Some Jekyll Pics for ya'all

Our set in construction, but amazing!


A Little Bit of Bring on the Men




Ross(Jekyll) with the Board of Govorners... lovin it.





Some cast members stretching

These were taken Pre-Tech... I'm sure there will be more this week... The show is coming together really well. They have me with a mic...I'm scared shitless. I've never had to wear one before and now the world will know if i mess up. Here's to not messing up!

Jekyll Tech Week Begins....

So we have started.
This is what my weekend looked like....

Friday: Career Fair and Interview with a production company 10-230 pm
Dinner and relaxation 3-5
Load-In 5:15- 11:30pm

Saturday: Load In 9am-5pm
Laundry and movies 5:30-2am

Sunday (today): Wake up and relax with starbucks: 12- 5pm
TECH WEEK BEGINS 5:30-11:30/12

And for the rest of the week we will be teching as well as classes and homework.

We go up on Thursday.

Usually it's not a big deal. It's Penn State Thespians 110th anniversary so we have about 95 alumni coming back this weekend. They will be seeing the show closing night (saturday) as a group. But I'm sure they will be seeing the show a few times. This is a HUGE deal.

So this is what we did all weekend. Painted, built, put together, hung, crawled, and more.
This weekend I screwed my hand. Well ok that sounds wrong, but what I mean to say is that I was in the process of taking out screws from these tables and in that process the drill slipped and then it went into my hand. It was a pretty little mark. I also had to crawl under wet, painted, burlap to put down tarp. It was grand.

I did a lot with the set. Friday night was fun...saturday was more fun. I really love that stuff.

I also was able to be the guinea pig for climbing the set and making sure it was sturdy...i love that lol.


HERE'S TO THE NIGHT! and looking behind the facade. Talk to you soon!

~Me~

Why I love Rehearsal

Tonight Rehearsal kicked my butt. I gave way too much energy and I had none. But I loved it anyway. Here's a recap of my favorite moments from Rehearsal today and yesterday:

Sunday:

Jekyll/Hyde (Ross) *on his knees*: ...and now I'm turning into Jekyll. (as if giving the cast a play by play)

A scene between Jekyll/Hyde and Utterson:

Utterson proceeds to give his line
Jekyll/Hyde: Not now John I'm trying to turn back into Jekyll, let me pull my hair back.

Leaving as the musical director was coming back in.... and not getting called back to rehearsal!

Monday:

Accent Coach....enough said. She was the BEST EVER!!! We had so much fun!

Running Murder, Murder until 11:25....pm.

Ross (Jekyll/Hyde) looking at Liz and freaking her out so much that she cowered behind him.

Bring on the men with the lights down...best ever! Oh and without Chairs.

There are so many reasons why I love going to rehearsal. Despite the fact that they are long, sometimes boring, hard, sweaty, and a killer to the voice after a while, they are great. We have so much fun and Ross is totally a creepy Jekyll. He's nothing short of amazing though.

The next two weeks are what I like to call Hell Weeks. Most people have one and that is Tech Week. I have two because I have TAPS week. Theatre Arts and Production Studio week is when we build our sets. Since most of the cast is not in THespians they really don't know much about this nor do they care what kind of work goes into it (grrr makes me angry). However, me and a bunch of other people will spend hours each day until Friday building, painting, and moving set pieces. on Friday we will build/paint/move until 4pm at which point we will then load everything from TAPS into trucks and move it into Schwab. We will make the set stationary, finish paitning and touch ups...hang lights, finish props and what not. WE will spend our ENTIRE WEEKEND IN SCHWAB!!! Sleeping there, eating there, whatever...we do it. On Sunday we focus for the second time and then we are set to go for the first Dress also known as Tech 1. We have 3 Tech's and an INvited Dress, also known as a Gypsy Run Through. then it's show time. Right after our final performance, we say Hi to our guests, change and then Strike the set. Then we have ceremonies and finally.... we have a party.

It's going to be a blast, but it also means, no sleep, no life, and hard work. But I don't think I would miss it for the world, nor would I spend this time with any other people.

I'll write when I can and post some pictures I took today at rehearsal later.

Its well past midnight and i have an 8am class across campus tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Until then
~Me~

Why do you look for the living among the dead?

