Wanna find you there wanna hold on tight

So after watching High School Musical 2, which was really good, I've decided that I want something like this. I want a guy who will stand out in the rain and kiss me. One who will realize when he is wrong and make up for it. One who will try and make every day special.

I pray that God will send him when we are both ready and I wish that would be soon, but something tells me it's going to be a while. Good guys these days are hard to come by.

I leave for school on Monday and I am excited but I'm really upset that I've only had a week with my family. I know this is what real life is going to look like and that I have to cherish every moment with them. So I will, I just wished my dad and my brother felt the same way. I know things will be ok, everyting turns out ok.

Until Longer days....

"I miss my friend"

To put is shortly and nicely some of my friends have strayed. I miss them. They have become different since I left for Colorado and now that I have returned I am worried. Of course there are those who have stood with me by and by. No matter how far away they go, they are always there for me. But I am slowly finding out that others just dont care. It makes me upset. I thought some of these people were my closest friends. I guess thats the way the cookie crumbles in life. People come and go. I am going to miss my friends.

Being home from Colorado is great. I went for a run today and it felt good. I might consider one again tomorrow. Tomorrow night i Have date night with Paul Michael. I miss him its been just about 5 months since I've last seen him. We are grabing some dinner and I can't wait to tell him about Colorado and to see his reaction when I order a salad. I miss my magical magician friend Paul and I am so excited to spend time with him.

I am hoping to go to Hershey Park before heading back up to school on Monday. This should be interesting, finding people to go is hard.

I got a new car and we named it Sharpay the Escape. My best friend Sarah thinks that its a boy car I still think its a girl car but how do you tell?

GOd has been great to me and Im so excited to see what plans He has in store. Next week is Raystown and I am excited excited for it.

I must be off. I am tired and tomorrow we are going to IKEA for some apt things and cooking supplies! I AM SO HAPPY TO BE HOME!!!!

Dad update: Hes great! He is slimming and his meds are working well. Hopefully he will be fully recovered by Christmas but we will keep praying.

Until colder days...

Put you're tiny hand in mine, look how I hold it, look how we shine.

Today I watched Boy Meets World for the first time in a long time! Its the first time I've really watched tv out here. It was the college years ep. and It was a test of trust between Cory and Tapanga. Cory took of his ring after he went to a club where girls hardly wear anything yet in the end he realized that he just needed to know that Tapanga would trust him always but he needed to realize as well that she had feelings.
I kept thinking, I want that. I want a love like that. A love that is never ending, unfailing. I want a relationship like Cory and Tapanga.

I went to ballet tonight. I realized that my future Husband better love the ballet well at least like it because I LOVE IT! Its so beautiful and passionate. If I could use my left foot more I'd take it back up but alas the sprain is still healing and the tendons will never be right. Anyway the point is its beautiful. I love art and the arts.

I dunno guys. I Just keep thinking....it would be nice to be persued.... so I'll wait until it happens. Until then...ah well.

Long time

Hey Kids
It's been a long time since my last post. I realize this and ask you not to worry about me. I am alive and safe. There has just been a lot going on around here lately and I've barely had time to check my email let alone do everything else. I still have to send out my support team email and update them.

Some things that have gone on:

Working on the project video
Went to Cru Staff Conference for the day on Sat
Went in a waterfall on sunday
Things have just been a little bit crazy during the week with work and meetings and such.
I am loving my time in Vail

I cannot wait until I get home. I might be going to Atlantis when I get home in the summer. Depends on if we get the passports in time and everything.

My dad is back at work Praise God! He seems to be doing so much better but prayers are always good.

Please keep praying for our project, our coworkers, the Vail Valley, Safe trips home, and life after Vail. Also pray for my little bro who is headed off to college soon. Not to mention me during my work day because well it is a bit stressful.

Thank you for keeping me in your prayers and Let me know if you have any special prayer requests.

Until longer days!

You're the perfect thing to say

Loving the song Everything by Michael Buble. Mainly because I cannot wait until I make some guy feel that way one day. I pray he's man enough to tell me that I mean the world to him. It also makes me want to wait even more for the one man that God has for me in my life. I love love love that song.

I went White Water Rafting today. It was AMAZING!!!!! The guys were out numbered by the girls but it was all good. We had a blast. I was the first one who got to jump out and swim. Others were pushed in before me though. The guys pushed me in twice because they knew I wanted to be in the water! haha. They were funny. WE hit some sweet rapids and got soaked. We wetn swimming and did flips off te raft. WE pulled over for some Lemonade with the other groups. I helped some wee ones grab some lemonade because they were just too cute. Then we kept going and going. It was sweet. For the last set of rapids 4 of us jumped out and swam them. I was one of the 4. It was AWESOME!!! I had never swam rapids before and I can't wait to do it again! I think most of all though we got to be examples of Christ. We had a blast.

It saddens my heart to think that I know people who are missing out on this amazing journey with Christ. Sometimes it's really hard to understand why in the world peope would just turn from the Lord after you have seen and heard of all His amazing works. My heart hurts just thinking about it. Being out here has opened my eyes to so many things. I can not wait until I get back to school and have my Bible Study girls. I have so much to tell them. I can't wait to bring Christ back to campus. Just by telling people of everything we have done, seen, and heard out here. God has been amazing these past weeks and I am sad to know i have to leave in 4 weeks. However, I know my work is not finished. There is so much that is to be accomplished. The Lord has been so faithful and well He's really just been HImself but I think for the first time I am really really seeing what it's like. I am awed, amazed, inspired, and complete. Honestly, people don't know what they are missing out on!

Then I Did

So its been a little over a week since staff left. I have been insanely busy infact, I had a stress attack on Thursday night. It was rough. Since the last time I wrote nothing really happened.

Today we went ziplining. It was pretty sweet. my group was the first group of the vsp to head out and we rocked it. I almost killed Tommy and then AShley almost finished off the job. It was funny haha. But everyone is ok!!! Last night I bought a Stetson Cowboy hat. It cost me some dollars. But I spent them nontheless. I even have my initals branded in them.

I made plans to go horseback riding today but those fell through. I'm hoping to go next Friday. I really don't like spending this money. I mean like horseback riding yeah but we are planning on going Rafting tomorrow and its like 40 for 2 rides. Im not sure its really worth the money. Im a little leary bout it.

The project video may cause me some stress. People just don't listen and so I have a feeling that Im not going to get anything done. I have already gotten the layout finished and Im working on pictures for the picture video. WE only have 4 weeks left...kinda scary.

THis week is going to be very trying for me. My family is on the big family vacation to the beach with my cousins and grandparents. I miss them a lot and i love this vacation but I can't be there. It hurts a bit but I know there is a reason for me being here. I Have been reading through Genesis and I have just discavered so much more things then I have before. It's pretty sweet. Anyways I should get going. I have a lot of work to do!

Until unstressful times

Sometimes you just want to wish harder

And just pray that reality never had to settle in.

Staff leaves tonight. Its hard on me because I feel like I was just getting to know them and some I hardly got to know at all. It's really hard. Especially because I have made some huge decisions as of late and I really really just want some awesome guidance. Not that I won't get it from these amazing people out here, just sometimes you need someone who's been there to throw it into perspective. It's rough. I know God wil do amazing things through and through. I compeletly trust HIm.

Other news...I made it to the top of 14,265Ft mountain yesterday July 4th. It was Mt. Quandry. It was the hardest thing I've ever done...seriously. Thanks to the amazing people who helped me reach it. Also, to the Lord who answered so many prayers and who I just wanted to Glorify by reaching the top. Gosh things are going to be so weird now. After the mountain we headed into Denver and saw Ratatoullie. I loved it as per usual. Well it wasn't amazing but it was a fairly good movie. Then we came back and I had trouble sleeping. It was rough. Lots of things are rough right now. But I'll get through them.

I Have committed myself to what I know I Need to do. I hope in the process I come across amazing lesson plans for BIble Study and also have some questions for ms. KQ when we get back to school. I am so excited to learn and grow with her again.

Lord, In everything I have accomplished this summer please, please know that I want to Glorify You and only You. My accomplishments are nothing without You! I am so thankful for the people You have placed in my life this summer and cannot wait to continue. I love You Lord.

He really is amazing!

Until later dayz

All this feels strange and untrue
and I won't waste a minute without You

"Do You Trust Me?"

"What?"
"Do You trust me?"

That set of quotes is from Disney's Aladdin. They are spoken right before Jasmine takes Aladdin's hand and they fly off on a magic carpet ride.

Think of that question.

"Do You Trust Me?"

How hard is it to place your trust in someone? For me, especially with guys, it is a hard subject. I have been hurt way too many times to place complete trust in guys. So why am I writing this small entry about trust?

This weekend I was stretched beyond my limits with the trust factor. God took it upon Himself to make sure that my weekend was full of challenging things to keep me occupied and to start my trust again. With the Great Adventure Race as stated previously in the entry before this....and even more so when we went caving yesterday. I had to completely trust more than one guy and a few girls as well. It was really well but I was seriously really scared.

When you are in a small cave with lots of people there's not too much to worry about. However, I was just plain freaking out and Ben was amazing in his help to me. Totally gave up running around the cave with all the other guys. He was a warrior and I am so thankful for him but it was really hard to keep trusting him on the way back. I remember one part where I just freaked out and I couldn't do it and it took my CG leader Jo to have me look at her and she said " Lauren You need to trust Ben, he's not going to steer you wrong." I was on the brink of tears and finally I gave way. I am so thankful for the Lord stretching me this weekend in this way. I have known ever since my hurt with Mr. Music that trust was always going to be an issue with me. I am glad to be able to trust guys again without expectations. It really is a great feeling. I have also learned to trust God more with the things He places in my life and the things He stretches me to do.

I am growing so much and while I didn't see it at first, I see it in full right now. I am amazed at the Everlasting God and His neverending Love for me. He has given me a beautiful opportunity here in Colorado and I know I would never want to spend my summer any other way.

I'm listening to Michael Buble right now and my new fave song of his is "Everything" I cannot wait until my husband can think of me that way. I am off to write to him of my adventures and struggles and triumphs in Christ so far this summer. I cannot wait until he reads these letters I have been writing him. Some will break his heart but others will just fill it with so much joy!

