they know how much I love it and they know somehow I'm going to get there. So have the drive and passion. You'll get there.

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I hope you liked it!

~Me

2 posts in one day! WOW!

OK I just had to post this cause it happened to me.

You know those little tiny boxes that appear after you try to sign up for something online. The verify by typing these letters and numbers in the box below. Some of them are very sensitive with the capital letters and some just don't care. But they always try to trick you.

I can't help but feel like I'm at an eye exam when I see them. I have to squint to see if it's a t or an f. They have all these little dots and white lines and stuff to trick you into putting a wrong letter or number.

BUT WHY? Aren't you varifying your information? Shouldn't this be easy?

Well the answer is no. Nothing is ever easy. Someone, somewhere always has to complicate things.
Thank you person who creates these little verify boxes for making signing up for something that much more difficult.

Ok I just had to let ya'all know my problem with those... Off to buy tools for my theatre class. YAY!

It was Spring Break...thats my excuse

OK so I know you all hate me cause it's been over a week since my last post. Seriously though...no one ever comments so I don't even know if you read this.

Anyways I had a great break. Besides the disappointing Legally Blonde trip...I actually went to see a night show of it on wednesday with the best cousin in the world. We Stage Doored Twice. Oh yeah! And I met and got a pic with Laura Bell Bundy. She's super sweet!

We had my 21st birthday celebration at the bars on thursday and well lets just say Friday was a rough day....

I have been working on a comic book for fan mail for a certain Christian Borle. Well I finally finished it last night. I just need to touch it up at some point today or tonight and it will be perfect. I want to send it out tomorrow.

I have to go buy tools for my set design class...I'm kind pissed at this cause like I spend so much money on classes and then they ask us to buy like 15$ hammers and shit. I'm like ugh I'M POOR YOU ARE TAKING ALL OF MY MONEY!!!!

I have finally figured out that yes I want to work in NYC but I don't want to move away from my family...so I need to like find a way to get there without it costing so much money is gas or travel expenses. Of course I will move away from my family eventually but like NYC is kinda far (almost 2 hrs) and I really love them. I want to be sure I can get back if they need me. Look at me talking though, I go to school 3 hrs away and its so hard to get home...but still.

That's my updates. I'll write more as more comes. WE have our first Jekyll and Hyde Stizprobe tonight...FUN!

Until then,
~Me

Omigod you guys...

So I went for my V.I.P experience yesterday to Legally Blonde The Musical....it wasn't what I expected.
I was super excited because I thought that this was going to be a great day and we would get to meet some of the cast and talk with them and go backstage and all this stuff.
Well we had decent seats for the show, some of the cast came out and talked to us after the show including Laura Belle Bundy, who played Elle, but I didn't get to go backstage and they didn't do pictures or sign autographs (like some of the other groups did)....I payed $179.00 for what?
Sure we went to Spotlight Live afterwards and had some food but seriously? I could have gotten tickets to the show in the orch for $64.00 and talked with and actually physically met the cast by stage dooring, which I've started to do a lot lately. It was a little frustrating.

Of course I loved being able to hear from the cast about their memories and how they came to be stars and all that fun stuff. I live for that kind of stuff. I didn't ask any questions, but its ok. Laura Belle Bundy has some funny stories. BUt ya know.

The was crazy....I thought we were going for my birthday present but we spent 2.5 hrs at Canal St. I HATE THAT PLACE. My mom and my sister wanted to go and it was pooring and there are crazy people there....and I just was sick of it. No one listened to me when I was screaming how much I wanted to leave. When we finally it the heart of the city, we barely had time to eat lunch before we had to be at the show and then we went to the show and after we hit up spotlight live we went to jekyll and hyde club for dinner and then left the city. It was pointless. I was pissed. I thought it was my birthday gift.

I'm going back on Wednesday. I can't wait. I might only see one show as opposed to two. I'd much rather shop and stuff. I don't have money to shop but window shopping is fun!

Anyways that was my day yesterday. I really expected more but I guess you can't always get what you want.

Until more interesting days
~Me~

Wrap Your Arms Around Me

Lately things in my life have been in the air....
there's a lot that a lot of people don't know.

My dad's sickness last year that he is still recovering from and the cancer they found, that by some miracle they were able to get before it spread.

My cancer scare that is still a possibility.

My lowering of standards because I just want someone to hold me.

and My Grandfather.