So going to church today felt so good. I mean I have been so busy it's been a while since i've been to church.

So Jesus is risen today!! YAY!!!

It's kind of exciting. I mean the whole thought that someone died to save you and enable you to have eternal life. It's sweet.
Anyways I'm wishing you all a great Easter. I hope you enjoy it and can spend it with your family and friends.

I'm missing my family like woah. None of my roommates are here, we probably would just fight anyway. But I'm alone on Easter and I just kind wish that there was something I could do today besides a meeting and rehearsal.

Anyway PTL!!!

The Prop Shop In Schwab

Also known as my home.
Freshman year I was assistant props master. THE FALL of my freshman year. I spent HOURS in the basement of Schwab in the Prop Shop. It has been through a LOT! Mess, columns, fire hazard warnings, etc. When I was Props Master for FOOTLOOSE, it was Hell trying to find stuff in there. Not to mention really freaky when you are in there alone. The basement of Schwab is haunted and well I try not to go down alone.

Anyways. Today was SCHWAB CLEAN OUT!!! WOOT! The third one this year. FINALLY we got to the prop shop and after taking EVERYTHING...literally EVERYTHING out, it looks BEAUTIFUL!!! So clean, so organized. I had the nice job of taking stock of everything...we have a bunch of stuff. It's pretty sweet. It's also really nice to say stuff like "yeah I made that flashing staff for Into the Woods out of wood, a camera flash and cloth." Oh yeah. It's home to a bunch of beautiful, memorable objects that we just don't have the heart to throw away. For example, an HMS Pinafore life circle thinger. It's fun!

However I left clean out early because I had to finish editing my Veterns History Project for my Comm Field Production class. Ugh, I HATE editing, but it's going to be a job that gets me something to live off of until I can prove myself in the theatre world.

I'm supposed to do the Disney College Program in the fall, I'm waiting to be accepted. If I do, I'll have a good shot at being able to work for ABC or ESPN. It'll be great! haha

Sometimes College wears me out. I couldn't go home for Easter. I have rehearsal for J and H at 7 tomorrow. Not to mention that we have a club meeting at 6. I would have had to be back here by 5 to settle in and eat and everything. It just wasn't happening. But I do have the apartment to myself, I just miss the fam and the Big Family dinner they will have tomorrow with the grents, cousins, and all. Most of all I'll miss the kids. My little cousins are growing up and they don't even know who I am. It's so hard. I mean Kevy knows who I am. We have this kind of bond because I was the first cousin he saw in the hospital after waking up. For some reason he loves hanging out with me. We have movie hang outs, he doesn't like to call them dates haha, and he loves me to babysit when I'm around. But he's growing up and he barely knows me. Ugh I wish I was home more. What can you do? This is my life. Away from home but home is so much a part of me.


Off to practice vocals and dance...yes it's 20 of 10 at night. So Much Fun!

Inspiring Those with Dreams

So I posted this on a Forum that I'm in for Legally Blonde. Some girls were asking about Broadway Dreams and I feel like people always give the wrong impression about this. So Here's what I responded with.

Ok so I just read the main post so I'll respond to that and hopefully help some of ya'all out.

I have two dreams. The first is working at or for Disney. The other is working on Broadway. For a long time I have dreamed of performing on Broadway and I have been working towards it but I know my chances are slim. However, If I do get a chance to audition, I will. I was told by my acting teacher that I should go to Grad school for acting.

I'm a Junior in college. I have a year left. I am a Telecomunications major which works on production stuff for movies, radio, and TV. However, theatre is my passion and I have picked up a theatre minor and have been working with the Thespian group here since my Freshman year, earning Props Master my 2nd semester. After a ton of practice I landed my first ensemble role this semester (6th one) ( I go to school with a TON of talented people). I'm going to Disney in the Fall for the Disney College Program and hope to learn some "Entertainment" aka Theatre stuff down there.

My dream to be on broadway has changed. While I do want to go to Graduate school, I think it will be for Arts Management. I want to be a Production Assistant or work behind the scenes. However, I will go to auditions and put myself out there. You never know when an off-Broadway production or a smaller theatre company might need talent. You can work your way up. At least I can say I've performed in NY that way right? I would love to be in a touring company. Infact my friends are laughing at me because i have been telling them how much I want to be in the Touring Company of Legally Blonde. If I hear of an audition or find a way to get there, I'm going to get there.