To end on a funny quote from David a project friend:
"You can't go wrong with Michael. If I had a man crush it would be on him." ~ In reference to Michael Buble.

I am not a hero, I am not angel, I am just a man

A man who's trying to love her
Unlike any other
In her eyes I am....

I cannot wait until my future husband can sing that song....and if it just so happens to be Josh Groban then that's even better! haha. No but I want to see that in my future husband. I know I will see him as a hero, an angel, and overall a man who is just trying to love me for all that I am in God's eyes as well as what he will see in me.

Today I just about died. But I also had the time of my life. We did a triathalon thingy. I didn't swim so I did 2 events. Well is was like 4. But still. I biked up this huge mountain and along the road forever. I almost didn't make it past the first biking event. However I had a great team and an awesome encourager who said, "I will make you finish! You know I'm not going to leave you until you do and even if I get annoying you will just have to deal with it." It was great. After that we hiked this mountain with loose rock and dirt, then we came to a waterfall and the ground was slippery. I just about died during that part but it was amazing. Waterfalls rock! Then we biked more and then we hiked Vail mountain which was hard and I didn't make it to the top of that mountain ( I was 30 min from it) and my group came down. It was ok thought I got so close. I had two encouragers that time and we had a lot of fun just talking and walking. I was able to finish the race with my team together and it was amazing. My hands are sunburned though haha.

Some things that God has taught me today through this: He will never leave me. He taught me to Trust people again especially guys. That prayer works ( I always knew that). THat He has all the strength I need. And so much more. I was very happy with my group and their support.

Dad Update: I talked to him today!! YAY!!! I miss him so much! He's doing well! THey had a docs appt. Yesterday in MD and everything they took out was the right stuff. Also, He doesn't have to go on Chemo because the part of cancer they found in the part they took out had not spred. He wil however, be getting check ups just incase. How faithful God is to our prayers! I am very excited to see my dad when I get home. He is not well enough to travel out here so the family will not be visiting. How sad :( I miss them all very much! I think the little bro is avoiding me cause he doesn't return my phone calls. But all is good....he'll have to call me after he gets his awesome Vail polo! Its gonna look so good on him!

I think that is all for today. Oh and I didn't get to hike that wonderful Moutain of Holy Cross....yet. CIAO!

Until hurtfree days

I've never been more homesick than now

For real guys....
Don't get me wrong cause I love it here and its beauitful and breathtaking
However I would love to see my family and to see my cherished friends.
I would love to touch the ocean and surf a few choice waves.....you know the ones that you sit out for hours waiting for. THe perfect ones that aren't really perfect.
I would love to hit an amusement park just to ride rollecoasters and see shows.
I'd like to help on the farm, play with my puppy, hang out with the DK crew, and just chill.

I know God has great plans for me here in Colorado. However, I still miss home more than I will ever be able to express in any form of words or picture or art form. There's just too much to love there.

Freedom in Forgivness

Mt. Holy Cross

So my week of fasting is over!!

Not having a computer for a whole week was challenging but really good for me. It showed me that I spend way too much time online and so I am cutting back. I am very greatful for that lesson.

Dad Update: He's good. What they took out was the right thing and its going to be a long healing process. That is ok. We are going to get through this with God's love and grace.

Vail Update: Things here are awesome. Right now I'm not feeling too hot but I had a great weekend! It was women's/men's weekend and we did different things. The boys climbed mountains or something. Us girls camped out with a bear! We ate Hobos and had smores and all that good stuff. Worshiped and such. THen we went for a hike which was soooo much fun and very beautiful. After that We ame back, showered and went out to dinner in groups with different girls. We had questions to ask and we talked alot. My group was cool and awesome! Then we came back and Beth talked and then we had girls and did girl things. THen today we went to church and then had a girls brunch at which Liz talked and every girl got a flower! It was cool.

Anyways Jo asked me to go to walmart so I'll finish later.

Things are awesome and getting better everyday!!! It's awesome. I really miss home and all but Things here aren't bad. I think we are going to Hike Holy Cross soon. I really would like to see it! It's pretty much amazing. Other than that, its horseback riding, work, and hanging with the gang.
Staff leaves in 10 days and that's sad...

Until early nights

Who Do You Think You Are Leaving Me Alone with my Guitar

Yay for listening to RENT!!! Love it!

This weekend has been fun so far. We got kicked out for 25 hours and we had to find a place to stay and stuff. I CAMPED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE!!!! It was so much fun! We made a Fire and Everythign!!! Horrary for Godly Men to build wonderful campfires. WE even roasted Mallows. In the morning the guys made us a FIRE!!!! Cause it was pretty cold. They are so sweet we didn't even ask them lol which means they prob did it for themselves. Then we went out until we could come back at 7pm. We were trying to ask people to come to church with us or just start conversations. It was cool. WE had a few conversations and got to see some cool hang outs.

Tomorrow is church and then just chill. THe guys start Fasting tomorrow and tomorrow the girls start fasting but they don't have to do food. Most of them are but I'm not sure I will. I think I will not go online and fast from junk food. That will kill me I'm sure.

Anyways My dad is doing good. Thank you for those prayers. Please pray for the project fasting this week and for mens and women's weekend next weekend. Thanks! Feel free to leave prayer requests.

I miss home and everything but its all good. God is doing amazing things out here.

Until I get less sunburn!

Take these chains away

I'm having one of those days where things just go wrong and you want to look on the good side but you can't.
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I really wanted to do Emcee for weekly meetings here but one of my suite mates got it instead and I'm super happy for her, but I really wanted to try it out because I might do it in the spring and school. Instead I was asked to do powerpoints, which is cool and all cause I said I would...but I dunno. Much rather emcee.

There's this kid here who reminds me of someone I put in my past. Its scary and I don't like it. However, its true. I have to work with him on the powerpoints cause hes worship band leader. Its hard.

I want to be home with my family.

I want to be home with my friends.

I want Starbucks to be open later than 8pm.

I hate work. It stinks. I wake up at 4 50 to leave at 5 30 to get to work and set up and wait until 7 in which time we open the doors and I stay there until 3. I am so tired that I don't even want to do anything later.

Listen to me. Me, me , me. it's all about me. I need to change. Today is a hard day and I really want it to just be over. As strong as I know my faith is, it's just not strong enough. It needs to be stronger. Please pray for me. I could really use the prayers. I am weak and the Lord is my strength. I just need to give my burdens to him. Unfortunetly they are burdens I don't want to let go. I need to change. I want to change. I will change.

Please Pray.
In Christ.~Me~

I lift my eyes into the hills where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

Hey guys!
VAIL UDATE!!!

Thank you for prayers and support. WE love them and need them. A few of the guys got hurt on project and we would love to see them heal in a few weeks so that they can join us on hikes and such.

Tonight I made Baked Ziti and everyone raved about it. So def a good dish to make for a pot luck dinner.

Sunday we went to church and then I took a two hour nap. I was so worn out from our Saturday fun!! Around 2pm my CG girls group met and went HIKING!!! I LOVE HIKING!! It was so much fun and I love those girls so much! We went hiking up the North Trail and man it was hard and though we didn't get to the top I was a trooper...Asthma and thin air don't mix well. I wanted to go to the top but the others were getting hungry and tired and such. I got to lead the way down though! After that we all just chilled. I like chillin too.

Tonight we met with our CGs had a potluck and did our first study. It was really good. Afterwards we played MAFIA!!!! Great game. Then some ppl left to play ultimate and a few of us stayed. We played Celebrity which is an awesome game so learn how to play!!!

Im gettin ready for bed. Work this week is going to be crazy. Hopefully I'll make some money to get me through to my first pay check!!! Living on a budget is hard...oh yeah and I have to send my Rent in soon for August.

Until Warmer weather!!!

Strength is found within

YAY from VAIL!!!

Dad Update: He's HOME!!!! This is very exciting. Things are looking good and we are just waiting for test results and full healing. Please continue to pray for my family and my dad. You can especially pray for healing and that his blood sugars don't go back up. THANKS FOR THE LOVE AND THE PRAYERS!!!

Vail Update: Things here are going great. As you can tell it has been snowing a bit. Just the mountain tops have been getting the bluk of it...we get like a dusting. It should be warming up shortly I hope. Actually today was a really nice day. Work is going good but it is very tiring. Friday we celebrated some of the boys' birthdays which were this weekend. THen we hung out in our room and played some games. Today we got up early. Half of us went to our Life Skills event and half went to help with the Family Fun Fair and to help one of the pastors move. It was a lot of fun. I was in the second half of the day for Life Skills. It was a blast! We did this scavenger hunt type thing in the mountains. When we started we got "sins" 2 ppl were mute, 2 ppl were taped together at the legs (one of which was me), two ppl had to carry a tree type thing (one had one hand duct taped to it), and one carried this huge thing of water. It was tough. We had to find clues which were scripture verses that lead us to the Word Of God which was a top a mountain! Then we looked across and found the clue for The Holy Spirit. It was amazing. THen we had to share with some "lost people" which were staff memebers. It was an awesome time! I am so worn out right now!

Tomorrow is church and then I meet with a few ppl to talk about stuff. Dunno what yet. Should be fun!
Things to pray for: That everyone in our project is heathy and strong. We have had a few accidents so pray for their health
THat we may touch the Vail Valley and spread God's Love
For our leaders, the students, and the Valley in general.

Thanks so much for the support kids!
If you have any prayer requests, send them my way!!

Until Warmer weather!
~Me~

Ive been up to my next working 5 days a week wearin holes in the soles of the shoes on my feet

Yeah....that sums up my week.
Lots of work...but I'm in VAIL!!!! It's great so far.

this is a quick update bc I have been up since 4 50 this morning.

Dad: Is doing really really well!! He will more than likely be going home this weekend. Please keep praying for him and my family. I know we are going to get through this just like we have gotten through everything else. They won't find out if the surgery worked until next week. So pray for that as well.