My Grandfather is one of my heroes. He's amazing. He's worked so hard all his life and I love him for everything he does for me. He's been sick a lot but not enough to keep him down. He's always full of energy. A few years ago, while I was a freshman in college, he was diagnosed with colon cancer. They found it, stopped it and he did his chemo and was off it for a few years. It looked well and seemed to be fine. Usual energy and everything.
Tonight I found out they found cancer in his liver. It's small and he needs surgery. He's getting it done in a few weeks. That is, if he stops smoking.

I have complete faith that God will do what He wants with this situation. I just don't want to lose my Grandfather. I really really want him to be at my wedding, and I don't even have a boyfriend yet. I've always wanted him to be at my wedding. He's such an important person in my life and I don't want to lose him. I wasn't around last summer, which might have been my last summer with him. I have plans that take me out of state next semester and I won't be able to come home for Thanksgiving or Christmas. I don't want these to be the last holidays I spend with him because I won't be there. I love him so much and just thinking about losing him hurts.

I know I probably sound selfish. Tons of people have lost loved ones and I have too. I dunno. It's just hard on me right now.

I entitled this Wrap Your Arms Around Me because I have really good friends. However, I don't think any of them would be able to see through the facade I put up about this. Not too many of them will care about it either.

It's times like these that I wish I had a loving, caring, supportive, boyfriend. Someone who sees through all of my faces to my heart. Someone who will just wrap his arms around me and tell me its ok even when it's not. Someone who just cares enough about me to see when I'm hurting and to wipe away my tears. I'm in my early twenties and I know I have years ahead of me, but this whole being single thing, just isn't working with so many things happening in my life. THere are no prospects....at least not any more.

The Bridge Band has this song and it goes like this:

Father hold me in your infinite embrace
Can you see me now?
I'm falling on my face
(even now)
Father hold me in your infinite embrace
All I have is You
All I have is You
All I have is You
All I have is You

I just picture THese huge arms being wrapped around a small child comforting, protecting. I know that the Lord provides these things for us. We need to take comfort in Him, but there is a certain security in human arms. I want that. I want to feel that.

So my guy, whoever you are, wherever you are.... please, wrap your arms around me

until sunny days
~me~

Spring Plays Tricks On Us

So the weather has been undecidable lately. It snows really heavy on saturday and monday its almost 60. TOday its back down to snowy weather. Oh this place...I'm tellin ya!

Nothing too important is happening in my life. I'm trying this new thing out called forgetting people. Jess brought it to my attention. People that hurt us, make us upset, are just not worth having in our lives. So I'm trying to back away and forget the bad things that happened between me and certain people and if they come up again I will be able to work them out calmly. Fun right? I thought so. It's hard around this one person, a guy persay, but I'm going to do it! Besides, he's going on tour over break and i'm just going to NYC. Who needs him anyway.

I want to be happier. I know how to do it, I just don't because I keep myself in these ruts where I just pity myself. So I'm changing that too.

I miss Vail. I Miss the people and the mountains and the village of Vail.I hope I can get back to visit there sometime soon!

I filled out my application for DCP.....Disney hopefully here i come!!! I can't wait I'm so excited!

THat's it. I'll write more about New York after I get there, I'm sure I'll have a lot to say! haha

Until New York!
~me~

Why My College Upsets Me

Today is State Patty's Day.

I know what you're thinking. St. Patrick's Day isn't for another few weeks. My University and all of the brilliant people that go here got this crazy idea. Let's look back at History....

One year ago Tomorrow: A group of students, upset that St. Patrick's Day fell over spring Break, convince bar owners to open up for STATE Patty's day festivities. Basically, St. Patrick's Day festivities a few weeks early so students could celebrate. What I couldn't understand is why couldn't they just celebrate on St. Patrick's Day out of town? Why did we have to go and create a holiday.

Now This year: St. Patrick's Day falls the day we get from Spring Break. PLenty of time to celebrate...yet people feel the NEED to have STATE Patty's day again.

STATE Patty's day, bringing a lot of money to the bars and liquor stores in the area, is a poor excuse for students to dress in green and drink all day long. It just baffles me. Don't people have better things to do with their lives?

So this is why I am ashamed of my school...along with disrespecting fans of other football teams and all the other stuff that goes on here.

In Ireland they don't drink as much as people around here think they do. Infact, St. Patrick's Day is a religious holiday there. They go to church and maybe they have a few beers. However, it is nothing like the United States portrays it and I am a little ticked. BUt what can you do? People will be people and say, "hey I created a holiday!"

People are just Stupid.

On a lighter note:
It snowed last night about 4 inches. I was driving today and I looked out my passenger side window and there is a 7ft snow man. These two college guys, not celebrating State patty's day, are on chairs putting the head on this thing. It was definitely a smile bringer. I wish i could have taken a picture.

Until Warm days~