Rule Number One: Don't let anyone tell you can't do it. You'll never know unless you try. Remember, Shoot for the moon, even if you miss you'll land among the stars.

I think a lot of performers don't realize what they are doing when they perform. A lot of stagehands and so forth don't understand either. Those that do, are the ones who deserve to make it. Live Theatre is entertainment. You are providing a service (like any other job). You are giving audiences a chance to leave the real world, to think in a different way, to realize something they might be neglecting about themselves, and so much more. When I first fell in love with theatre it was because all I wanted to do was put a smile on someone's face. I started juggling and I was able to do that more. I started dancing and singing and juggling at the dance time. Having the ability to make people happy, to make people feel something new or something they forgot, is AMAZING. I hope you all can experience it.

I'm a Junior in College with parents who don't want me to pursue any kind of career in theatre, but they know how much I love it and they know somehow I'm going to get there. So have the drive and passion. You'll get there.

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I hope you liked it!

~Me

2 posts in one day! WOW!

OK I just had to post this cause it happened to me.

You know those little tiny boxes that appear after you try to sign up for something online. The verify by typing these letters and numbers in the box below. Some of them are very sensitive with the capital letters and some just don't care. But they always try to trick you.

I can't help but feel like I'm at an eye exam when I see them. I have to squint to see if it's a t or an f. They have all these little dots and white lines and stuff to trick you into putting a wrong letter or number.

BUT WHY? Aren't you varifying your information? Shouldn't this be easy?

Well the answer is no. Nothing is ever easy. Someone, somewhere always has to complicate things.
Thank you person who creates these little verify boxes for making signing up for something that much more difficult.

Ok I just had to let ya'all know my problem with those... Off to buy tools for my theatre class. YAY!

It was Spring Break...thats my excuse

OK so I know you all hate me cause it's been over a week since my last post. Seriously though...no one ever comments so I don't even know if you read this.

Anyways I had a great break. Besides the disappointing Legally Blonde trip...I actually went to see a night show of it on wednesday with the best cousin in the world. We Stage Doored Twice. Oh yeah! And I met and got a pic with Laura Bell Bundy. She's super sweet!

We had my 21st birthday celebration at the bars on thursday and well lets just say Friday was a rough day....

I have been working on a comic book for fan mail for a certain Christian Borle. Well I finally finished it last night. I just need to touch it up at some point today or tonight and it will be perfect. I want to send it out tomorrow.

I have to go buy tools for my set design class...I'm kind pissed at this cause like I spend so much money on classes and then they ask us to buy like 15$ hammers and shit. I'm like ugh I'M POOR YOU ARE TAKING ALL OF MY MONEY!!!!

I have finally figured out that yes I want to work in NYC but I don't want to move away from my family...so I need to like find a way to get there without it costing so much money is gas or travel expenses. Of course I will move away from my family eventually but like NYC is kinda far (almost 2 hrs) and I really love them. I want to be sure I can get back if they need me. Look at me talking though, I go to school 3 hrs away and its so hard to get home...but still.

That's my updates. I'll write more as more comes. WE have our first Jekyll and Hyde Stizprobe tonight...FUN!

Until then,
~Me

Omigod you guys...

So I went for my V.I.P experience yesterday to Legally Blonde The Musical....it wasn't what I expected.
I was super excited because I thought that this was going to be a great day and we would get to meet some of the cast and talk with them and go backstage and all this stuff.
Well we had decent seats for the show, some of the cast came out and talked to us after the show including Laura Belle Bundy, who played Elle, but I didn't get to go backstage and they didn't do pictures or sign autographs (like some of the other groups did)....I payed $179.00 for what?
Sure we went to Spotlight Live afterwards and had some food but seriously? I could have gotten tickets to the show in the orch for $64.00 and talked with and actually physically met the cast by stage dooring, which I've started to do a lot lately. It was a little frustrating.

Of course I loved being able to hear from the cast about their memories and how they came to be stars and all that fun stuff. I live for that kind of stuff. I didn't ask any questions, but its ok. Laura Belle Bundy has some funny stories. BUt ya know.