Me: VAIL IS GREAT! the people are awesome, I have a great job, and its beautiful. God is going to do amazing things! PLease pray for me and m friend steph. We work 8.5 hr days 5 days a week. We get up at 5 ish are at work by 6 30 and dont get out til 3. We usually dont even get back here until 4. It's crazy. I am usually very very worn out by that time. Please pray for us.

Im going to head to bed but I promise there to be more later!

Until Sunny Days!

With a little bit of Faith and Trust and maybe even Pixie Dust

UPDATE:

My dad's surgery went quite well. He is in ICU right now and is talking. That's a very good. My mom is spending a lot of time with him at the hospital. She is so great. She has so much love for my dad. I love them very much. I'll give more updates as I get them but that's really honestly all I know right now.

My first day at work went really well. It was really slow but since its a lodge in a very classy area people tip well and the pay is great. Not to mention the food! OMGOSH! The food is AMAZING! If you are ever in Vail Valley talk to me and I'll let you know where it is. I got to walk to Vail Village today and it was fun! I got to Starbucks just in time before it closed. I felt bad and of course gave them a tip. Then we all hung out and walked back. It helped get my mind of things and just relax. I'm really enjoying my time here. I love everyone who I have met and everyone is so loving here. It's awesome.

I hope all is well. Thanks for the prayers and keep praying!!! If you guys have any prayer requests please let me know!!!

Until Confused Vail Weather....

Did you Feel the mountains tremble?

HELLO FROM VAIL!!!!
I am super excited to get to report from summer project!!! Flying and arriving into Vail Valley was amazing!! The mountains are amazing and they were even Snow Covered!!! Meeting everyone was also exciting! This summer is going to be beyond belief. God is going to do amazing things this summer through us! I am so pumped!

My roommates are great! The girls in my bible study are great!! My community group is great and the whole gang is awesome!!! I love them all and its only the third day!!!

I went for my job today. I will be hostessing and making a nice sum of money to get me by this summer. I get discounts at all stuff in the Beaver Creek Village thingy so I am going to go horseback riding on a mountain trail and rock climb. I am very excited. The peolpe we are working with are nice as well!

We did a lot of interesting things the past few days. Just getting to know the Valley and the people around here. We also visited the Teva Games to share with people a bit. It was a very fun and interesting day. It was also nice to see so many people in the valley.

Also, Vail churchis great! The people there are so nice. I am very excited to work with them this summer.

I am all over the place and very excited to see what God has to do in my life and the life of those around me this summer. If you guys could pray for family and my dad, he gets surgery tomorow, and just keep all of us out here in your prayers that would be awesome!!!

I promise to write more fully and thoughtfully later when I am not so jumpy and excited!

much love,
Me.

Being Happy in today's world counts for nothing

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
he's the reason for the tear drops on my guitar

"I haven't been thinking about us. I needed not to give it not or else I would have given it too much thought."~Lorelai Gilmore

Today I had a fun day at the beach with my parents,aunt, unc, and cousin. It was nice to go and relax for the day especially with everything that is going on in our lives right now. However, what I got was a little more than I needed. The shore house is full of memories from a pretty amazing time i had last summer. And even though I have every reason to hate those memories because they were all pretty much fake, as much as i have the right to hate the person they were with, and I should just forget everything. But how can I forget a time when I was so happy? When waking up wasn't so hard because aside from God, I knew or thought I knew that I meant something to someone. Well down the beach I was happy as happy can be and we had a wonderful time! Star gazing, midnight walking on the beach, the game of Life, watchin the morning appear on the deck with some tea, and just hanging out. I'll admit it, I cried and almost threw up on the way home today. I mean Im not hungry or anything right now. I feel like I felt when I broke up with the kid. And maybe if I didn't break up with him we would still be together and growing in our faith and just being amazing. But then again maybe we would be miserable. I don't know why things happen, but God plans it that way. And the kid doesn't care about me any more so it doesn't really matter what I think about that (he said so himself to me). It just sucks with everything that is goin on.

My dad is sick, he gets operated on when im in vail and who knows the toll its going to take on my family. I won't be here so it will be hard on me.
Me going to Vail is hard in itself. Im going way out of my comfort zone but this is all Gods master plan for me. I'm just following the leader so to speak.

Things will get better, butfor now....my heart goes out to this kid who is super lost and even though he always said he didn't want to grow up like his dad, I see similarities between him and the things he told me about his dad. Like father, like son I guess.

until Vail!

Starry Starry Night

Paint your colors blue and grey

So being at home has been awesome. I made my first months rent on the apt at school in less than 5 days at work. I did work 5 straight days and it is tiring but its ok. I got to see a lot of great people and make some extra cash for the summer and all.

I havent really done too much besides work and yoga. It really takes a lot out of me and I have been tired. However ive pretty much done all my shopping for CO.

Im excited because this is a week where I get to see a whole bunch of my friends.

I promise to write more when I am inspired.... It will be longer... so until then...

Would I be Out of Line

If I said, I miss You?

So today I drove home from college to end my soph school year. It was quite the journey. I cried a bit. I am happy to be home, but I am so sad to leave. Because I am going across the country I will not be able to spend time with people I have grown close to over this past school year.

Yesterday was perhaps the hardest day of my life. I had to say a final goodbye to my big and the first person I ever met in Thespians. It was really upsetting. I also had to say goodbye to everyone for the summer knowing that they all still had a week with each other. I wish I could be with them right now but with my dad being sick and everything its just nice to be back home, even if I do have to sleep on the couch. I love being home and its good for me. I do miss everyone, but its good to be home.

Ohana means family. No body left behind or forgotten. I now know what that means. My thespian family is amazing. I could not ask for a better group of people to spend my college days with. Not just my thespian family, but the thespians in general make an amazing family. I know I would not be in school if it wasn't for them. We have our hard times but for the most part they are great. I just want the world to know that.

I must get back to my paper now....oh life.

Later Dayz.

These will be the times we miss

Johnny says: Why can't it stay like this?

And I sure do love these crazy summer nights. When we all get together. Days that I'll remember all my life. Yeah they seem to last forever.

Wow. I can't believe I have 2 days of classes left as a sophomore. It's real scary. I am writing this entry to procrastinate my 5 page paper thats due next tuesday. I will get it done. It's just a matter of sitting and typing it all out. I have compiled most of the information I need. However, I need a good grade on it so I'll probably be freaking out like tomorrow or something.

This week has been great! I've had very little work to do so my nights have been amazing. Monday we played all afternoon in the sunshine!!!! Ultimate Frisbee and twister with Thespians is awesome. I really do love those kids so much, they might not know it, but they mean the world to me. I have battle scars from the Ultimate game but it's ok. I went out to the look Out with some amazing kids sunday night after inductions. Good times! We are trying to get a group to go tonight or tomorrow I'm hoping tonight because it will be amazing if the clouds go away but I might just push it back to tomorrow.

The weather has been great here. Hot sunny days. Yesterday it was a hot thunderstorm. It felt so great! Not to mention that it was Amazingly Beautiful. I hope there are some in Vail that we will get to see.

Which reminds me, I have to look for a job in Vail. The ranch hasn't gotten back to me yet so I guess I'll try to work at like Home Depot or something of the sort. Oh and be sure to look out for Vail Updates because I will be doing it as often as I can.

Until Summer!

Hold that Focus Steady!

2 weeks and counting!!!
I can not wait for school to be over. I'm tired of the drama and the school work and everything.

I can't wait for Vail!!!! It's really starting to get exciting. I am seriously going to be out of my element down there.

THis weekend was a ton of fun. Blue and White weekend. I got to see people I haven't seen in a while like Dup and KQ!!!!!!!and T Dogg.

Well this a little short but I have some work I need to get done.

Until Cooler days

Kiss Today Goodbye

Point me toward tomorrow.

So a lot has happened since I last wrote. I went home for Easter and had the time of my life. Whenever I go home and have to go back to school as soon as I pull out of my driveway, I get all teary eyed and sad. I love home so much. I got to see my best friend, my cousin, KJ, and my whole entire family (extended too). It was great~! It made it so hard to leave. My brother decided on a college and it's not where I am. That makes it hard too. Everyone is growing up.

This past Wednesday I went to see Adam Pascal preform and he was amazing! Afterwards I had the chance to meet him and take a picture with him. Totally did that. I LOVED IT!!! He also autographed my ticket. AHHHHH. He's great! His music is great! Love hiM!

Tonight I am going to PBR. For those of you who don't know what that means it is Professional Bull Riding. So I'm going to watch Cowboys get knocked off or see the win. Usually they come out and autograph afterwards. No Idea if that will happen this time, but hey it's worth a shot! I'm really excited cause the Rodeo is a lot of fun. I have been there once before. So I am going to that with a bunch of my friends.

THis weekend is really chill. I have nothing tomorrow so I think i might go see the opera. Sunday I am crewing MasquerAIDS to benefit that AIDS project here.It's going to be great! and Next weekend is Blue and White weekend!!! CANT WAIT!

So I was thinking today, and this is my final thought for the entry, I was thinking how when something bad happens to someone, how everyone starts to pray for them. By everyone I mean everyone and anyone, not just Christians. I was thinking how that's great and all because the power of prayer is amazing, but how many people actually believe in who they are praying to or what they are praying about? How many people only pray in times of need or want? How awesome would it be if those people who only prayed in times of need or want decided to pray everyday for one person in their lives? It's kinda crazy when you think about it.

Anyways, I love you all.
Until Spring Days...

It's a brother and a sister kinda thing

So this weekend was AMAZING! To the cast and crew of Crazy For You...CONGRATS on a SPECTACULAR show!!!! Being backstage was hard for me but a lot of fun. I mean come on I can't argue...I did have a pretty sweet job ;)

I heard only wonderful things.

I spent time with amazing people and met even more amazing people!

Sometimes life is just good like that. Now that things have semi calmed down, I just want to breathe and relax. The weather has been nice but its supposed to snow again this week. That makes me upset. I mean come on people....i want nice weather all the time.

I'm really excited about Co and my possible job ops there. I'm excited that KD is comin with me, but im upset that I won't get to work on SummerStage or be at ArtsFest. However thats life.