The was crazy....I thought we were going for my birthday present but we spent 2.5 hrs at Canal St. I HATE THAT PLACE. My mom and my sister wanted to go and it was pooring and there are crazy people there....and I just was sick of it. No one listened to me when I was screaming how much I wanted to leave. When we finally it the heart of the city, we barely had time to eat lunch before we had to be at the show and then we went to the show and after we hit up spotlight live we went to jekyll and hyde club for dinner and then left the city. It was pointless. I was pissed. I thought it was my birthday gift.

I'm going back on Wednesday. I can't wait. I might only see one show as opposed to two. I'd much rather shop and stuff. I don't have money to shop but window shopping is fun!

Anyways that was my day yesterday. I really expected more but I guess you can't always get what you want.

Until more interesting days
~Me~

Wrap Your Arms Around Me

Lately things in my life have been in the air....
there's a lot that a lot of people don't know.

My dad's sickness last year that he is still recovering from and the cancer they found, that by some miracle they were able to get before it spread.

My cancer scare that is still a possibility.

My lowering of standards because I just want someone to hold me.

and My Grandfather.

My Grandfather is one of my heroes. He's amazing. He's worked so hard all his life and I love him for everything he does for me. He's been sick a lot but not enough to keep him down. He's always full of energy. A few years ago, while I was a freshman in college, he was diagnosed with colon cancer. They found it, stopped it and he did his chemo and was off it for a few years. It looked well and seemed to be fine. Usual energy and everything.
Tonight I found out they found cancer in his liver. It's small and he needs surgery. He's getting it done in a few weeks. That is, if he stops smoking.

I have complete faith that God will do what He wants with this situation. I just don't want to lose my Grandfather. I really really want him to be at my wedding, and I don't even have a boyfriend yet. I've always wanted him to be at my wedding. He's such an important person in my life and I don't want to lose him. I wasn't around last summer, which might have been my last summer with him. I have plans that take me out of state next semester and I won't be able to come home for Thanksgiving or Christmas. I don't want these to be the last holidays I spend with him because I won't be there. I love him so much and just thinking about losing him hurts.

I know I probably sound selfish. Tons of people have lost loved ones and I have too. I dunno. It's just hard on me right now.

I entitled this Wrap Your Arms Around Me because I have really good friends. However, I don't think any of them would be able to see through the facade I put up about this. Not too many of them will care about it either.

It's times like these that I wish I had a loving, caring, supportive, boyfriend. Someone who sees through all of my faces to my heart. Someone who will just wrap his arms around me and tell me its ok even when it's not. Someone who just cares enough about me to see when I'm hurting and to wipe away my tears. I'm in my early twenties and I know I have years ahead of me, but this whole being single thing, just isn't working with so many things happening in my life. THere are no prospects....at least not any more.

The Bridge Band has this song and it goes like this:

Father hold me in your infinite embrace
Can you see me now?
I'm falling on my face
(even now)
Father hold me in your infinite embrace
All I have is You
All I have is You
All I have is You
All I have is You

I just picture THese huge arms being wrapped around a small child comforting, protecting. I know that the Lord provides these things for us. We need to take comfort in Him, but there is a certain security in human arms. I want that. I want to feel that.

So my guy, whoever you are, wherever you are.... please, wrap your arms around me

until sunny days
~me~

Spring Plays Tricks On Us

So the weather has been undecidable lately. It snows really heavy on saturday and monday its almost 60. TOday its back down to snowy weather. Oh this place...I'm tellin ya!

Nothing too important is happening in my life. I'm trying this new thing out called forgetting people. Jess brought it to my attention. People that hurt us, make us upset, are just not worth having in our lives. So I'm trying to back away and forget the bad things that happened between me and certain people and if they come up again I will be able to work them out calmly. Fun right? I thought so. It's hard around this one person, a guy persay, but I'm going to do it! Besides, he's going on tour over break and i'm just going to NYC. Who needs him anyway.

I want to be happier. I know how to do it, I just don't because I keep myself in these ruts where I just pity myself. So I'm changing that too.

I miss Vail. I Miss the people and the mountains and the village of Vail.I hope I can get back to visit there sometime soon!