Well time to go work on group project stuff.

Until percious moments!

The way your smile just beams...

I am amazed! However it is not the first time.
The show was amazing, cast, crew, music, all!

I have a pretty sweet job too... I get to dress a very nice guy. He says Thank You after everything. Infact this is the first cast that I have worked with that is very undiva and I hope it stays that way. Everything is very appreciative of the work we've done for them, at least thats what it seems. It really is a great thing when people recognize the work you do for them. Espcially if all you want to do is be on stage with them, but you can't.

Show biz is weird like that. If you aren't pretty you usually don't get cast. It really doesn't matter if you can sing or dance. It really doesn't matter if theater is your life, even if you don't major in it. Like me. But at least im a part of it. That's nice too.

To the lovely cast and crew of Crazy For You,
You guys are amazing! I'm really happy I got to work with all of you!!! Much Love for your backstage costumer!

well i Need to apply to the ranch and that summer camp. I might get to teach kids some theater over the summer. IN Vail, CO.

I found out that my computer is going to cost $774.95 plus tax. I called my mom, she called apple, and the cut the price in half. I love that lady!!!!

well im off to bed before I pass out!!!

Until Starry Nights at the Look Out!!!!

Who Could Ask for Anything More?

AHHHHHH I LOVE IT!!!!!!

The show is going great!!! My worries are ok. Tonight all the costumes should be done and it is my first night backstage. It's going to be a lot of fun!!! Tomorrow night I get to sit out and watch the show. It was a request of mine because I have never seen the show in full, just bits and pieces and without costume at rehersal, and I wanted to see it at least once. Last night I was working on costumes in the audience while the show was rehersing cause the orchestra doesnt have enough lights yet so i could see what i was doing. The cast sounds AMAZING! The orchestra is getting there and will hopefully be ready by tonight. Everything else is wonderful!!!! The girls wore their follies costumes last night and I LOVE IT!!!!!

On a lighter note....I am without computer because mine is broken.... it kinda stinks but its all good because life is good and we have a show....it opens THURSDAY!!!!!!!!

well im off to take my 2 tests today

Until 3 story set peices.....

It's like the Hippos in Fantasia

That was how the set for Crazy For You was described by my good friend Fuz today who is playing Zangler.
It's HUGE!!!!!! But it moves gracefully across stage for a HUGE set.
I spent a long time in Schwab today helping build the set, make show girl outfits, and just goofin around. Then we got some good eats at Olive Garden. YUM!

Tomorrow is the day of trial....most of everything needs to be finished and some of the stuff is just not possible right now because we need members of the cast for fittings and such. Hopefully more cast members will show up tomorrow b4 call and if not we will have all cast members for call tomorrow night. I'm really excited for this show. The cast sounds AMAZING and the set looks Fab. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH all u ppl better come see it!!!!

Thats all for now...the show and 4 tests have taken over my life!

Until set pieces that don't fall over....

I'll walk with Grace my Feet and Faith my Eyes

So I really hate breaks. Simply because every time I have to leave home I get upset. That's the one bad thing about college...You have to leave home a lot. For some people that's a good thing, but I love my family and I hate being away from them. We all have so much fun together. It's going to be really hard being in Co this summer.

Thursday night was awesome! TDogg came down and we went to Dave and Busters then went to go see the Flyers Kick Butt!!! Yes the won!! Then we drove back, making sure to stop at Wendy's for a frosty....yummmmmm. Then we had a small dance party at my house with my bro and that was really funny.

Friday we got some crazy Sleet storm but I spent the day with my mom and I did a lot of my homework. My cousin surprised me by coming over and spending the night.

Sat was St. Patrick's Day...What Can I say? I'm full blooded Irish...seriously 100%. We really just kinda chilled until about 6 when we went to go see my Uncle play at this bar. My cousin got carded lol....its ok we were all under 21 and didn't drink. The phrase "I'm with the band" was used a lot. Then we went to see my Grandmom who had some ham and cabbage. I couldn't at any but I hear it was goooood! Then I packed up and headed back to state college.

I was listening to Faith My Eyes as I pulled out of the driveway and I was crying. I really hate leaving home. Oh well, I think I'm going to go home for Easter. My fam would love that.

Well I have some work to take care of. Crazy For You is about to take over my life....starting Tuesday....

Until Spring Flowers...

I've found home, you're my home, stay with me

AHHHHHHHHHHH so today I went to NYC with my cousin and one of our friends. It was fun. First I was in tears cause Beauty and the Beast was sold out and I thought I would never see it on broadway....yeah right. Then we walked around and shopped a bit but I didn't buy anything... I like to save my money. Then we ate at the Stardust.... fAB!!! I was like well lets go see if they do cancellation tix and they DO! so we went to see Beauty and the Beast our seats were 8th row....and to put the cherry on top...JOHN TARTAGLIA was playing Lumiere!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH It was WONDERFUL!!!! N I love John! Its a given cause he's Great!

NYC holds some amazing memories for me. Some that make my life a little bit harder, but it's alright. However, my favorite time in NYC was def the Piazza trip. It was just so much fun and really truly lovely.

It was a great day today with amazing weather. Tomorrow is Flyers Game!!!! Yay!!!!

until sunnier days!

As Long As We're Outta Here

Well home feels like the beach compared to school. It's beautiful here and it's supposed to go to 65 tomorrow. I've been working every day since I came home. Tomorrow is my last day it will be 3 in a row. I'm opening too so I have to get up sooooooooooo early.

Music agreed to meet with me after break and to talk and bring closure. I think it will be good and I pray that God will give me the right words to say and that He opens Music's heart to hear what I have to say. I pray that God brings peace through all of this.

My brother is listening to Enrique Inglesias..... Woah haven't heard that in a long time.

Anyways...I really wish I didn't have to work because I have a stalker. He really is freaking me out. He's like 6 years older than me and he comes into work not just once but 2 times a day when I'm there and sits for like 3hrs with just a coffee. It's scary and I really don't like it. I've told him I'm not interested 4 times. This makes me not want to go to work. Ugh God is the only one who gets me through my days at work.

I'm excited because on Wednesday I'm going to see Beauty and the Beast in NYC with my cousin and one of our friends. It is going to be a lot of fun.
I got PETER PAN!!!!!!! WOO!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE that movie!!!!
Thursday I get to see T-Dogg and we are gonna go to the Flyer's game. It is a very exciting Spring Break!! I also have to send out my support materials.

Well I'm gonna go get ready to go to bed. I have to be up super early tomorrow.

Until Flowers Come....

It was the Darnedest thing....I woke up in a snow globe!

Seriously. It happened today. 4 inches of snow on the ground this morning when I got up and it was still snowing when I went to class. I thought we had seen the last of Mr. Snow but I guess not. One more big thrill. Too bad college doesn't really give you off or a delay. That stinks, cause when it snows like this and becomes -15 degrees out and I walk to class and get frostbite even though I have about 10 layers on.....boy do I miss grade school days.

What I wanted to write down was a little bit that I am adding to my talk about my Baptism if Double A lets me give one at Cru.
As I was walking to class today, I stopped and just looked around. I didn't have my headphones on, so I just listened. It was extremely peaceful. You could almost hear the snow ping as it hit the already snow filled lawn. It was beauty at it's finest. Even more so, it made everything look white and pure. It made everything glow. And how bout that? God does what snow does. He wipes us clean of all our sins and makes us white and pure again. He makes us glow. By accepting Christ, his death and resurrection, we are born again into a new life that is pure and we have the opportunity to glow with the light of Christ. How amazing is that? All this from taking a minute to stop and watch the snow fall and listen to it in the stillness of the morning. Amazingly wonderful.
Just as a side note, it actually snowed during my baptism.

Today was a stressful day, at one point in time my brain turned to jelly. It just stopped working because it was seriously fed up with the stress I was putting on it. I mean that's what it felt like anyway. However, spending a small moment in silence with the Lord made me calm and brought me back to my senses. How wonderful! I had to make lots of big decisions today. I wish they could wait until later. I decided to not crew the School of Theatre show because it will just cause unneeded craziness in my life. I had a quiz that I wasn't fully prepared for. Things for Crazy For You need to get done that aren't getting done. It's just frustrating. But God is the Master of plans and works everything out. PTL!

I must be off to bed now.
Until Spring!

I just want you to know

So today I got baptized. YAY!!! It was great! So many people where there and in spirit too! Thank You to all who made it special.

I also saw Hairspray tonight!!!!! AHHHHHHH it was so good! Link was mmmm. Haha in all it was fantastic!

What this post is really about is how I am feeling right now. Because sometimes I feel like that is what blogs are used for. To let feelings out.. So here goes:
I heard some really discouraging news this weekend concerning someone I care about. I thought this someone was walking with the Lord but I guess not. I thought that the girls in his life were encouraging him to be a man of God, but I guess not. I thought he had good strong Christian men in his life encouraging him to become a man of God, but I guess not. I started to think about things. When we met and while we were friends we really encouraged each other to grow in our faith. When we dated we still encouraged each other and while at times things got out of hand and we strayed, I always came back to my faith. When the opportunity to stray some more came up, he took it and I quit. We went our separate ways and I continued to pray for him every night and his growth in the Lord. If that makes me a bad person I am sorry. However, what seems to be the case to me is that every girl in his life has let him down. What he will never realize is that the one girl who had the courage to tell him that he was no where near the man of God he was striving to be, is the one who has never given up on him and who refuses to give up on him. What he will never realize is that while all the other girls he goes with don't care about who he is or what he does just as long as he is cute and charming, there is one girl who does care about who he is, what he becomes and while there may not be anything in the future for him and this girl, she still cares about him as a brother in Christ and as a best friend. What he will never realize is that he deserves none of this but her heart can not let him become a lost lamb. His smile and his happiness means the world to her and knowing that he could possibly make one mistake that will make him unhappy for the rest of his life, disheartens her.

And while I am discouraged through all of this, I still will not underestimate God. He has given me no reason to doubt Him. I place all my trust in Him and what He has to do. If God's will is for this friend to live the life he is heading for, then that will be accepted. But knowing that God has bigger plans for her friend than he has ever imagined puts a smile on her face, even if he doesn't realize that God is the one in control.

and so sometimes I cry. and sometimes I smile. But the Lord fills me with peace knowing that in some way, He will make things right in the end. In that time, things will be as they have to be.

Until warmer days....

To say im disappointed is an understatement

I just found out really discouraging news. Well not just found out, but last night I found it out. And it makes me really upset. It's like when you think you are getting a surprise birthday party and then it never happens. Well I thought music was walking with the Lord but he wasn't. Now he is thinking about becoming mormon and when I found out my heart literally broke. Well maybe it didn't break but all I know was that it hurt. I really thought the girls in his life that he was running around with would be encouraging him in his walk, but I was wrong. That's what I get for assuming people are good Christians. I thought that the Christian men in his life were encouraging him but they weren't. It hurts.
What hurts the most....all I can do is pray. We don't even talk so the only thing I can do is pray and while I fully believe that God hears each and every word I pray, I sometimes feel like that isn't enough. I wish I could talk to him and encourage him to grow in his faith, after all even during our relationship that's all I wanted for him. Guess that makes me a bad person. Sometimes I just don't know and right now, all I can do is pray and wait for a Christian man who knows him to step up and say something.

until encouraging days.....

What is this thing you call "State's Patty's Day"?

So today is a big excuse for people to get wasted and wear green and pretend to be Irish. All of this because St. Patrick's Day is over Spring Break. Ugh what is this world coming to?

Personally I would love to celebrate St. Patrick's Day at home. I get to see my Uncle play at an Irish Pub and spend it with my Irish Family. I don't drink, infact I usually end u watching the kids. My favorite activity is making Irish Potatoes.

I hate that people use this holiday to drink. I guess that's what its always been for, but its just really annoying. "I'm going to wake up at 4 am and drink the whole entire day." And when you go into a coma, don't call me. Or call me and watch me shake my head at you. What is this world coming to?

These past two days have been interesting. We watched a movie on advertising and the affects it has on women and people and how people are viewed. It seriously made me angry. What makes me even more upset is that people today who are Ad/PR majors are probably not going to make it any different. They are more than likely going to keep adding to it because as Switchfoot says: Sex is currency she sells cars, she sells magazines. grrr.
The talk at Cru last night was AMAZING!! Joel is really interesting actually everyone at Cru is really interesting. Today I listened to Dr. N's talk on 1 Corinthians 13 and I was just in awe. It was really insightful. That's one of the things I love about Cru. The people are GREAT!

Today I woke up at the crack of Dawn to eat with some cool Cru kids. I totally came back and went back to bed though. THen I went about my day as usual and ended napping and not doing work which means I need to get on that tomorrow after my meeting for Baptism. I'm going to Women's Time tonight but I'm not going to the St. Patty's Day party because I don't do big things in small areas. If I go, it will be just to say hi and maybe get some snacks. I think tonight is just going to be a relaxed night. I love those.

Well Im off to read for a bit until Women's Time

P.S. It was 50 degrees today!!!! AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL!!!

Until sweeter days!

I Surf Skittles

Why yes, yes I do. I do surf skittles.
Now that I think about it it...that's not a bad idea.
Today was quite a day!

I got up, went to class, spent time relaxing in the HUB, went to theatre. I met a buddy at Starbucks and we chatted for a long time. I love starbucks and I love that they know me and my order. It's really sweet. Also.... I spent time with my little today. We played Basketball and just had a blast. Iowa played with us and it was sweet to hang out with her. To think she lives upstairs and we hardly ever see each other.

Anyways little blessing such as days spent with great people, like today are just amazing. I have done little work these days. I really should do more work but I think its time for Spring Break. I just can not stand doing work. Tomorrow I will have lots of time to do lots of work.

To say I have not been doing work is an understatement. I have been doing my stuff for my Support for Vail. It's time consuming but I don't mind. I'm really super excited even though its a summer away from home.

As my baptism draws closer, I am becoming extremely excited. I can't wait!!!!!

Life is Good, God is GOOD!!!!
PTL!!!!!!!!!!

Until less snowy days.

Let's Walk

So in light of my amazing two weekends past. I have realized that I have had my times of trouble. Earlier posts that are not so happy. I would delete them, but it takes a long time and well being the busy busy college student that I am, I just don't have that time.

Today was a good day. I had two exams. It was a bit nerve racking. I got through them and did ok, but not as well as I would have liked. This means that I really have to step up and get things done.

So I have gone through everything I need to for Sunday. I meet with the Pastor on Saturday and then Sunday is the big day!!!! I'm excited. My parents seem cool with it and my grandmom was ok with it. I know things have been difficult since I decided that I will be going to Vail this summer but I do have to grow up sometime and I do love her very much. It's going to be just as hard on me to miss the big family vacation. However I need to pick my scripture verse for Sunday. So many have impacted my life I just don't want to pick one. I have to make sure its a good one. haha.

I hope things pick up again soon. I am going to try and do some more volunteer work besides being a Big Sister. I also have TAPS next week for Crazy For You and then finally, Spring Break. Ah good old Spring Break!!! I am also working like crazy on my: He Who Stole My Heart powerpoint/presentation. I hope I get to talk with some high school girls over break that would be really sweet.

well I better go and catch up on some work....or maybe get ahead of my work.
Until Warmer Days!

My chains are gone, I've been set free

My God, My Savior has ransomed me
and like a flood
His mercy rains
Unending Love
Amazing Grace
~Chris Tomlin~

I'm in awe of what God has the power to do in my life. I'm going to be baptized again next Sunday!!!!!! I can hardly contain my excitement!!!!!!!!! I will be able to reaffirm my faith with my friends gathered around me!!! My parents won't be able to make the trip but that's quite alright I guess. I mean I don't know another time I would be able to do it. Of course the bestest won't be able to make it but that's ok. He'll be there in spirit I'm sure. AHHHHHHH I"M PUMPED! GOD IS GOOD PEOPLE GOD IS GOOD!

If You haven't heard the new Switchfoot Album you should. It's great and I love it!!!! YAY SWITCHFOOT!
If You haven't seen the new Bond movie You should. It's good too!!!

I finished my support letter for Vail and hopefully will send it out soon. I have selected the 5 people I am going to pray for during lent. I have also started on the power point for the HE WHO CAPTURED MY HEART presentation. I am hoping to give it during Spring Break but who knows. I might not be able to give it until after I get back from Vail. Either way God will make it happen and I hope to get many high school girls thinking about more than just sex and being perfect. Who knows!

I should go and study but I can't focus. AHHH GOD IS SOOOOOOOO GOOD!

If I gave you my hand

Would you take it and make me the happiest man in the world
if I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you girl.
~Josh Turner~

Loving that man right there. His Bass is BEAUTIFUL!

T-Dogg is sick and not updating so that stinks cause I have nothing to read! haha. Anyways what is going on with me....I have to write a resume and a fundraising letter this weekend. That's crazy I know. On top of that I have a lot of other work to get done AND I REALLY WANT TO SEE CASINO ROYALE!!!! It's playing here this weekend for free and I have to see it.

Tomorrow I have to wake up at the break of dawn to go to Harrisburg with one of my classes for extra credit. The FCC is holding a hearing on media ownership. I think it will be fun! Besides it gets me out of this little old town for a while. After that its CHRIS TOMLIN!!!!!!!!!!!! A night of Praise and Worship with the most amazing girls on this earth!!! That's exciting.

With THON over there's not much for me to do right now. Things will pick up when Crazy For You starts picking up. I'm going to try for lighting or sound for this show. Then in April I am crewing Mother Courage for the School of Theatre!!! YAY my first SOT show!!!Oh yeah and A sweets is in it and I love her cause she's awesome!

Well its late and I have to wake up early so I'm gonna get going.
here is the quote of the day


"A woman doesnt want to be the adventure, she wants to be caught up in something greater than herself." ~From the book "Wild at Heart"

It's true...MEN READ THAT BOOK! and Eric Ludy's God's Gift to Women! They are GREAT books!

until later nights!

And it hit me like a ton of bricks

Today it finally hit me:

I hate someone so much that I love them. Do you ever feel like that?. You absolutely just hate everything and then you're like I don't hate them at all, I love them.

Yeah see I can't hate him because I love him. IT STINKS. This is getting really hard for me. What am I supposed to do? Walk up to him and go, "I'm sorry for loving you?" I mean seriously. Nothing will be as real as this feeling I have.

Drrrr.

Many Hearts, FTK, One Home, Here To Stay!

Well THON is over and done with and it's really sad because I wish I had something else to look forward to.

This weekend was a blast and we did it all FOR THE KIDS!!! We raised over $5.2 Million for the Four Diamonds Fund and the Kids!

Some highlights:
Line Dance!!!! it goes like this:

*starts off with 007 music so sneak around with your hands in gun position pulled to your chest*
then there is a Stretch
1, 2, 3 “BALLIN!”
Thon is the place for me
Welcome to the BJC
Dancing strong for 46
Hey DJ spin that Disc!
F to the T K
For the Kids is what we say
F to the TK
"For The Kids" is what WE say
D to the A
to the NCERS
GO DANCERS!
Globo Gym, in Rec Hall
Watch TV, just don't fall
Creamery, down the block
Nathan's lights what a shock!
WebMail 2 drops the ball
"Creepy" Feed, tells it all
Penn State, super fans
Zombie Nation breaks the stands

Chorus: Roar Lions Roar!
T-H-O-N
THON 2007
FOR THE KIDS!
Loyal to...
White and Blue
Anything is possible...
Dreams Come True!!!