I filled out my application for DCP.....Disney hopefully here i come!!! I can't wait I'm so excited!

THat's it. I'll write more about New York after I get there, I'm sure I'll have a lot to say! haha

Until New York!
~me~

Why My College Upsets Me

Today is State Patty's Day.

I know what you're thinking. St. Patrick's Day isn't for another few weeks. My University and all of the brilliant people that go here got this crazy idea. Let's look back at History....

One year ago Tomorrow: A group of students, upset that St. Patrick's Day fell over spring Break, convince bar owners to open up for STATE Patty's day festivities. Basically, St. Patrick's Day festivities a few weeks early so students could celebrate. What I couldn't understand is why couldn't they just celebrate on St. Patrick's Day out of town? Why did we have to go and create a holiday.

Now This year: St. Patrick's Day falls the day we get from Spring Break. PLenty of time to celebrate...yet people feel the NEED to have STATE Patty's day again.

STATE Patty's day, bringing a lot of money to the bars and liquor stores in the area, is a poor excuse for students to dress in green and drink all day long. It just baffles me. Don't people have better things to do with their lives?

So this is why I am ashamed of my school...along with disrespecting fans of other football teams and all the other stuff that goes on here.

In Ireland they don't drink as much as people around here think they do. Infact, St. Patrick's Day is a religious holiday there. They go to church and maybe they have a few beers. However, it is nothing like the United States portrays it and I am a little ticked. BUt what can you do? People will be people and say, "hey I created a holiday!"

People are just Stupid.

On a lighter note:
It snowed last night about 4 inches. I was driving today and I looked out my passenger side window and there is a 7ft snow man. These two college guys, not celebrating State patty's day, are on chairs putting the head on this thing. It was definitely a smile bringer. I wish i could have taken a picture.

Until Warm days~

46hrs and $6.6 Million FOR THE KIDS!!!

YAY!!!!!
Sorry I haven't written in a while. I have been catching up on sleep and working on my first short story entitled Comic Book Secrets. Fun!

So last weekend was THON!!!!! It was amazing as per usual!!! I don't know how I made it through, let alone the dancers! My dancer was golden, but my orgs dancers were in need of some help! So I hung out with them a lot whenever I was on the floor.

Some Highlights of my weekend:
Pre-THON ~ Another Amazing show!

Spending time with my Thespians and the Singing Lions

Spending time with my Morale Team

Seeing my family! (missed ya dad!)

Helping not only my dancer, but a lot of random dancers get through the weekend!

Giving foot messages!

Baby Powder!

THON KIDS!!! They are AMAZING!!!! They are really fun to play with and they all LOVE water guns!!!! haha

Spending Family Hour on the floor with our dancers

Hearing the stories at Family hour

In Memory of Those who didn't beat the cancer....they are the reason we dance

Spending the last hour with my org in the stands.

Seeing the Total go up $6.6 MILLION DOLLARS!!!!
The 10 seconds of shock that followed before all the cheering!

Angels Among Us, Your Love is My Love, and Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Getting a THON shout out at LoveBscott.com

THE ENTIRE WEEKEND!!!!!

I loved it!! TO learn more or hear more check out THON.org

This is what I live for here at PSU. I LOVE IT!!! THis weekend was amazing! The kids were amazing! We dance for the Cure! It WILL come because HOPE FINDS A WAY!!!!!

$6.6 Reasons to HOPE!

~Me~

Tomorrow... we dance

I'm going to preface this by saying that the Lunar Eclipse tonight was the most beautiful thing I have seen in a long time. The sky was perfectly clear for it too!

Tomorrow we dance for a cure.
We dance for Hope
For Love
For Life.

THON is a big thing here. Actually it is the THING here. It's the largest student run philantropy in the world.

I am Proud to be a part of it.

Tonight after we learned the line dance and had our final morale meeting before THON, I realized something.
Grades..don't matter
GPA....doesn't matter
Where I go when I'm out of school...Doesn't matter
NONE of it matters.

THON is the most important thing I will ever do here at Penn State.

I can work on shows until the cows come home. Spend days and nights in the basement of a creepy auditorium building sets and props..It won't make a difference.

THON makes a difference. The hours I spend shopping for a dancer, making kids mail, going to meetings and events. Those countless days in the Cold holding cans on the side of the road, in front of stores, asking people for money. That is what matters.
Making a DIFFERENCE in the LIFE of a CHILD....matters.

Last year I stood for 46 hrs. No sleeping or sitting. I did it For The Kids. For The Families. For The Four Diamonds. I did it because for 46 hrs I could absorb the pain of a child going through chemo. I could dance with that Child, hold that child, smile and laugh with that child and their fears...for however long they were at THON were gone.

This year I am not only doing THON FOR THE KIDS, but I am doing THON FOR THE DANCERS. I am not complaining that my feet hurt or that I am tired. I get to sit, sleep, shower. I am pepping. Smiling. Dancing. Being Crazy. TO help someone else feel what I felt when the total was raised last year and 5.2 Million dollars was raised FOR THE KIDS.


"This is what it means when we say WE ARE PENN STATE." Joe Paterno.

THON, is THE MOST IMPORTANT thing I will ever do....in college.

www.THON.org


See what I love.

So we dance!

Until post THON.
ME

Why I Go To The Theatre

There are many reasons why people go to the Theatre... entertainment, a nice evening, something different, inspiration, love of art, and the list goes on. HEre's why I go.

I love it. Something about a play or a musical that takes you out of your own world and places you in the world of someone else. Anyone else on stage. You can be placed in the main character's world or the world of a person who only walks out on the stage once. There's something magical about the theatre....something hypnotizing.

Ken Davenport in his blog The Producer's Prospective (see my faves) mentions the LFF. LFF is the Lean Forward Factor. Some shows you go to you just sit there...but other's cause you to lean forward. The first time I went to see a broadway show, I saw Aida. I leaned forward. I thought it was so inappropriate. I couldn't help it! Something was drawing me into the world of the play, the characters, the scene, the meaning behind it all.

It's how I feel about Jekyll and Hyde. When I read it, I lean Forward. I'm drawn into the deeper meaning. I feel for each character. I can relate, I can believe, I can think about what each character must be going through.

Tonight I saw PUSH written for and preformed by our SOT Grad Students. They did an amazing job...however, it was really long. But here's the thing. I leaned forward. I was drawn into everything that was going on. All of these different plots revolving around one character's misfortune. Courage. Confusion. Life. Love. Everything was appealing. The actors were so convincing. So real. I know a few of them from acting class or just being around school of theatre. It was as if I could go up and touch them... and they would be that character who they were. They would be different from the people I knew...someone else.

So it was good. Props to the actors, crew, director and playwright.

I am now in the cast of Jekyll and Hyde. A few girls dropped out and they need to fill the chorus roles. I start tomorrow. I'm really reluctant. Wish Me Luck.

Until another thought~!
Me

Reflections of a 21 year old

So yesterday was my birthday.... when I tell you that it was done in style...I literally mean that I go 4 hrs of sleep the whole day.

Of course we went to the bar at midnight. It was good...but I drank way too much. Well ok here's the thing. It wasn't that I drank way too much...I just mixed way too much. For example...all I wanted was a guinness...so I got it. Then I had a red headed slut, an irish car bomb, a tequila shot, a sweedish fish, and I think one more but can't remember. Mixing =Bad. I mean I was golden and totally cool. J drove so that was cool. But then it hit me all at once and that wasn't cool. I was afraid to get off my little computer rolie chair. But it was good.

So then i stayed up talking to some ppl. And then around 3 I went to my friend's apt. I feel like I have talked about this friend before. We are more like FWB...very good benefits though he really frustrates me sometimes because he worries a lot about if he is hurting my feelings when he says no and stuff. whatever. I had already been hurt by him and I'm kinda over it. Apparently we drew yet another line the night of my birthday. I dunno I wish he would just man up cause I like him. He's sweet, kind, gentle, amazing at like everything he does, and hes a cutie with an amazing smile. But like I said...he worries a lot and I think he's just afraid. But anyway so i went over and enjoyed some benefits for my bday. He was cute about it...mainly because i was sobering up so we sat and talked for a while and laughed and had a good time.