Freshman Class all-time high
Football tickets hard to buy
Puz breaks record with no fear
Connor stays for one more year
Outback Bowl's the place to be!
State's the only ten I see
Women's soccer wins again
You can't touch our lion's den
World Cup takes the stage
Head butt hits front page
Beckham comes to Galaxy
J-Mac can shoot the three
L.T. scores with power!
Say farewell to Coach Cowher
Saints march into town
Gators wear a double crown
Dimonds in the stands
Di-diamonds on the floor
Diamonds are for Hershey
And we've got 4!
J.T. Brings it back
So do Bond and Captain Jack
Samuel L. flies with snakes
Ricky Bobby "Shakes and Bakes"
Cars cruise the street
Dancers move those Happy Feet
(Chours)
Katie Couric, nightly news
Who will fill Bob Barker's shoes?
Bindi Irwin follows Dad
Crikey - he'd be so glad
Democrats paint house blue
First female speaker too
Science lead us down wrong route
Planet Pluto gets the boot

Everybody grab your can!
(7 claps)
And shake your money maker!!!
(Stretch break) Up in the gym just working on my fitness
(Chorus)
Dancin' all on the floor
Until we find a cure
Jersey Boys, Broadway fame
Gotta - Getcha head in the game
Trump and Rosie fight some more
Britney shows K-Fed the door
Stretch pants, Skinny jeans
Don't get mad, don't be mean

(Dance break)

We stand behind their courage
And wisdom at great length
We learn from their honesty
And celebrate their strength
Many Hearts
FTK
One Home
Here to stay
THON 07 rockin' out!
On our feet stand and shout!
Our diamonds are forever
With pride we stand together
Fight on state!

playing with the kids
SLIDES OF STRENGTH!
being crazy with my friends
the many people who came on the floor to visit us
THE BLUE BAND SHOWED UP!!!
GREEN WINNING COLOR WARS
The Last Four Hours

I can go on forever. I had a blast. Staying on your feet and awake for 46 hrs isnt as hard as it sounds. Today everyone kept asking me how I was doing and I kept sayin "I'm ready to do another 46 BRING IT ON!" haha.

Thanks for everyone who came up to support me and the other dancers!!!!!!

It was weird this weekend I'm not going to lie. There were times when I just wished for support that wasn't there. I wanted to cross the line a few times and hope that it was there. I hate the fact that everything is just a show for his friends or at least that's how I feel because everytime he remotely acknowledges me it's with a group of people there. It makes me mad that he is "confused" and if he was where he said he was a while ago he would know where God is taking him or least have a sense. I thought he would grow more once he got up to school after being home for so long away from people who encouraged him, but I was wrong. I realize that God may not have anything planned for us and this is fine. I just need God to tell me that Himself or show me that Himself because until He says so, I will always believe that where my heart is leading me, is the place I'm supposed to be. It stinks waiting around for someone who doesn't give a left arm about you but what can you do? Hope that maybe the next time you take a big step they are there to support you with everything they have , to love you for it, or whatever. Sometimes life is just that way.

So I guess the next thing I have to look forward to is Vail, Co this summer. Well, so far he has no idea I'm going there and probably won't find out or care. Why would he care since he's going home to his precious angel? Ah well sometimes things are just like that.

until later days
FTK

Happy Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day kids!

So we had off from class today because it snowed about 1 foot here. It's pretty sweet to be able to walk outside throw yourself into the lawn and land on fluffy white snow. A little cold but that's ok. I have been watching movies all day. Newsies, She's The Man, Serendipity, and The Lake House. It's Valentine's Day and I had no surprise valentine. I didn't expect one, but it would have been nice.

This day last year: My birthday gift finally arrived in Mr. Music's Mailbox and he then gave it to me before we went to see The Boyfriend(a musical). It was perhaps one of the best gifts I have ever gotten and came with a note that said, "Happy Birthday, when life gets you down, remember you can fly." I can't believe I fell for that.

I was brushing my teeth tonight and I had one of those flashback moments to last may. We had gone down the beach 4 of us just to relax and start the summer off well. Mr. Music and I were brushing out teeth in the bathroom and he finished before I did. He waited for me as I was brushing my teeth making a comment on how hard I brushed them. When I finished he wrapped his arms around me. I remember looking in the mirror and smiling at him, and then he said just one word: Perfect.

Sometimes stuff like that just gets me thinking. I swear I saw forever right then. I guess guys just see things one hour at a time instead of taking the time to realize that what they are really doing is just hurting someone by leading them on to believe they could ever beat out someone who is prettier, smarter, a better friend, known longer, etc.

and the funny thing is: I don't hate him one bit for it. I just pray for him every night.

Though you've been acting cold to him You know your hreat is sold to him

The title is from the Pajama Game.

So we talked in Bible Study today about love and what perfect love looks like. We also talked about how God is Love. It really got me to think about a lot of things. Unconditional love. Wow. What a set of words.

Anyway, I figured some things out. My heart is sold to him. That has been plane from the start. In Bible Study we were asked to think about our relationships and if we loved the other person before we entered into relationships with them? I think in the case of Mr. Music (lets just call him that) I did love him. I loved him as a brother in Christ. I say that because at that time in my life, the summer before college, I was just beginning my incredible journey with Christ. I was constantly in prayer and just praying for everyone even people I had yet to meet. As our friendship grew, so did my love for him as a brother in Christ. I was in constant prayer for him and I cared about him. Even during our relationship, constantly prayed for him and I was constantly praying about our relationship. I wanted to be Glorifying God in every way. I realize that there were some areas that we needed to work on in the Glorifying God bit, however my relationship with Christ never faltered. And the aftermath? I feel the same. I am constantly praying for him and his relationship with God to bloom. I continue to pray for God to shape his heart into one of a warrior and give him a good Christian Role model. I am a prayer warrior for my brother in Christ. It hurts not to know what is happening and it hurts even more to know that during the course of our friendship, he did not accept my prayers or my view of things because of my denomination. Little he knows of my faith that he will let God lead him to where God wants him to be. It is sad to see that he will not trust God enough to say "Ok, Lord I think you are calling me on a missions trip or a summer project and I will go." It is sad to see that he is too afraid of leaving his comfort zone and be a warrior for God. But I will pray on because there is something about this brother of Christ that is driving me to pray for him every night and every day. What it is, I have not found out myself. I have every reason to kick him from my memory, but I will fight on in prayer for him.

I love being a prayer warrior. If you have any requests, send them to me. Know that even though I might not know you, I am praying for you. I am praying that will you come to know the Lord in beautiful ways. For God is Love and He loves you more than you will ever realize.

1 John 4:7-21

Incase I don't get around to writing....Happy Valentine's Day

We're still fightin it

Today I am 20.

I refuse to grow up.
I will stay young forever at least in my heart.

I had a great weekend at home. So great I didn't want to leave. I am really only looking forward to the dance marathon I am doing in a few days. That's it. After that I was to leave school. I don't want to be here any more. It's getting to be too much for me. Too much stress, too disappointing, and too fake.

There is nothing more comforting than being with the ones you love. It is perhaps the most reassuring thing in the world and when you leave that comfort zone everything else feels empty. Which is why it is important to surround yourself with people who love and care about you the way you love and care about them. For life is about Relationships.

Valentine's Day is a few days away. I quit.

Happy Feet

So tonight I saw Savion Glover!!!!!
THAT GUY IS NUTS!!!! He'S AMAZING!!!!!!! I LOVE IT! It was such a good present to myself.
So next week, when I'm dancing in THON and tired, I'm gonna think of the Kids and I'm gonna think of Savion Glover preforming for an hour and a half, tapping like a nut.

So here it is....The weekend at home. Canning for the Kids! and celebrating my birthday. It will be fun. One thing will be missing but that's ok. Whatever. I'll get by like always.

PTL
FTK
Ciao for Now!

So come pick me up...I've Landed

YAY COLTS!!!!! THEY RULE!

that's really all I have to say except:

I didn't get props master for C4U.
My tap teacher got Choreographer for Crazy For You!!!! YAY!!!


That's is...leave some love if you feel compelled.

Every Great magic trick consists of three acts... The Pledge, The Turn, and The Prestige

GO SEE THE PRESTIGE ITS GREAT!!!!

So this weekend was a lot of fun but also very difficult for me. I started celebrating my birthday even though its a good week away. Friday the hockey team kicked butt and then I got to have a good time with my new roommate, T Dogg, and my neighbor. It was fun. Saturday was really chill. I did nothing all day...seriously nothing. I bought a dress..that's it. But I finally bought my little black dress! Then I went to Red Lobster with T Dogg for some Birfday dinner which was goooood. Then i saw The Prestige!!!! It was GREAT!!!!! Then I went to bed...fun huh?

Today is good. I went to breakfast with TDogg and wished him Happy Journies home. Then I went to church which was really really good. Pastor A dogg is wonderful! Then I just chilled here. I am going to go juggling in a little bit and then I have a meeting with the Thespians to discuss all kinds of fun things. Then I can finally watch the rest of the Super Bowl!!! GO COLTS!!!! YAY!!!

Well that's really it. I mean one element was missing this weekend and will be missing THON weekend and Next week and all the times after that. It's an element God has complete control over. SOmething I can't fix because I'm a girl and it's not my place. I'm actually staying in my place and I guess it's not good enough. Only God can tell.

So come pick me up, I've landed~Ben Folds

Ciao

Where has that old man gone, Lost in a February Song...

Tell him it won't be long
till he opens his eyes
and I never want to let you down
forgive me if I slip away
February Song~Josh Groban~

Welcome to February. This is a fun month for me. My brithday is in this month and the dance marathon is in this month. Also, I get to see Savion Glover and a play. It's going to be fun.

T-Dogg comes up tomorrow to help me begin my brithday celebrations even though they are a bit early. It will be a great weekend however.

I also am not a fan of this month...Right smack in the middle of February comes the holiday I am not a fan of. Well In fantasy land I am a fan of it, but most years I am not. It is Valentine's Day. Last year I asked for a sign on Valentine's Day and I got one. Apparently, I can fly. This year once again I will be single. I wish with all of my wishes that I wasn't. I wish I was spending it with that special someone. I do have a love. However, he just doesn't love me, infact we are not even speaking which makes my life a bit rougher than I would like it to be. and in the midst of everything going on in my life, I would just like to hear that he cares. That everything I am doing in my life he is proud and supportive. That he cares. If I was going to fall off a cliff tomorrow, I would just like to know that whatever it was meant something. He can stay wrapped around the finger he has been wrapped around for some time now, I don't care. I just wish I knew it mattered. However, I want the truth. The honest truth is that my friendship means nothing to him since he can not man up enough to talk to me or even accept me as a friend. He's afraid. Well life is about taking chances. I took a HUGE chance. I said yes last April only to get my heart torn in two and to sit in day dreams until this very day. Each day was a chance that I took with prayer, praise, and Grace of God. Whatever I had, was a blessing. He was beautiful, inspiring, full of life, when he was with me, he was himself. That in itself was beautiful. I miss him, I'm not afraid to admit that. It hurts to know he doesn't care.
I wish it wasn't Valentine's Day. I wish my heart wouldn't fill my head with silly dreams of roses with a card or a date that I knew nothing about, except that it was to be special. I wish some Christian guy would man up and win my heart over so I could forget this all. Even if it's not meant to be forgotten, I don't like thinking that anything could happen again.

Dear Lord,
Please keep my heart in Your hands. Protect it with all Your grace. Give me peace to know that You and You alone have picked out that one very very special guy who will win my heart over. Help me to be ok with the fact that I am single. Let me live in Your joy. You are Everlasting, Almighty, and All Knowing.


And so this is where I end. But I will always end in Hope. I know whoever he is, whereever he is...he'll come find me. Until then it's fantasy land.

Faith, Trust, and Pixie Dust.

Snowy Days

I promised to write on some snow days and well... they are here. Granted there isn't much snow on the ground, but what can you do?

I got into Vail summer Project, which is good cause it gives me the opportunity to go to Vail, CO for 10 weeks of my summer vacation. It's going to cost a lot of money but I trust that God will provide for that. I haven't made my final decision on that yet, it's just kind of there right now. It's def going to take a lot of prayer.

Things are still weird around here. In the days leading up to my brithday and dance marathon some things are just weird. However, I am getting through them, step by step. Relying a lot on the Lord to show me where He wants me to go and what He has planned for me. It's not hard, it actually makes life easier.

So now I'm off to my three classes and the gym.

Later days!

"I sure hope Roger is cute with a seat like this."

The title of this stems from a conversation I had with the lady at the ticket booth when I got my ticket for RENT and Savion Glover. Both in total cost only $48. I was PUMPE! Anyway my ticket for Rent is 3rd Row. So maybe someone will be cute.

That was just part of my good day. I had an interview for Crazy for You Production Staff and felt really confident, mainly because no one in the club applies for Props Master any more except me and like maybe 3 other people. I think it will be fun. Auditions are the week of THON which could be a little crazy. However it is OK. I will do my best. I really hope I get into this show. I automatically get a call back so that's good.

I've started listening to my ipod more on the way to class and stuff. I love the Fray. They are my latest loves. I feel like so many songs, not just from the Fray, relate to my life in some way shape or form. Here are a few:
She Dances ~ Josh Groban
February Song ~ Josh Groban
Look After You ~ The Fray
How To Save a Life ~ The Fray
My Wish ~ Rascal Flatts
Words I Couldn't Say~ Rascal Flatts


I'm getting a new roommate. I don't know how I feel about that. I've gotten used to being alone. However, being alone gets boring. Especially when you just have urges to pick up the phone and call people you're not talking to just to hear their voice and know that you're not alone. HOWEVER, this girl is very nice and I am a bit excited to have someone else in the room with me.

I'm not going to lie. Things are hard lately. Very hard and I don't like it. I've been trying to stay strong, but sometimes I just want to give up. I have wonderful support. Amazing people that are extremely close to my heart and I love dearly that never give up on me. They will never know how much they mean to me. Ok maybe they will. My life is just awkward. Christ has brought me this far and I have no doubt that He will carry me farther. I am weak and full of imperfections, but that doesn't matter to Him. In honesty, I want the clocks to turn back, I want to change things, I want to not do things, I want to fix things that aren't mine to fix. But clocks don't go back. It's frustrating.

She was the one who caught your attention but only for a second
The one who was always there when the days were long and hard
The one who told you there are more fish in the sea, when the love you swore you found told you she loved someone else
She was the smile you could relax around
The girl who searched deeper than the surface
The girl who caught you off guard
She was the tear you told to stay
The life you changed
The heart you stole
but you'll never know that, cause she'll never tell you twice.


until snowy days.... I'm out...ciao

All At Once

This past weekend was great! I had a blast with the guys. It even snowed!! It's Still snowing!!!
Thanks to S.L for making the picture video which made most of us tear up.
Thanks to T Dogg for driving up to the lookout with me when I needed an escape from the real world.

Things are getting a bit crazy. I have registration and meetings for the marathon I'm dancing in. It's gonna be great! I also have an interview for a postion with Props or Costumes for Crazy For You. And I have auditions for Crazy for You. All of these things are coming up. Also coming up is my Birthday, Valentine's Day, and the dance marathon. It's funny because you would think that I would love my life right now, and while I do. Some things just don't feel right.
I didn't get into the Summer Program in FL that I wanted. I might get into the Vail one. I trust God will place me where He feels I can do the most work. Besides that, everything that I'm going through right now, it just doesn't feel right. It feels so awkward going through all of this without one of my closest friends by myside. It is so strange how I lost that friendship and how I know I will never get it back. I care too much for him, if he ever asked me to be his friend I would probably turn him down because I would get caught up in what my heart is telling me. I really don't like the way things are, but sometimes they just have to be. I miss him and I think about him from time to time. Sometimes when it snows I think how he's not a big fan of it, even though its one of the most precious gifts God has given us. Sometimes when I hear a song or just am walking around campus I think of the good times. I don't know what happened. I just know that I miss it all and I wish things could be different. It's hard to think that he neither knowns nor cares what I'm going through. However, it's truth and that I think is what hurts.

I know this: Whatever God is planning to do with me, it will be great. I have endured much pain and sometimes I feel like Job. I have full Faith that my Savior will use me where He sees fit and love me no matter what happens. God is driving the car down the road that is my life....I'm just a passenger along for the ride lending a hand where I'm needed. But sometime's the road is bumpy and long and hard to endure. But He gets me through, He never lets me down.

until later and sweeter days...
ciao

My newest Pet Peeve

Hello again all!!!
So I'm the kind of person who doesn't really get annoyed easily. However, there are a few select things that annoy me. One of them is the fact that people just do not know how to walk these days. I mean come on people you learned this when you were three! How hard is it to learn to walk? It's something that you learn when you are like 2 years old. All this talking on the cell phone not paying attention...it's really iritating people! I'm not saying that I don't do it but sometimes I have to talk and move at the same time, however I do pay attention at what I'm doing.

The newest pet peeve......People who walk behind you but are literally right up your butt. It's a pain in the butt. I'm dude not only can I see your shadow right up my butt, I can feel you practically breathing down my neck. Cut me some slack, pass me or something. So yeah, that's my newest pet peeve.

Nothing really interesting is going on except T-Dogg and SL come to visit this weekend!!! I'm so excited. SL is staying with me since i Have an extra bed and I'm feeling a nice breakfast on Sunday!!! This weekend is going to be a blast. Hockey Games, THON skate, and so much excitement!!!

I'm out for now!
Peace, Love, and Pixie Dust!

The snow on my window creates frosted glass....

So the end of break was nice and relaxing. I worked on my puzzle some more and got even closer to finishing...however it's not quite finished. I got to see Mr. Magic....he looked good and he's growing up. There was awkwardness I think because we haven't seen each other since last July. It's been difficult to catch up with friends. I didn't get to see Kit Kat, which was really hard for me cause I haven't seen her at all since last spring.

However I am back at school and everything is good. It snowed today on the first day of classes. It's still snowing, however it's not sticking very well. I have the room to myself now because my roommate moved to the Apt.I have no idea what to do with myself and my peace lol. Right now I think I am going to head out to Walmart and get some good eats.

Ill write more when I feel compelled!
Ciao

Mr.Bialystock You've got me wrong, Please stop this song....

So not too much has happened since last thursday hence the not writing. I took my cousin Kevy to see Charlotte's Web on Saturday. We got lunch and went to my brother's hockey game afterwards. I love Kevy he's awesome....He's three and talked my ear all the whole car ride.

I had my last day of work on Monday, which is awesome cause now I don't have to see my Stalker!

I've been hangin out with Sarah and Ben who are my Fave couple!!! It's perfect because I never feel like a third wheel and I'm not attracted to Ben so there is no jealousy there. They are amazing kids who know how to cheer me up when I need it, know how it laugh at my stupidity, and keep me in line. I'm going to miss them this summer.

Yesterday I went to NYC with one the bestest from Team Awesome!! We had a great time. Chillin around the city is def worth the trip. We tried to get tix for Wicked but we didn't win the raffle. So we went to tkts and got some cheap tickets. We saw The Producers with Tony Danza as Bialystock. We were 8th row for half the price and it was awesome. After the show we waited outside of the theatre for Tony to come out and he did. We saw him and tried to get a pic and his autograph but this old lady went nuts and chased him down the street so he didn't have time to sign everyone's book so mine didn't get signed. But I saw him and he is tiny in person...which leads me to this "Hold me closer Tony Danza." T.D. was great in the show though he's not the best singer. AFter the show we ate the Stardust Diner where the waiters and waitresses sing. It was pretty sweet. Then we wandered around for a bit. I had an awesome time!!! It was cold though.

Anyways I'm gonna head out to Jugglin tonight and then prob hangout with Sarah and Ben. Who knows!!

Ciao for Now

Mr.Bialystock You've got me wrong, Please stop this song....

So not too much has happened since last thursday hence the not writing. I took my cousin Kevy to see Charlotte's Web on Saturday. We got lunch and went to my brother's hockey game afterwards. I love Kevy he's awesome....He's three and talked my ear all the whole car ride.

I had my last day of work on Monday, which is awesome cause now I don't have to see my Stalker!

I've been hangin out with Sarah and Ben who are my Fave couple!!! It's perfect because I never feel like a third wheel and I'm not attracted to Ben so there is no jealousy there. They are amazing kids who know how to cheer me up when I need it, know how it laugh at my stupidity, and keep me in line. I'm going to miss them this summer.