Then I slept for 4 hrs. I got up showered...missed my first class cause i didnt get up on time... went to the office to get some things done and went to my theatre class. Try sewing after a night of drinking...I don't get hangovers...just have urges to shop and a major stomach ache. So I was like ugh my stomach hurts i can't concentrate of this stuff. But I got through the class. Then I had to run and drop off equipment and such. That was fun. After that I had to get my hw done...cause I neglected it.
Then my little's for thespians took me out to the Olive Garden and made me get some wine...so I did. It was good. We had a great dinner (thanks guys!!) and a nice evening. Then I had arts and crafts week which is crazy. Also, I went to the gym after that. Then I stayed up until midnight to finish off the day.

It was fun. But long and I was tired...infact I am still tired.

My roommates exboyfriend is here again. I feel like they gave him a key. That really really really bothers me. I hate it. He sleeps here, eats here, sits on my couch all day, and in general is really annoying. If he is going to be here all the time he should pitch in for rent and shit. Especially if he showers in my bathroom and sleeps on the couch. Seriously. Ughhhh its so annoying!

so besides that life is good. It doesn't feel any different being 21 though it is interesting to get carded. And so many people did not believe it was my birthday even tho it is written on my valid drivers license. Seriously ppl get with it!

Until less snowy days that i have to drive to class....
~Me~

A Review of Yumminess

So today was a wonderful day. Simply because I was able to forget everything that has happened to me wed-friday.

MY MOM VISITED ME!!!! Love it!!!!
She showed up at my door with this HUGE Winnie the Pooh balloon and 3 smaller ones, a cake, a bagged gift, and a box of Parrot Bay by Captain Morgan. The Winnie the Pooh Balloon make noise and sings happy birthday!!!


Oh maybe I should explain....

Monday is that big birthday. You know the 21st. So since my mom is a teacher and can't take the day off (we are going to atlantis in may for their anniversary!) she can't be here. She visited me today and we went to lunch and dinner and did a TON of shopping. My mom is so great that for my birthday she got me tickets to see Legally Blonde on Broadway VIP style and meet the cast!!! WOOT! backstage tour too! She also bought my THON dancer gifts for me...isn't she great! I love her so so so much!!!

So we went to Baby's which is timeless and I love it! Then we travelled around for a few hours. THEN we went to KELLY'S!!
OMIGOD!!! SO GREAT!!! Yummy yummy yummy. Right portions and everything! It's classy...but they have a bar so its ok. I did not get to drink with my mom...she was upset. She's very upset that I am having my first beer without her....yes that beautiful Guinness. I can't wait!! I'm thinkin I'll call her. She'll be funny with that lol. Anyways It was sooo good.

So in short. My mom surprised me! cause it did snow like 4 inches here and the weather this morning was ugly. And I LOVE LOVE LOVE my mom so much. I love my dad too...but he didnt surprise me today lol.

Until the 21st reflection....
~Me

A New Life

What happens when...
You don't get director of a show you love?
You don't get any production staff position of a show you love?
You don't even get cast in a show you love?

Well I can tell you what happens.....you want to beat up everyone.

Today I quit thespians and though you cannot do that...I have vowed that after THON I will officially become inactive.
It was a super hard thing to do because Thespians are why I am still at Penn State...though the club has gone down hill since I was a freshman. I'll miss my friends but I won't miss the jerks. There are good number of them.

You know, Jekyll and Hyde is one of my favorite shows and stories. So when I applied for director I had a plan. In my interview, I couldn't get the plan out. I just rambled like an idiot. I was nervous. I didn't even get props master....great that's something I'm good at. But Now this...

I have been practicing for this show since I started my voice lessons in september. I have been brushing up on everything too. I went to my singing audition balls to the walls. I didn't care. At my callback....I went pretty far. Its a show about sex, lust, and passion and if anyone tells me there was no passion in what i was doing last night...they weren't watching. I wanted so badly to be in this show and the movement portion, I had it down. The singing portion....we sung one of my favorite songs from the show and I was pumped! I walked out of there feeling the most comfortable I have ever felt when auditioning. Eye contact with the audience ensures that you want them to know your story. I did it. And if I messed up a little I got right back into it.

To say I am disappointed is to say the least about what i am. I cannot help that some inside job had something to do with this. There are people in the club who don't like me. Simply because I am outgoing and I speak my mind about things. I'm sorry they don't like me but you shouldn't hold that against someone when casting.