Yesterday I went to NYC with one the bestest from Team Awesome!! We had a great time. Chillin around the city is def worth the trip. We tried to get tix for Wicked but we didn't win the raffle. So we went to tkts and got some cheap tickets. We saw The Producers with Tony Danza as Bialystock. We were 8th row for half the price and it was awesome. After the show we waited outside of the theatre for Tony to come out and he did. We saw him and tried to get a pic and his autograph but this old lady went nuts and chased him down the street so he didn't have time to sign everyone's book so mine didn't get signed. But I saw him and he is tiny in person...which leads me to this "Hold me closer Tony Danza." T.D. was great in the show though he's not the best singer. AFter the show we ate the Stardust Diner where the waiters and waitresses sing. It was pretty sweet. Then we wandered around for a bit. I had an awesome time!!! It was cold though.

Anyways I'm gonna head out to Jugglin tonight and then prob hangout with Sarah and Ben. Who knows!!

Ciao for Now

come along and listen to...the lullaby of broadway!!

There's a reason I love braodway. There really is no biger thrill.

Today I went into Philly with three of my bestest!! It was so great to see them...Especially Joey because she kinda disappeared after she left school last spring. She looks the same and is doing great! We had so much fun~! I got an autographed show poster and everything. I was kinda crazy, but that's the way I always am. Of course a billion things were going through my mind because I over analyze sets, costumes, casting choices cause I am weird like that. We ate dinner at the olive garden afterwards and it was great! 42nd Street is a great musical everyone should see it!!! It's a classic.

Right now I am listening to Josh Kelley and you know what, he's really good. This CD was a good choice. He reminds me of John Mayer who I LOVE!!

I'm dreading work tomorrow because of my stalker. I can call him that now because it has seriously gotten scary. I'm too nice to just say no flat out. Especially beacuse there are many factors that could be taken the wrong way. Sometimes I really wonder about the things God has put into my life. Challenges like these that really throw me for a loop. Anyways maybe ignoring him will help. He's way older than me too.

Later Days kids!!

Dream your fears away
I'll be here all day
dry your eyes
cause I'm here to spend
this moment in your arms again
~Josh Kelley Faces~

Sound of Melodies

Blah guys... Let me tell you, I feel so horrible. I got sick in DC and while I am way better than I was while I was there...I still feel blah. I can barely talk and what is way way worse, I can not sing. I love to sing and not singing stinks!!!

Today all I did way lie around. I watched some good movies; First Daughter, Family Stone, The Producers. I also watched Legends of the Hidden Temple. I know you guys are jealous. Anyways Im really excited because tomorrow my Grandmom is taking me out to lunch and then on Thursday I am going to Philly with Ash and Tim and we are going to see 42nd Street!!!! I am so pumped!!! I cannot wait to see those guys and the show!!!

Anyways as to the title of this...This weekend the Bridge Band played this amazing song that has been stuck in my head since then. I love this song so much. So I'm putting the lyrics up....Its been great kids..until im spurred to write again..

Sound of Melodies
Leeland

We who were called to be Your people
Struggling sinners and thieves
We're lifted up from the ashes
And out came the song of the redeemed
The song of the redeemed

Can You hear the sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
rising up to You
rising up to You, God
The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
rising up to You, God

We have caught a revelation
The nothing can separate us from
THe love we recieved through salvation
It fills You daughters and Your sons
You daughters and Your sons

The sound of Your love
the Sound of Your love
Is what You're hearing
the sound of Your sons
the sound of Your sons
You've won You're Children
the sound of Your love
the sound of Your love
is what You're hearing
Your daughters in love
Your daughters in love
You've won Your children

The sound of melodies
Oh, the sound of melodies
Rising up to You
rising up to You, God

DC 06!!!

So I am Back from Christmas Conference DC 06. It was really sad to see everyone go after our amazing weekend.

Shelby Abott, First of all that guy kicks butt!!!! SHELBY YOU ROCK! He's funny and a great Emcee. I loved being able to spend time with him, laugh at his crazy antics, and just listen to him cause hes GREAT!

PHIL CARNUCCIO!!! This guy is on FIRE for the LORD! He was amazing and had some great talks! His illustrations painted with words were amazing!! Loved it!!!

THE BRIDGE BAND!!! Amazing guys from Downingtown PA. I can't wait to go to their worship services while Im here at home!!!

Haning out with the coolest kids on the block!!! THe day of outreach I spent with Josh, Angella, and Ryan. Sharing the Gospel, praying to the Lord. Taking the METRO into DC and wandering aimlessly with some objectives. I love you guys!!! I formed so many baby relationships that are going to grow! The DECADES DANCE PARTY!!! and the thing I loved the most....WORSHIPING IN THE NEW YEAR WITH THE BRIDGE BAND!!!! huging all my closest friends and just Praising God for all He's done.

DC 06 WAS AMAZING!!!! Thank you to everyone who made it possible!!! Thank you to the Hotel for putting up with us I know there were a ton of us!! PRAISE GOD for all these things HE has convicted over 400 of us to go out and do across the nations!!! I had the best time and besides my family, I could not think of a better way to spend New Years Eve!!!

Some days....

I just want to yell
or scream
or cry
or hit something.

Today was one of those days. So there is this guy who always comes into my work and he has developed this crush on me and he's a few years older than me. I'm getting a bit freaked out by the whole deal cause he's assuming things and taking things way too fast for my liking. It makes me want to quit work but I make such good money there I can't afford to right now. Hopefully when I go back to school he will forget about me.

I leave for a conference tomorrow and it goes until the new year. I'm really quite excited for it. I get to see a whole bunch of my friends and make a ton more. I'm going to miss spending time with my family, especially taking the trip to see the Mummers Parade and my uncle and cousin marching in it. I hope that next year we go again so that I will be able to go. So that's a good thing.

Another good thing is that I am getting my new computer soon. Within minutes that's how soon and I cannot wait!!! So I'm gonna go finish packing soI can mess around with my computer!

Remember guys: A dream is a wish Your heart makes!

The Tug on my Heart

Tonight was great. I got to spend time with my amazing family who is just out of this world. They are beautiful!!! I love each and every one of them because each and everyone is unique. They are really special to me.

As we were driving home from my grandparent's tonight, I saw a really bad car accident. I lifted those people and their families up to God. It's just horrible how people don't pay attention during Christmas season. It was obviously the result of someone running a red light. People are just always in a hurry. Truth be told I would rather be late and get there safely, then be in a hurry and not get there at all. Especially during Christmas. This is a time for family, friends and most importantly love. Love of family and friends and God's love for us that He gave His ONLY son so that we might be free of sin. Talk about a love story.

Dear World,
Please slow down this Holiday Season. Please stay careful and safe. Be with the ones you love and remember the One who Loves Us more than anything else in this world. Realize that your actions will effect others. You could ruin and entire family's Christmas just as someone could ruin yours. Please take time to consider everyone else in the world. That's just one of the many ways we can achive peace. Love one another and be examples of Christ's love for others. I love you all dearly!
~Me~

Everyone be safe and spread lots of love this holiday!!!

Relaxing Days

I must say that relaxing days are gifts from God.

Today was so nice. I picked up some last minute Christmas gifts and baked cookies. While baking cookies I sang Christmas songs at the top of my lungs. If you want to get rid of holiday stress, I highly suggest it. I also watched Pride and Prejudice in HD. A great movie, but it's even better in HD.

Later I went out with my mom and just hung out. We picked up some gifts and grabbed some dinner. I love hanging out with my mom. She's so wonderful!

In short, it was really nice to relax and take things slowly. It was also great to bond with my family. I'll have friend time later. Right now I need family time. It's been a really long time since we had family time. I love my family and I have no idea where I'd be without them. Tomorrow I get to go to work bright and early and then have Christmas at my grandmom's house!!! I love it and I'm so excited.

Later days!

Amazing Gifts

Friends are beautiful blessings from God. They always seem to light up our world when we need it most.

So today I saw a bunch of friends!!! Two of my girls were working at the Diner today so i stopped in to see then and we had some great conversation. I think we are even going to get a manicure and pedicure tomorrow so that will be fun.

I also got to hang out and go shopping with one of the bestest. We had a blast and we were able to hang out at my house for a bit. I am such a good gift picker for people I don't know! haha. No we had so much fun! I love Christmas shopping! I even got a Christmas outfit!!! It's cute! I love it! So we had a great time! I really needed to just have a fun relaxing time. I feel like the stress of finals is still lingering. I'm really not into Christmas this year. However this weekend looks promising.

I love hanging out with Family and friends and of course...Christmas mass!!! it will be wonderfuL!!!!! I can't wait!

Until then...

I'm back!!!

Hello kids,
I'm back. I'm sorry this has been seconded to school work. My life at school has gotten quite hectic. Being in theatre, I try to keep up with work, school work, Tv Production classes, and shows. I love shows. Seeing shows, being in shows, acting, just pretending. It's beautiful.
I'd like to throw a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! to all you who realize that Jesus was born in a manger with nothing and He left this world with all of our sins. I'd like to wish a Happy Holidays!!! to all of you who read this and are not Christan. I love this time of year. Winter is a wonderful season. It can be extremely beautiful. However, I must admit, I am finding this Christmas not as exciting as most. I feel a bit left out.
As you all know, this a big season for love. Well I'm growing up and wish to have love. However I know that Christ's Love is eternal and extremely beautiful and amazing fufilling. But God made women out of man and therefore we desire to be with man. We desire to be loved. I've gone through many Christmases without love. I know this desire may seem to make me selfish. I know that I must Trust God to fufill this desire which He creates. Sometimes it just gets difficult. I have experienced what it truely means to have love in Christ. And well perhaps that is why I desire love even more this Christmas season. It's just something I need to constantly pray for strength for. I know that this love will come at God's perfect timing. That it will be beautiful beyond measure and that God will have blessed it. But what if I've missed it? Will it come back?

The heart of a romantic can never be satisfied. However I refuse to think that Princes and Knights in Shining Armor do not exist. I truely believe that they do. They are few and rare. However, they are beautiful and well worth the wait.

His love with reach mountain tops.