I don't know what went on at the casting meeting. I don't know if people saw how important this show was to me last night. I'm not just some actor trying to make any show without any preparation. I prepared even before the callbacks, being creepy on campus just to get into character.

I quit because passion doesn't matter any more. People are doing this club just to have something to do or to have some fun. I have put a lot of time and energy into the club in the past few years because THIS is what i WANT to do. THIS is my PASSION. Theatre....is my life and yeah I can't major in it....but damn it...I put 110% into everything I do with it. I cannot stand to be taken as a joke. And it hurts.

But I guess it's done. I want to leave. I hate this place. I want to go back to my home. More importantly back to People's Light.

until later days
~me

Angry Young Man

Ok so I am not angry
and I'm not a man
I am young!

Anyways the point of this post was to do two things:
1. Talk about semi formal
2. review Movin' Out a New Musical


Semi Formal: Amazing Time. I got my head shot pic taken...i mean its unprofessional. But my little for thespians took an amazing picture of me. Look there it is!! haha It was great I danced a lot with her because of course there is no man in my life right now and no man in hers so i lead most of the night lol. However, here's what i found interesting. I had been seeing this guy in thespians...well I'll define seeing. We hooked up a few times very intentionally. Then we kinda had this moment where we were like we shouldn't do this...and stopped talking to each other. He said we should just be friends and blah blah and its all good. But we dont talk to each other at school cause he hangs out with this group and totally things hes too cool for anyone.
Well last night at semi I saw him looking in my direction quite a few times, but he never asked me to dance. So i was like ok strange...
men are weird like that.
Anyway afterwards was fun because there was no afterparty , im guessing this kid went out with his group that is too cool for anyone.
My little and i hung out at my apt and had a great time bonding. We were watching pride and prejudice and this kid, lets call him Lion, had an away message up about how he shouldnt try any more and all this stuff. So I imed him and was like maybe you should just man up. and then he wrote back with this deep conversation about screwing up relationships and fucking this up and something about me and stuff. So i wrote him back and told him he just needs to stand up for what he wants instead of being so quiet about it. and I was nice, i said if he needed to talk he could call me or come over or whatever, but he never wrote back after that. so i'm like really confused about it...

Now for my review of Movin' Out a new musical....

I would call it....Movin' Out a Billy Joel Ballet. Here's why. The only singing, comes from the guy in the orchestra playing the piano... The rest of the show is playing out in a ballet type of show.... so its a ballet to billy joel songs.

ok don't get me wrong. I LOVED it. I'm a huge Billy Joel fan and once I found out who everyone was, i was able to follow the story line....kinda. I understood about there being a war, but they weren't clear about which one....until the end when Goodnight Saigon is played.

I guess the whole thing confused me a bit. There was no talking and so in the beginning you are trying to find out who everyone is and what exactly is happening. The music, lighting, and dancing was great as well. The story line also great. However, I feel like you could get away with making a musical of Billy Joel songs about someone who wants to be a musician. I dunno. Also, the energy in the middle of the show was lacking. I don't know if the cast partied too hard in town the night before or what, but it just wasn't full of energy which also helps to drive the story, especially in dance.

It was not what i expected for a musical, but it was good nonetheless. Props to the leads who worked their butts off during the show. It really was a good show....just different.


until more shows...Coming up PUSH by the SOT

~me

More Things that Make me happy

So today I had to go to walmart to get a few things for my semiformal which is tomorrow.
Things that make me happy day two:
I went to look for a valentine's day card for my friend and there were these two old men so cute... and they were picking out valentine's day card but they were like 97 cents and they said like Happy Valentine's Day Granddaughter.... I was like in love cause they were soooo cute. so cute. Old men are so cute. Ok I'm done.


Sad thing: I watched 10 Things I Hate About You because it was on TV tonight and it just felt weird. I mean now that Heath Ledger is dead you can't look at him and go gaga over him and be like.."one day we will be married" ya know? It's just weird. Here's to you Mr. Ledger...You are missed, greatly. You had at least 5 more top box offices left. Seriously.

Well On the Line is on and I'm a sucker for Chick flicks.....so yeah.

Until love
~Me